Started self harming at 14, stopped at 16 i think..around there...
But Ive had difficulty with food and eating for most of my life. I still cant over come it.
It's a blurry line. All my life I've self harmed in some way to deal with feelings, but at the beginning it was just digging my nails into my palm, or biting down on my skin. I used to hit myself with a hammer, creating massive bruises. But when things definitely got more extreme, going from using my nails to scratch my skin, then a pair of scissors, then a pin, then a pin drawing blood, then increasing severity with a knife or a razor blade. All this happened over many years, and it's hard to say when it really began, especially since at the beginning it was very infrequent.
First started cutting at age 14. moved on to bulimia then resorted back to self harm
"This girl's seen a lot of pain but this girls gunna smile again, she knows that a flower grows everytime
It rains and this girls got a lot of dreams, she knows that tommorrow aint what it seems, she might not solve a mystery tonight...
But this girls gunna be alright"
I don't remember when I stared to self harm. I've been always doing it in some form as long as I remember (mostly picking off scabs and running into things on purpose and bruising). Started to cut with 20.
I think I started with 9, but I'm not sure because I basically have no memories of my childhood.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Scratching/bruising/banging my hands against objects ages: 14-15 I first tried to cut myself at 15, but instead just scratched my wrist raw. I am not sure why. Things were piling up and I needed a release I guess. I remember being frustated when I didn't bleed.
Cutting-16. I stopped for a good several years, but started again off and on when I was 20.
Started when I was two months away from my 18th birthday...stopped about a month after my birthday. After the initial recovery didn't struggle at all for two years. Then I started coming close several times; finally relapsed several times last year.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
had eating issues since i was 9/10 cause i was over weight. started working out and strict diet during 8th year. wanted to cut since 12 but only started scratching w/sharp objects on and off till 16. one of my friends used to cut and i decided to try it to under stand her. it kinda stuck.
I cut myself up a bit with the sharp edge to a wall scraper or something like that when I was eleven or twelve or so; when I was fourteen, I started cutting regularly.
"We're called to hold our hands against the wounds of a broken world, to stop the bleeding."
-Don Miller
I was 13 when I started to use things other than my nails or teeth...I didn't realize what I was doing at that point...I remember biting and scratching since I was 5...it was for the same thing I later used blades for...
I did the first cut when I was 14, it was small and lead to just other 2-3 cuts. Then I stopped and I started regularly when I was 16 (almost one year ago).
I never thought I'd feel this
Guilty and I'm broken down inside
Livin' with myself nothing but lies
I always thought I'd make it
But never knew I'd let it get so bad
Livin' with myself is all I have
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time