You expect me to forget everything you did, well i can't, okay? I can't.
I hate you.
I don't even class you as my brother.
Brothers don't do that to their sisters.
What is it inside you that allows you to forget everything good that has happened between us? What made you give up? You know that we both got screwed by things that neither of us could control, so why? I'm ashamed, it's true. Even more so now that I know you're getting married. Yeah, I'd always hoped...but, now, hope is lost. You have no idea how much that hurts.
You dont seem to notice...but I know you do...you don't seem to care; I hope you dont. It's a stupid thing to make me feel so low and the fact you don't care really does help me...but I don't know how long I can fight a losing battle.
Fuck You - You Fucking Cunt. You Dont Feel Like Coming Out Tonight...cos Its Late, Well Fuck You, If You Cared You'd Fucking Be Here, I Know If U Were Ill I'd Fucking Be At Yours, Cos I Fucking Care, You Dont Give A Fucking Shit About Me.....how Many More Times Will I Have To Cut Myself Over You Before I Get The Fucking Message.
I care. Too much. You mean a lot to me. Your compliments mean more to me because they're few and far between. And when you give them to me, I know they're heartfelt. I have a great life and people that care about me. Why am I so afraid that our conversations are going to make you miserable? Maybe I'm just more focused on messing myself up. I don't know. I like talking to you. You make life make sense and you are the only person who thinks like I do. You're not going to think twice about my "Matrix" comment because it'll make sense to you. I should really leave you alone. That was my goal. But, you make me feel normal.
i wish id never got myself into this situation
im in way too deep now and im in lies upon lies
and i cant keep it up much longer.
you nneeed to understand i didnt want to hurt you, and thers rumours everywhere, dont believe anything until it came from me. your opinion means so much to me,
why cant u love me?
why am i so unlovable?
wat did i do to deserve this?
please help me to understand!
i just want love!!!!!!!!
i want to be wanted!
i want to be worth something!!
You made me feel bad for eating. So i stoped.
You made me feel bad for talking to people. So i stoped.
Now you're making me feel bad for living. I'm trying to stop.
I'm tired of putting up a brave front. All who see me simply see my deception, my fake smiles and joyless laughs. I try to stay positive but in the end, I'll never truly be happy.
Previous username: Miss-Ruby
R.I.P my budgie Bubbles 26/01/09...in my <3 forever.