I had a dentist appiontment today. I swear he likes to torture people!
My therapist mentioned that dissoziation can be useful like when at the dentists, so I tried to dissoziate, but I couldn't 'go' too far, because I suck at coming back. But not going far didn't work. meh.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
we hate the dentist to and we really need to go but well have a feeling we wont ..instead we will just let our teeth rot. *shrug* whatever..lol
we did have a dentist once that would prescribe and have us take ..****.. whats it called..ummmm...not vicidin but.. ****.. that pill older rich ppl used to always take to calm down and sleep.. i forget sorry our memory sucks bad lately.. anyhpw it worked good but still hated going.
I have to go to them again in 6 weeks. Apparently my tooth was really bad and he had to do some root canal stuff. They were surprised that I didn't have a tooth ache.
I decided that I shouldn't hate or dislike the dentist, I should dislike my bad teeth.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Hi, I'm Patti. I have PTSD and very dissociative. I space out and lose time. My therapist and pdoc are saying I might be DID. I'm not sure. I'm really confused right now. So, much has been going on.I'm really new here. Trying to learn my way around.
I've been lurking this thread for so long!
I've finally got the gall to make a post here. Lol.
Welcome to the forum, princess4605.
I also have PTSD, and I've been diagnosed DDNOS for a while now. At first I was thinking I may have DID, and as well as my doctor, but my therapist thought it sounded more like psychosis. Sooo, now I have a Psychotic Depression diagnosis. I'm too scared to take anti psychotics in case I really don't have PD\.
Hi guys,
I was wondering if anyone would be able to give me advice.
I myself don't have DID, I just become someone else but am aware of feelings etc of me.
I have recently started a group for BPD/EID, one of the group has told me she has DID and the other night I ended up texting an alter. She has between 40-50 alters, and has sent me a list of them all. Prior to becoming one of the alters she told me that she thought one of them was trying to get out. Is this a normal sort of feeling? To know that one of the alters is going to take over? After having a text conversation with the alter I went to bed and when I woke up I text the 'body alter' to check she was okay. She was back to the person I know from group but didn't know who she had been. When she asked I told her and she said it explained alot.
Sorry to go on! I am just wondering if there is anything I need to do when I am in a conversation etc with an alter? I just want to understand a bit more. I am going to speak to one of the group leaders when I next see her, but thought I would try here as you guys are experiencing it on a day to day basis.
Any info would be very much appreciated!
xx
Scarlet Angel, I don't have DID, but one of my closest friends does. Obviously, since I don't have it I can't answer from the perspective of someone who does, but as someone who has talked to a lot of alters, I can try and help. I don't think there's anything special you need to do when you're having a conversation with an alter. An alter is just another person and I think it helps to just react to them normally, and just talk to them if they want to talk. Some alters won't know you as well as others and may be more shy with you, or may not like you as much, and it's important not to take that personally. Some may just not know you as well and that makes them more shy, or they just won't have the same relationship with you as others. It really helps to be patient.
Is she OK with you talking to the group leaders about her DID? Just that it can be a very personal thing for some people, and I think it would be important to talk to her about it first, if you haven't already done so.
I think it's great that you're trying to understand what it's like for her! You sound like a good friend.
Thank you so much for the advice. Its only the group leader that knows about the DID I was going to speak to, just for some advice, but I will talk to her first and check she is okay with it.
Welcome to RYL Patti! feel free to pm me if you have any questions etc.
Welcome to the Dissociative Distress Thread Rawiah! I love your signature, sometimes I look at it for several minutes.. lol
I have an appointment with my therapist and my mom next week. I'm scared that I dissoziate when my mom is there. I almost never dissoziate when my mom is there, she doesn't know how bad it gets at times. She never was there when I was so gone that I couldn't move, walk or talk. She hasn't been there when I was so far 'gone' that I didn't remember what I did or said.
Is there anyone whose parents know about the dissoziations and how did the parents react when they found out about it?
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Aw, Thanks! Lol, sometimes I stare at it for several minutes too... just to get a good laugh or a smile. :)
That sounds like a really tough spot to be in. Has your mother seen you dissociate before? Normally, if I have a session with my mom in the room too, she doesn't notice me dissociating, and my therapist will normally try to "bring me back". Otherwise, we don't discuss anything heavy so I don't dissociate around her.
