If you can find it sooner just in case you need it over the weekend, perhaps you should give it a go?
I'm tired, fed up and have resorted to having a few cans to boost my mood as I have been feeling **** the last few weeks. Haven't had a drink since Sunday so can forgive myself a few cans as a treat.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
websites are useless.
im reluctant to call the hospital because they dont have any of my records or anything anyway.
crisis team occurs froma referal... i have no referal yet. i love the system its so hilariously bad
a few drinks is a treat yes.. but they still dont solve anything. its a treat .. sodont let it make you worse by going too far. you know your limits x
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
-
Emily Bronte
Welcome Ram! Of course we don't mind you hovering. You can jump right in and post about whatever is bothering you if you feel comfortable doing so.
Sarah, you don't need to be under them to call them. I was referred to them this week - although told them to piss off but in the past, when I haven't been under them, I have still been able to call and speak. I have given up on that now though as it wasn't helping but plenty of people find them helpful. You don't need to give the hospital your details or anything, just call the switchboard and ask for the number. It is best to try and have the number ready just in case.
xxx
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
theres 3 hospitals near me.. no idea which one will have the right numbers . its ridiculous i had them back home then they discharged me coz i smiled now im in need of them again and cant fecking get hold of them.
stupid crisis system. grrrr
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
-
Emily Bronte
i didnt know that carrie! my cpn told me i didnt need the crisis team and it wasnt for people like me but another nurse who saw me after an od gave it to me.
Sarah, you are just putting it off. The hospitals prob have numbers linked up somehow. That's ok. Seriously though, it should be fairly easy to find but as you say you can get the number on Tuesday so as long as you are ok til then I will stop bugging you :) Have a good evening hun.
I always used to crash the crisis line. It's not as if they can turn you away and at night, the same members of staff that man the 'phone line are also some of the people that assess you in A&E.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
At least people have help you know. It might be better than nothing but at least it is there for you. This isnt a go at anyone, but im sick of everyone saying how they have all this help and dont try/dont want it to work.
Try being on your own with everything, i dare you try it and see how you ****ing like it.
Im done with all of this, seriously.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Mari, I'm not sure if your post was aimed at me or others. However, I would like to note that until my care-co-ordinator was changed in June/July this year, there was nothing on offer for me. I'm not allowed individual therapy due to it being considered "too unsafe" and I wasn't even offered the TC previously. Re the crisis team, I have extremely legitimate reasons for not getting on with them due to the terrible things they have said about and to me.
I had to request a change of care co-ordinator before anything was offered.
I had to change GP practices as my last one was terrible towards me.
I have fought for what I have and still find that it isn't helping.
Sorry, don't mean to rant but it has been a fight to get help and some of the help offered to others was not allowed to me (eg individual therapy) and at times I would go for months without cpn support due to him being off. I didn't always have OP support and until I changed my GP, I hadn't realised how much that area was lacking.
It has not been handed on a plate to me.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
hey mari, i have no meds (not allowed apparently coz of bpd) a useless cpn who hates me and only sees me once a month....oh yeah thats it, your right it is hard seeing other people saying about all the help they get but theres no need to be mean to them!
it wasnt aimed at anyone and i wasnt being mean, im ****ing pissed off and upset right now, but ive been hearing so much of it latly. My friend was shocked that i wasnt offered anything dispite me having an ongoing condition, while she gets help for an accident that happend, but nothing as serious as what i have.
I know whats its like i had to fight for years for stuff, but moving areas means everythings more ****ed up. But im lacking the energy to fight this time.
I always feel sad to say this, but unless you end up near dead, no one is going to give a ****.
right il just **** off then, if i learned anything its that i dont care about my life at all, and they can do what they want to me now.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Mari, people here do care though, how come you get no help?
trust me i understand, my friend went to GP with ED in may and was having twice weekly therapy over the summer, i went last oct and have umm nothing yet, and my friends apparently tell me thats my fault.
Why not just talk about it? like i said how come you get nothing? do u not have access to any MH services or anything?
Because the service here is pretty rubbish and they dont have enought resources, therefore only the really ill people get help and im not one of them. Either way i dont have the energy to fight.
I tried so hard for me to be better, until that guy ****ed me up, then i just got like this again, and as much as i try to be fine im not. I cant listen or watch certain things that remind me.
No one cares, because everyone left me here on my own, and when the suicide word is mentioned im more on my own than ever. I didnt cut or overdose for months, he broke up with me i did, and now i feel like i need to force myself to do so, because im just stuck in this void im never going to escape from.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
can u not see the GP on a regular basis (i know sounds rubbish but maybe better than nothing?). i cant believe you get nothing thats awful.
yeah i stopped talking to my friends after a while because they say they want to know but when i actually talk to them they dont and they run away.
i really do know how you feel about the fighting bit, im getting fed up with it and fed up with being told im not trying when i am. people suck mari. im sorry about the bloke as well :(
but dont give up, coz there has to be something for you out there and when you find it it will all come together
Just spoke to my little sis, who is 14, she is in trouble with the police, having to move schools as hers has excluded her.
She is just so lovely though and my ickle sis and I hate to see how my mum behaves towards her. I know here behaviour is out of line but I love her to bits despite it.
I suppose I am worried she is going to end up screwed up like me b/c my mum is completely failing her as a parent.
Sorry, ranting.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Mari, just wanted to say I completely understand how yo ufeel...I hear about these ppl having a CPN, the crisis team, the hometreatment team, the EIP, etc, etc..and they don't use them. NOT the ppl on this thread tho..I'm not saying that. YOu all seem to really be trying and even tho you have 'help' it ISN'T always help!
Just, I know the frustration Mari. It isn't fair...
It's taken me 9 years of seeking help to finally get a good doc...
In the past, no one 'helped' me till I was on the edge, then they simply sectioned me, then to the TC, then home...
Not the way it should be.
Sorry you are having to deal with **** treatment too. I know how awful it can make you feel...like no one cares and that you really aren't very important.
I just dont know what im going to do or where im going to end up. Its lik everyone has left me to it, saying that cant help me anymore and i have to help myself - but i cant, im angry and frustrated and most of all hurt really badly. They just tell me to get over it and it will all be fine, cept its not and never will.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Mari, you are doing really well! You have had a blip b/c of this guy but that is hopefully what it is, a blip.
I don't think I will feel ready when services kick me out and prob most people don't feel ready.
I reckon you should try and build relationship with your gp for now seeing as they are hell bent on not providing other support for you. As your gp gets to know you, they will then be able to assist/reassure you or decide when it is or would be appropriate for you to be referred on.
Maybe, we will all be like this when discharged. It is scary but we all will have to find a way forward with lesser support at some point. You were doing great hun.
Try and concentrate on your guitar/piano and your music tech course.
You can do this and perhaps are strong enough to do it without being caught up in the mh services web and being trapped forever.
xxx
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
