Facet- I know it can be hard coming to grips with having new alters, but being aware of them is a good sign, i know it's alarming but you can get help..
Kyle- do you know whats fueling their need to be in control? Maybe journalling will help..
Grace- to be fair it sounds like a form of dissociation, maybe talk to someone about how these different parts of you are feeling..
Kat- maybe try taling up a sport that helps get rid of some of your built up rage and anger.
BB- you say things are falling apart, maybe talking to someone on the inside is the best thing right now, what do you mean by switching?
Thank you bleeding black and facet for your replies. I seem to have all those symptoms except the forgetfulness (although I do have a bad memory). I've just started seeing a psychologist and when I've got a bit more trust in her then I'm planning on telling her about little me and 'her', just I'm a bit scared. I don't mean this offensively at all, but I really don't want to have DID and I'm scared that I might have.
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
To be given the diagnosis of DID time loss must be present, so you are safe from the DID diagnosis, but not Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified -(DDNOS)
Im freaking out.... i dont know what to do or where to go. i dont feel safe here anymore
chris, thanks...
everything is too much.
i cant communicate with anyone inside, before i didn't want to 'cause i was so afraid something was wrong, and now i can't. I'm angry at them, but also so so so scared that something is wrong, and it became a vicious circle, angry, scared guilty, angry scared guilty.
I got so tired of doing everything for my girlfriend.... i wanted to help and i did, but it made me so much more exhausted.... and now she is upset with me. she 'misses' me 'cause i am so distant and was crying last night... i need help... thing is no one is left [to help]
And i found out my stepdad has been coming into my room uninvited/allowed and unbeknown to me.
bb... sounds like you're both down and not easily able to take up the strain one way or another... if you can acknowledge to eachother that you're shakey and just co-exist for a while i've found that can be helpful, just knowing that they are there but that they arent able to do or be anything, but that either side of the chaos there's love and care there
its what i do with my partner when we're both up against it
it gets to something when several dozen are trying to drive at the same time! so i walk at those times
I spoke to my psychologist today about the other me's. It was a very hard session. It seems like it is definitely a dissociative disorder but she didn't say which type. Afterwards I dissociated and felt like everything was unreal and distance but I'm back down to earth now. The annoying thing is that I keep switching every few minutes so it's hard to keep track of who I am. It's confusing me.
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
It is really difficult to accept DID sometimes, and (not as often anymore) we sometimes question its validity, luckily those bouts of denial don't last long anymore, they cause many more problems, and we don't need that.
The easiest way for me, the host/frontman to accept DID was to embrace it really. Embrace the fact that our mind had the adaptability to use such a complex survival mechanism and get us through the abuse.
Of course, now the immediate danger has passed, the dissociation can continue and instead of protecting, still causes problems. The important thing is to allow your parts, co-conscious or not and and let them know that the danger has passed, they are safe now and give them an outlet (whether it be therapy of writing/art etc). Another really important thing is to thank them for helping, thank them for protecting you from memories or feelings that were much too hard to handle.
We have T in 2 hours and 45mins.... im praying my doc will be helpful today... i really really really need her to...
Hey Kat, sorry to hear about the craziness yesterday... Any clues as to why they took the OD?
T didn't help. I sent a text to her last night at 7:30 telling her i didn't feel safe and felt i needed more support.
It's 12:31 the following day and no response.
I feel ready to quit.
bb... what would be preferred being called? bb, lostboys...? just want to be respectful... i hope your t responds soon and i know from personal experience that having no answer at all is more agony than getting a negative response at times... my heart is with you right now.. and i'm clicking on your dragon whenever i'm in the thread... keep safe friend
Thanks heaps Chris.
lostboys is cool or bleeding black, whatever you'd like, you won't offend us/me
It's just ash at the moment though *peers around inside the seemingly empty recesses of his mind*
I am very frustrated with my T. And i probably would have rathered a negative response... *groan*
A post in another thread on here really pissed me the **** off. I usually don't reply to that forum. But I felt the need to defend myself against something that someone said that offended me.
Maybe i shoiudnt have done that. But it felt good.
heya lostboys... didn't know you saw what i posted and deleted. it was to someone who mimmicked being vulnerable i did all i could to help and support that is abusive, predatorial and did the most revolting, inhumane things to someone. they stalk on and offline. the police know and are keeping records
