Hollz, I used to have the dissolve in the mouth, but was concerned they'd interact with my homeopathic treatment, and also I didn't like the taste. So I requested the hard tablet form, and they changed my prescription.
commenting on the mitrazapine topic. it was the first ad i was on and i used to take it an near enough fall asleep instantly -withint half hour -
and found myself numb and tired.. quite a relif... then as i got used to it i could take when iw as wanting to sleep and it worked and felt like normal sleep.
im back from my nans - dont feel any better but at least im trying
will catch up on everyones posts i promise
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
i know i took it early heh, but i wanted to see what effect it would have on me, rather than waiting til night, because i take serequel and it makes me sleep, so i wouldnt be able to tell what effects it has.
left - hope your ok.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I'm getting annoyed as my quetiapine has been upped to 600mg at night, and it is having very little effect on me, its not making me drowsy at all, 75mg used to knock me out :S
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Ok its been 3 weeks since i last spoke to the guy i used to go out with, it was left at he needed time, so well ive given him 3 weeks. so im going to txt him on thur.
But half of me knows that chances are he will say he doesnt want to speak to me again and i dont know how to deal with that, i know its most likly going to happen, but i dont know.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
have found the same with quetiapine..some nights seems I've not taken it..others I'm a zombie..
Good luck with the mirtazapine...it worked well for me...for awhile.
He has tried me on cipralex...and for the first time in 9 years, i think I may have a med that works.
*fingers crossed*
Hollz, im sorry you feel you have to gamble...could you try calling someone from GA?? Just to talk to them? I know when I'm set on something, no one can really talk meout of it...
Hey mari, would it be possible to have some plans (good ones) in mind in case the call is bad news?
Not sure what else to say, except feel free to PM if you think it might help
its great when you find a med that works *hugs lamotragine*. I know its likely to happen, but i need a conclusion to it all wether it be good or bad, so that im not thinking about it anymore. But i guess it all goes back to the abandonment thing and how to deal with it, and i guess im not good at dealing with it. Until i txt him i wont know where this whole situation stands but im scared.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I don't doubt you are scared! i would certainly be too.
I would feel the same on the needing to know, one way or another.
Is remaining friends an option? Or would that be too painful?
Its the option we where both willing to take, but last time we spoke i said " i will be your friend but as long as you dont change your mind and leave me". He took it badly like i was planning our future and dictating what he does, i didnt mean it in any other way than dont change your mind. I was only saying it to protectr myself but he took it really wrong.
But honestly its up to him, if he leaves and doesnt want to talk to me then i have to deal with the abandonment, if he stays friends i have to deal with that, so either option is going to mess me up.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I'm sorry, Mari. that is a tough spot to be in, either way.
Let us know ok?
thinking of you
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im sat here having been drinking...but i did get up really early (4:30 AM) and go t a lot done..but thats no excuse...
also 'done' some of my meds..really not good..eventually leads to wanting illegal things.
Just..it seems so remote, so unimportant...so why waste time worrying about it?
blah..w/e
Well Done Rowie!!!! that really is great news!
remember, take it one small step at a time!
k x
Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever.
What do you mean you done some of your meds.? Wow that was really early to get up, but at least you got things done. Just be carful with the drinking and dont go over your limit.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
hey mari, i dont really have much advice or anythng, to be honest im a bit groggy and fuzzy headed atm from my new meds.
hey romp, in my opinion anyone can come play it all adds to the thread xx
They met about me today at the hospital so am waiting now to hear what they say should be in the next few days.
went to see the gp as well about the new meds was only a quick pop in, he was nice we didnt really talk abut much but it was nice to hear him say I MUST pop in in 2 weeks to just say hi. also got a sick note so am going to try benefits although i hate the idea but i have no idea what to do atm and after a crappy wkend i realised i dont think id be ready for work yet.
Today my thought was, well I wanna move out coz I cant be assed with my parents, and they want me to take some responsibility for myself, I don't wanna fall out with any more friends with livint with them, so I could get a flat for mself.........
I pay my mum £150 a month for digs, and my trust deed is 200 a month altogether, but i only in a trust deed to protect my parentsd from the truth, so i couldmove out, go bankrupt and find somewhere at 350 a month for just me......
Och I dunno
***goes to look at flats***
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
was up on the money, then i blew it all with one spin of the wheel
i'm such an idiot, crying cryng, i've starting hitting the tablets again
its such a mess, everoyone and everthing, im outta control, gambling addiction, alcohol probs, aint had a drink since friday, been too busy cleaning my carpet after the mess from friday night, now i want a bloody drink, all i have is citrus vodka and to hell with it, to hell with everything, the addictions have won, this bloody illness has won, and my cpn thinks im bloody great and dandy coz i got myself to work and off probation and for dragging myself to ga, i dragged myself there but im still at it, gmbing hard and i have had enough enough enough of evreything
I wanna be like my brothers and sister, my friends and the rest of my family, I don't wanna be like this, I'm going to end up with nothing and nobody. Sorry.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Is there anyone online - I'm driving myself insane :(
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
