Oh wow. Momentum in less than a week! I am so nervous, but so excited at the same time. I'm going to worshipping and loving the Lord in such wonderful company. I love Him so, so much and he has moved in my life in the most amazing ways. There have times when things have seemed so desperate, but He has always come through for me. I am so, so thankful. So thankful. I am going to lift my hands up so high. I love you Jesus!
You are all in my thoughts and prayers, thread dwellers and beyond. :)
That song is brilliant, Katie (I hope it's OK to call you that.)
“Our defeats are softened and our victories are sweetened because we did it together.” - Toby Ziegler.
Hi everyone,
Hope you're all doing okay.
I received the news yesterday that the one gap year place I applied to (see earlier post) don't want me, cos of my ongoing MH issues. This was a church, and I feel like it's the last straw with regards to my faith. It's the only place that I've liked (depression doesn't let me enjoy anything so this is a biggie) and I feel like that's it now. I don't want to do anything else, and even if I did, most places have closed applications (I applied in December as well and only got news yesterday) and I'd then need references, interviews, visit, and then get a place (maybe) AND still find time to fund-raise to actually be able to afford to go. I'm at a bit of a loss to be honest. It feels like I can't move forward with my life till I'm better, but I'm not getting better. I've asked God a million times what He wants me doing next year but He has been silent. So I went with my instincts and passions, cos God gave me them I guess. Now it just feels like God is so far away, mocking me.
with a similar problem, i was once told that when it feels like God is saying no, it's because he's got something better planned. it still hurts like anything to be in your position though.
cloudedmind sorry to hear that but as tambohuuta said God does have a plan for you no matter how much it seems like things are not going as you would have hoped. I have had problems with the fact that I got kicked out of uni then chose not to go back because of MH problem but I have faith that God has a different way of me helping people planned :)
I am finding church so helpful at the moment, it's the one day when I feel more at peace, especially on communion days. Plus it has brought my family back together in a way which is always good :)
I am currently thanking God because at my very lowest He has given me a fantastic chance as of yesterday and it's made me realise the truth in the phrase that roughly goes 'He will test you but won't give you more than you can handle', at the end of my tether He threw me a life line and I am so grateful, whilst still praying for those not so lucky.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
I have had quite a few disappointments over the years. I know what it's like to not get jobs and placements. It has happened to me many times. It always feels disheartening, and it's easy when it happens to have negative thoughts about yourself.
But I do know that we can always hold on to God's love. It's always there, and always available. Our outer lives do have many problems, but the loving presence of God is constant. His goodness and love is with us forever, and we can always trust in Him whenever we open our hearts to Him.
I would just say don't give up on your relationship with God. It is so important to keep drawing close to Him. Keep praying and asking for His love. It will come to you, and carry you through everything.
"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and wrong because sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
I am having trouble with my faith right now, I don't know if I am a christian or not, I mean I pray but nothing happens, it doesn't change anything, I like to meditate and just think about stuff. Everyone where I live is an atheist, they don't believe in god and stuff, apart from one girl but she believes that men are better than women and that the bible says that (obviously not! we are all equal) but yeah I am having a hard time right now <3
I am a questioning christian at the moment. I guess Im going through a period of wondering what is the path I want to be on.It probably doesnt help that I feel so disconnected from my faith at the moment.
Maybe if I post here it might help :)
Also if its not too much trouble I need some prayers,my nan is pretty sick and Im not coping very well with it.
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
I am having trouble with my faith right now, I don't know if I am a christian or not, I mean I pray but nothing happens, it doesn't change anything, I like to meditate and just think about stuff. Everyone where I live is an atheist, they don't believe in god and stuff, apart from one girl but she believes that men are better than women and that the bible says that (obviously not! we are all equal) but yeah I am having a hard time right now <3
It's okay to question, God in my opinion doesn't just want blind followers He wants people to question, to research to be sure when they finally come to Him. Don't worry about being unsure and with regards to gender I don't think God believes one is more valuable than the other, I accept that God gave us free will in everything including interpreting His word and the bible was predominantly written in a period when men had more power and standing than women, I don't believe this is God's view, just that the people interpreting His word believed that. Don't know if that helps :) Also, I don't think prayers are designed to fix things, but if they are meant honestly even if we don't see it straight away God gives US the strength to fix or deal with things, through Him.
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I am a questioning christian at the moment. I guess Im going through a period of wondering what is the path I want to be on.It probably doesnt help that I feel so disconnected from my faith at the moment.
Maybe if I post here it might help :)
Also if its not too much trouble I need some prayers,my nan is pretty sick and Im not coping very well with it.
To be honest I think some of the best Christians are the ones questioning, because they explore and deeply think about their faith if/when they finally decide to follow the Lord their faith is if anything truer, as they have thought carefully about it not followed blindly and have come to this conclusion. With regards to your path I am sure that you will choose the right one for you and those around you, it just might take time to find it which I know is frustrating but also know will more than likely land you on the right one, eventually.
I am also struggling with feeling disconnected with God a fair bit of the time, I can only hope that you and I find our way back. I like to think that God isn't hiding or truly distant but letting us test our own legs, sort of like a mother stepping back to let her baby learn to walk, she wants and yearns to help but knows the best thing for the baby is to learn to walk on it's own two feet.
With regards to your gran I will mostly certainly pray for both you and her. God will take care of you both. I'm sure of it.
Aside from the above replies I am missing my connection with God and trying to find a way of relinking so as to speak. Any advice?
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
I guess a good way of relinking is immerse yourself in it if that makes sense. So you could read some of the bible or listen to some songs about Jesus, I know that always helps me reconnect a bit especially the more modern stuff because I feel like that applies to me.
Do you go to church very often?Its nearly easter so its a very good time to try and reconnect as there are a lot of special masses going on.xx
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Thankyou, I just am really put off religion I see it as boring and with loads of rules, at every church I have ever gone to, this is the way they view God
The way they view God isnt the way you have to view God :) x
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
x