Yeah, well it would be a really bad move. Not just for you but for Ritzi too because it is putting you both in financial danger. I'm not surprised she is concerned about it. Do you think you can try and sleep any time soon? or do something relaxing that isn't looking at holidays and adventure? and not putting you at temptation/risk of getting a loan?
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
Sounds like a plan Amy, I hope you can relax a bit and that you sleep well tonight too. I'm with everyone else on this one, loans are a terrible idea!
Leigh, did you get any more essay-ing done?
I hope you've had a lovely evening Ali :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Just had a like, 20 minute argument with Ritzi about taking my meds. She won. She keeps threatening me with hospital but it's a pretty empty threat because 1. I don't need to be there so they wouldn't section me because 2. I wouldn't go in voluntarily even if I did! She's apparently 'contacting my parents' tomorrow. Ugh!! I'm doing sooooo well at the moment! Everything is great!
Yes but now my brain is in overload and anxiety. Like I'm stressing about what to take home and remembering that I need to take my yoghurts and when I can finish my washing up..ahhhhh hate it lol.
I'm going to pack my stuff in a second cause I won't have time tomorrow.
Amy, sometimes things can feel great and then you look back and realise it isn't. It does sound like you are a bit manic like ATM. Plus you only come here when things arent so great (usually) the fact you don't want to take meds and want a loan is quite concerning.
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
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When are you going home? How long are you going for? I always find it helps to make a list of things I need to do before hand and things I need to remember to take so nothing is forgotten!
Tomorrow after placement. Placement finishes at 1 and I need to get a train at 2 that or my dad is going to get a phone call. So I need to be ready tonight. And then tomorrow I need to plan sessions for my camp job that starts Monday for 4 days. I also need to sleep. Too much to do and no time to do it. Actually wanted to be in bed by now
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I'm home for just under 2 weeks. Then back here for 4 and if everything is done by it supposed to have been done I will then be home for summer..well 2 or so weeks before Malawi
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You can do it Leigh! Do the stuff that you need to do tonight quickly now and then get yourself to bed. You can worry about everything else tomorrow. I hope you have a lovely time at home.
Amy, I agree with Leigh. When you feel good and everyone else is telling you things aren't right, they're usually right! I get not wanting to pay attention, I never do either, but that isn't really the best move, because it can go so wrong whereas if you're sensible and listen to advice and take your meds it can be managed, hopefully without making you feel bad.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Doing risky things like taking out loans and getting yourself into debt that you can't afford to pay back?
Becoming really unwell so that you actually can't look after yourself / be looked after at home and do need to be in hospital?
Even if the high mood doesn't become too problematic there's always the possibility of crashing and ending up really low?
That kind of thing!
I'm not saying it's a huge issue at the moment (I don't know if it is or not!) or that you shouldn't enjoy it, but just that you should be careful. A few weeks ago I was like yeah I feel great and ignored what everyone was saying to me, but I ended up quite unwell, massively embarrassed myself at work, had to take time off, spent money I really shouldn't have. I'm glad that you're feeling good, I'm just saying that there are consequences and sometimes other people can see things more clearly than you.
I'll shush about it now though!
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
You sound like Ritzi! Haha. Idk. I think if you asked her and my friends they'd say I'm 'manic' and that it's getting to a point where it would be problematic. There's a bus strike ATM so Ritzi can't get to Galway for Derby at the moment but she just turned round and told me she wouldn't be going even if she could and blamed me! 'It's interfering with my life now'. Idk. I'm just feeling amazing! I love it! It doesn't feel like there will ever be a crash!
I sound like Ritzi because we are both sensible and amazing, clearly :P You should listen to her love, she just wants what's best for you. It never does feel like there will be a crash until it happens!
My new piercing is sore and has kind of swelled up. I don't know why because I'm taking good care of it! Gah. Maybe my body just does not agree with having holes put in it.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
How are you looking after it Hannah? As sometimes that can be the problem? Idk that much about piercings. Even though I have had loads. I think I mostly did salt water washes but I can't remember. If it wasn't that it was antiseptic spray. Try both lol.
Hannah and ritzi are making sense. What goes up must come down.
I have packed. Probably forgot a tonn of stuff but important things like meds and uni stuff is packed. I just need to remember my milk and yoghurts and taking my bins out and cleaning the toilet.
Now in bed. Feeling wired though, due to anxiety rather than elevated mood.
Going to watch something relaxing and non thinking needed and pray I get to sleep soon. I just worry about everything..including wether I will sleep tomorrow night. *facepalm*
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
Yay, well done for getting things done :) Watching something relaxing sounds like a good plan. Does it help to do a relaxation / mindfulness exercise or anything?
Haha yeah I've been using salt water but I've used antiseptic today to see if that helps! I don't want to have to take it out!
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
You've done well, Leigh. I really hope you get some sleep and get through tomorrow ok. <3
Ahh. Icky piercings are the worst! Is it sea salt you're using or table salt? Stick with the antiseptic for a couple of days and see if it calms down. Where is the piercing? My nape got really manly because my hair kept getting caught in it and I wasn't able to clean it properly so had to take it out. How have your other ones healed?
Well. You all are amazing but that doesn't make you right. :P I'm trying to listen but like. Idk. I'm hearing colours!
Sea salt! I shall do that. It's just my ear at the top. Umm, I don't have many. My ear lobes healed fine but that was many many years ago. My nose was fine the first time but then when I got it done again last year it went all horrible and I had to take it out :(
We are amazing and right!
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Cartilage piercings can be a bit trickier to heal. It'll take a while to settle down. It's worse because you aggravate it when you sleep on it so don't give up on it just yet!
Yeah, it hurts when I try to sleep on that side! I can't avoid it though, I am a very active sleeper! :P
Psht yourself. :P
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