I wish I knew what more to tell you. Sorry I'm not really that helpful right now.
Nope... she hasn't witnessed me dissoziating. Oh gosh.. it's going to be a shock for her if I'm so gone that I can't talk. What if I can't hear? It happened before.
I've had episodes where I was screaming and shouting and didn't know what I said afterwards. I know that it wont be that bad.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I always feel like I shouldn't post here because I don't have DID, but, um. I'm really struggling with dissociation right now. I'm so far away all the time. I barely feel like I'm in control of my own body. When I speak it doesn't feel like my voice speaking. I say things I don't mean to say. I do things I don't mean to do--I put the hob on and forget about it. I stand in the same spot just staring at something. I feel like I'm out of sync with the world, like it's moving at a different time from me. I don't know how to describe it, but it's very distressing--I don't feel in control, and that's scary. I just feel far, far away, and it's hard to come back to myself. I don't feel like I'm real.
*hugs hiding* here if you want to talk, or you can pm me if you want to.
I had to take care of my best friend 3 or 4 times in the last 2 weeks. Everytime because of mental illness stuff. I went with her to hospital for an emergency appointment once and another time her mom went with her. She slept at my place twice, I slept at her place twice. All in the last 2 weeks. I really like her and I enjoy spending time with her, but it is draining to take care of her when she is not well at all.
I hope I am getting a quiet night tonight and I'm spending the weekend at the Circus, because I'm taking part in a circus theater project which is a lot of fun but not being well does make it very exhausting.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Thanks for your support mute.scream (can I call you Laura) I'm sorry you're feeling so tired and stressed lately. I know how draining it can be to look after people when they are sick. I think you're a great friend for taking care of her like that, but try to remember to look after yourself too, and give yourself some space--you need and deserve it.
I've been having a difficult few weeks what with one thing and another--I've been off sick for three weeks due to mental health stuff, and I'm supposed to going back for reduced hours starting on Tuesday. I generally feel very tired and down. The dissociation makes things really difficult--it's so hard to focus or make sense of everything, and everything feels really far away. It's really scary to me to keep ending up in places and not knowing how I got there or buying things and forgetting I bought them--I don't like it. I don't know how to help myself with it either--I've at least got some techniques for managing depression etc, but nothing for dissociation and I don't really know how to cope with it. :(
hi,
I have PTSD and Borderline PD,
I have had experiences of depersonalisation and felt like everything is very unreal recently. I have had a total loss of sensation of my body before, which really freaked me out. It was like I could not tell where my body ended and everything else began. Also I sometimes feel like its not safe for me to be walking around town, because I might get hit by a car because I feel totally far away, like theres a great distance between me and the present moment.
Not sure if this is dissociation? whatever it is its wierd
oh yay, a dissociation thread. I'll probably come back here a lot, I have DID and have been suffering a ton with it. It's a bloody night mare, and scary too.
someone inside me keeps wanting to do all this nasty stuff. I don't have the confidence to break the secrecy of that stuff yet. :(
The loss of sensation in the body is not nice. I've had it during sex once, i just ignored it and hoped it would go away and it passed after a while, but having sex when you're detached from your body is weird. well DID and all that mallark is weird anyway, but yeh.
it happens when i self harm too, my arm feels like someone elses arm resting on my lap, like a dead weight, and when i cut it it feels like i'm cutting a dummy, except it's attached to me so i can't wave it around, but it's scary.
Hi everyone, I don't know if you remember us. We were here I suppose about this time last year. A lot has gone on. Sophie and Mercy have integrated into the person I am now. I have been officially diagnosed with BPD, PTSD, EDNOS and DID during a month long hospital stay. I am at uni now, just. To be honest, post integration I have been struggling with all the odd feelings. I miss being separate in a way. I never thought to come here, but last night Tracy came out, she's a child alter, never been out like this before, that I remember. It confused Tom, my boyfriend though he's been here for the whole story.
I don't know if anyone here even remembers me.
Sophie-Mercy: Integrated/ getting used to each other. Host
Tracy: I don't really know her, but she's 6 and 3/4s.
Ava, counts to ten or three depending on how badly she is doing. Young
Erin: In charge, Erin doesn't feel anything, she just is. Always.
