the nice lady wants me to think about talking to the police, but how can i ? shes my sister and she says she loves me and that i am cursed and i make her do the bad things to me. she say im the bad one not her, she say i like what she does cause my body tells her so, but i dont she says im lying cause bodies dont lie. i dont understand, i dont like it, i dont please believe me.
your body reacting is a normal physical response, just blinking when something gets close to your eyes is a normal response. your sister does not love you. people who love you do not hurt you. they protect you from being hurt. you are not cursed. your sister is lying to you to try to get you to be quiet and let her continue hurting you. she is making the choice to hurt you hun, you can't make her do that stuff to you.
you can talk to the police, i know you can. it'll be hard but the nice lady will help you. your sister and her friends are evil. they are the bad ones. not you. they are choosing to hurt you over and over and over, and deserve to be punished. they need to be stopped, they shouldnt be allowed to hurt anyone ever again. yes, she is family, she is your sister, but that does not give her the right to lie to you and hurt you and let you be hurt. family is supossed to take care of each other, never hurt each other. she is not acting like a sister should be. don't let the fact that she is your sister stop you from talking to police hun. they all need corrected and helped.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
*wraps arms around you*
sorry it was a bad day
good for you for standin up for yourself! bad she went mad though
you are right though, you never have to let her hurt you again
have the nice lady help you get safe from your sister and her friends
do something relaxing hun, take care of yourself <3
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Jo honey, you need to tell the police. And while sometimes people who love us hurt us, we can't let them hurt us because we love them. That doesn't make it ok.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
do i have to tell the police?
im scared
my head is so muddled up, does she love me? she doesnt does she? or is all my fault am i bad, cursed i dont no i dont no
im sorry im just a screw up
youre not a screw up and youre not cursed. your sister is bad and that is why she is hurting you. she doesnt love you. if she loved you she wouldnt do sexual things with you, let her friends do that stuff to you, she wouldnt leave you so hurt that you have to visit the hospital.
you dont have to tell the police, but you should. telling the police will hopefully make you safe from her forever, and also your sister would not be able to hurt anyone else. she would get the correction and help she needs so that maybe she will never hurt anyone again like this. you really do need to call the police. i know thats scary; let the nice lady help you. you dont have to do it alone.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
i bad *curls up* couldnt do it.
me not brave girl me weak
saw special dr that was so hard and it hurts lots, but couldnt talk.
i tried but was in so much pain and thoughts so bad just couldnt.
i bad and weak
sorry
*hides away and cries*
You're not bad or weak. *hugs* It's really hard and scary to talk. Just try again next time ok? You can do it. Write it down and give it to the nice lady. That's easier than talking. Even print one of the posts you've made here. Okay?
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
*cuddles into Tracie*
i did eventually manage to talk to nice lady yesterday, told her most of what sister did over the weekend and why she left sharp in me, i did have to write some of the yucky details down though couldnt say them to her.
she still wants me to speak to the police, but i dont think i can cope with that. i struggle so much telling her whats happened how can i tell the police?
im just stupid stupid.
*curls up crying*
=D WHAT A good job Jo! *hugs lots* Am SOOOOO proud of you doing that! You talked to her and that's immense. See if you can write things with her that you can give to police. Often with police you need to write down reports anyway, so that might suffice. Great job! =D
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
my neighbour called the police yesterday when she heard my screams, but sister had gone when they got there. they automatically assumed it was a man who'd hurt me, and i couldnt tell them it wasnt, i couldnt say anything i just got scared and shut down.
im sorry
im useless and stupid
sorry
You have to stop the self-depreciating statements Jo, they're not going to help. I'm sure the police have somewhat of a report and you can tell the nice counselor or whoever she is that it was your sister. In the meantime try and get some locks and do not let her in under any circumstances.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
