support for katie - when.will.it.end

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Got lots of unpacking to do! Annoyingly it's agency staff on tonight who are a bit useless so I won't have any staff to talk to but feeling okish so far. Best friend is in hospital with an od so might need to see her/feed her cat.

[Wonderland.]

How are you today?

Hope you managed to unpack some of your stuff last night.

I hope your friend is okay.

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Stressed! Got a million and one things to sort out with the move and need to arrange starting treatment for my eczema. Still don't know how things work here and how to approach staff. Want to overdose to get away from it all. Ahhhhh.

[Wonderland.]

Moving is stressful so remember to be gentle with yourself.

It'll take some time to settle in and adjust to your new environment.

The staff are there to help, so if you need some support go and speak to them. It's what they get paid to do.

Please try not to overdose. Do you think you could speak to one of the staff and tell them how overwhelmed you are feeling?

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I asked to speak to them (yay go me) but we just talked about practical stuff that needs sorting. Might try and talk to them properly later. Going out now to the hospital to try and sort eczema stuff. It's gona take forever to get through this todo list.

[Wonderland.]

Well done for speaking to them, that is brill. I hope you are able to speak to them later.

Could you prioritise the things on your list so you get the important things done first?

I hope everything goes okay at hospital.

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Thanks <3 you're right that that is what they are paid to do. I want to make the most of this opportunity and not waste it.

Gona try and do that yeah. I'll do my skin stuff first, then benefits, then bills. And unpacking later.

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I passed out, again. I'm in hospital, again. I wish I was dead, again. Ahhhhhjjjjjjjjjjjhhhhhh

[Cacoethes]

Do you get warning signs when you're about to pass out?

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Sometimes.

[Cacoethes]

What kind of signs?

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Feel really out of it. Disorientated. Dizzy. Which normally makes me panic so then I was anxiety/panic symptoms too.

[Cacoethes]

Have you tried grounding techniques when you get warning signs?

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Yep. I also try and sit down somewhere private until it passes. But it doesn't work. Nothing I try seems to work.

[Cacoethes]

It's good that you have enough warning to sit down or get somewhere safe.
Do you think it's stress related? I know you've been under a lot of stress recently.

[Wonderland.]

I'm sorry to hear you passed out again. Is your doctor investigating the underlying cause?

You seem to be passing out a lot lately and that is quite concerning. It must be rather frustrating and distressing for you to go through.

Are you feeling any better now?

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Thank you both for being kind about it. Heading back to hostel now.

Yeah it definitely gets worse with stress. Gp referred me to cardiology for tests but honestly think he was clutching at straws and I doubt they'll care/take me seriously/find anything. I feel rough but at least I'm conscious and out of a&e. And the hostel said they wouldn't phone for an ambulance if it happened there. Not sure how safe that is but certainly don't want to be going to hospital so I guess it's good.

[Cacoethes]

If they're not doing anything at hospital then there's really no need to go.
Like with my seizures there's no need to go to hospital because they can't do anything once it's passed.

I would definitely push for a referral though, I'm surprised they haven't suggested a neurology referral tbh.
Even if they don't find anything at least it's ruled some things out.

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I always wondered about a neuro referral. Not sure why it's not been done. I have a new gp though so I'll ask her when I see her. Fresh set of eyes might help. You're right there's no point going to hospital. I do try and explain that to paramedics but they never listen. Think they were on verge of calling the police if is tried to leave today. So frustrating.

[Cacoethes]

Hopefully your new gp will be able to sort a referral out. :)

I've had that with paramedics before, I suppose it's because they'd get in trouble if anything happened after they left so they're just covering themselves. But if it happens at home then you should be ok to recover in your own time.