Contains abuse - Survivors of Female Abusers Support Thread

[Frail Existence]

My mommy was bad. why i was taken away from my bio parents. my mom and dad both were. she did not like me either. she hated me. she hurt me a lot. tried to kill me before to. she was mean.

*hugs for everyone*

[sirius]

I dunno what to say tbh. most of my abuse was from girls. mum physically abused me. one of my exes did loads of bad things to me :-/

[on edge]

i havent been on here for weeks and weeks but im really finding it hard just now to cope with sexual abuse by my sister. been trying to cope alone, i shut myself off from everyone and everything but i cant cope anymore.

[troubleshooter]

We can help you cope sweetheart. *hugs close* Can you tell us more about it or how you're feeling?

[on edge]

how can you help me cope, im just useless. *cuddles into you* what they do is disgusting and theyre getting worse, theyve made me feel so ashamed and dirty i just want to die now.

[troubleshooter]

It's not your fault baby, and we've helped you cope before right?

[on edge]

but cant i stop them like i did the men? why is it so hard for me. yes you have helped me before but i feel even worse now tracey *curls up crying*

[Kitkat :)]

I can finally see my cousin without the past being a problem. In fact she's at my house now, I just left her and my other cousins to go back to work for the afternoon shift.

[troubleshooter]

That's great to hear honey. :)

[Frail Existence]

Thats good to hear kitkat!! Bet it made everything go easier!

[l.e.g.o]

fatastic kat

can deal with other abuse but the stuff by my mum is a struggle
i told therapist i want her to be proud of me
therapist said i should forget that cos its unlikely ill get her approval
hurts knowing she can never be proud of me
curls up tight
why is this so much harder to cope with?

[Frail Existence]

I agree with Jo's question "why is this so much harder to cope with?"

[troubleshooter]

*snuggles Libby* My guesses would be society's influence and taboo, people often disbelieving and assuming it's "not as bad", and feelings of alienation. It might also be upset at the lack of punishment they receive.

[Frail Existence]

This world is ****ed up though with all the... *tries to think of the words* I dont know what to call them. Its all soo stupid. And Ima just shut up now.

[l.e.g.o]

feels like mothers can get away with hurting
curls up
im struggling with the fact i had to act like a mother to my mum this week
i was kind and lovely and tried to soothe her pain
she never did that to me
i resent the fact i had to do it
but i hate myself for resenting it
sorry

[troubleshooter]

Lots of people are put in that position and it is unfair. She doesn't deserve to be comforted and loved in a way she never gave to you. *hugs*

[l.e.g.o]

sorry
feel evil for saying what i did

[troubleshooter]

You're not evil. Women who hurt their children that severely are. You were right to say what you said Jo.

[l.e.g.o]

thank you

[on edge]

why cant i find any words to say whats happening now? it was easier with the men, theres words you use for them but how do i tell now its females