"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
ive got to meet with the police this afternoon to start giving them statements about what my sister and her friends do to me.
im really scared, dont want to do it but know this is the only way to make it stop.
the nice lady will be with me but im so scared.
*curls up tight*
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
yesterday was so so hard i spent hours with the police, i had to tell them about the incident the day before first, which i really struggled with and spent a lot of the time in tears. i was a complete mess and i feel so ashamed and dirty.
we covered the last two incidents yesterday as they were very fresh in my head, then they said id done enough for one day. i think theyre sorting out an injunction against my sister for now.
im really scared though ive just told our special secret wasnt supposed to tell anyone. i been bad girl *curls up tight*
That wasn't a special secret Jo. She forced you into keeping a secret because she knew she was doing horrible things to you and tricked you into keeping it secret. SHE is bad for hurting you, not you. *hugs*
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
ive decided im going to tell the police everything, i have to do this i just have too.
im really scared about doing it but im going too, i need her out of my life, nomore hurt.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
im supposed to be meeting with the police today to get more statements done, IM SO SCARED. i dont know if im going to be able to do this, i feel so sick and my stomachs in knots.
i dont feel like a good brave girl Tracie
*curls up shaking*
i spent 5 hours with the police yesterday, it was so hard and i really struggled but managed to tell them some.
i had lots of flashbacks when i was with them but they did get bits of information during them.
they still want more details from me but i couldnt do anymore yesterday so im seeing them on tuesday, but im really not coping to well just now.
im feeling very out of control and unsafe at the moment.
so scared about seeing police tomorrow.
still feeling so out of control and unsafe not sure i can do this anymore, the police want to know to many details. me cant.
i met with the police again yesterday i did manage to tell them quite a lot more and thought i was doing quite well until they gasped and the looks on their faces of disgust made me feel so dirty.
no sweetie- they werent disgusted with you, and you're VERY brave to talk to them <3
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
