"I saw the clouds forming tornadoes in the sky,
The winter winds blew on Lake Michigan that night,
I carved your name into my arms so I would remember you.
Sometimes it hurts so bad I don't know what to say.
Enacting Sybil Vane in some tragic play,
So afraid that I can't ever explain."
Tonight I'm alive just to say I love you to death.
Words are flowing out
Like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy
Are drifting through my opened mind,
Possessing and caressing me
Jai guru deva, om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Images of broken light
Which dance before me like a million eyes
They call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind
Inside a letter box
They tumble blindly
As they make their way across the universe
Jai guru deva, om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Sounds of laughter, shades of earth
Are ringing through my open ears
Inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love
Which shines around me like a million suns
And calls me an and on across the universe
Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Jai guru deva om"
I will get there. Someday
When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I gave everything to you.
And you betrayed me. Just like everyone else.
I'm done.
what is love my love,
tell me do you know?
for me it's dirt and blood and seed
that's how my garden grows
what is this pain inside my veins
that turned to frost, is there an oporation please and how much does it cost?
this love is a scary love
if I had one day left to live,
I'd lock the doors and windows and keep you in
if I had one day left to live I'd wrap myself around you and breathe you in
what is love my love, and tell me why it burns
like rage and fire inside of me it causes no concern
I'm quite used to it, the ashes on my hands
at least I've felt the pain of love that no one understands
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
It's a start of a new year,
And as always, things are exactly the same.
I'm watching my closest get so far from me,
And I've never felt so alone.
I said all I could say,
Not a single thing has changed.
I left them here to doubt me,
They laugh, and then they leave.
I've realized now I'll never become anything.
Another long night of being strung out and alone.
Another night of hearing things
And having messed up dreams.
Another day of rejection.
The people I love seem to be giving up on me.
When I'm alone I make believe that,
I'm in a different time and place where,
nobody wants to know my name and
no one will recognize my face.
All is quiet on New Year's Day.
A world in white gets underway.
I want to be with you, be with you night and day.
Nothing changes on New Year's Day.
On New Year's Day.
"For those who fight for it, life has a flavour the sheltered never know"
-Pinned to a noticeboard at the US Command Post in Khe Sanh.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here
It's so hard that I try to bury it
Pretend that you didn't exist
So I can be strong
But I feel sick
And I feel diseased 'Cause everyone abandons me
And I can't move along
'Cause I'm barely holding on
Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here
I can not pretend you didn't exist
Misery is just a state of mind
Hiding from the world's no way to live
So I'll convince myself that I'll be fine
I'll be fine
But since I lost you I'm barely holding on
Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference between
Me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
So I look up to the stars
And wonder out loud
Why everything I had in life
Has fallen from my arms
Can you even hear this song?
I'm screaming at the clouds
Screaming to a galaxy
That never cared at all
That I need you here
I will get there. Someday
When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I gave everything to you.
And you betrayed me. Just like everyone else.
I'm done.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go. And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night. Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
And i wont let myself be happy
I cut myself just to feel the pain
And i wont give up anything for you
I'm going down and no one can save me
I'm going down and no one can save me
I am cold my legs are shaking
Theres no hope right now I'm begging
Just one sign to show me someone out there really cares
My clothes are soaked up crying
Theres no doubt i know I'm dying
I did this to myself and thats the part i cant believe...
Shes upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer to
drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
She opens it theres nothing there
is only left over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
as the anger runs down both of her cheeks.
Then she closed her eyes
and found relief in a knife
the blood flows as she cries
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the bleeding
Curled up shes on the floor
relief left her she had hoped for something more
from it
The deeper you cut
the deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
it only gets worse
The Way She Feels - Between The Trees x
It may not be pleasant ; but it's always possible - Brian Molko ♥
I was filled with incoherence .Theories of conspiracy .The whole world wants my disappearance, I'll go fighting nail and teeth .You've never seen such perseverance .Gonna make you scared of me,'Cause haemoglobin is the key - Placebo♥
Each day I can feel it swallow, inside something took from me.
I don't feel your deathly ways.
Each day I feel so hollow, inside always beating me,,
You will never see, so come dance with me.
Dance with me
Dance with me
Dance with me
Dance with me (Rumbiddieboo Rumbiddieboo
Dance with me Rumbiddieboo Rum bum dee dum dee
Dance with me bum diddie doo Rumbiddieboo)
ME!
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
will you be there, will you be there by my grave, or will you be the death of me, my beautiful tragedy.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face,
The kind you'd find on someone that could save.
If they don't put me away
It'll be a miracle.
Do you believe you're missing out?
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
With nobody in your bed
The night is hard to get through.
And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone.
Jesus Christ, I'm alone again.
So, what did you do those three days you were dead?
Because this problem is going to last
More than the weekend.
Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die
But I'm a little bit scared of what comes after.
Do I get the gold chariot
Or do I float through the ceiling,
Or do I divide and pull apart?
Because my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark.
This ship went down in sight of land.
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands?
I know you're coming in the night like a thief
But I've had some time, O Lord, to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I'll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try?
I know you're coming for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories.
We all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories.
We all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine.
Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find
Was there something you left behind
Don't you remember anything i said when i said
Chorus:
Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again
And leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding
Hold me now I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you've left to go
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries
Chorus
And I wanted
You turned away
You don't remember
But i do
You never even tried
Don't fall away...
Weird song to have as one of your "This is our song" kind of thing huh?
And shepherds we shall be, for thee my Lord for thee, Power hath descended forth from thy hand, that our feet may swiftly carry out thy command, we shall flow a river forth to thee, and teeming with souls shall it ever be. In nomine patris, et filii, et spiritus sancti.
I can't see, I can't see, I'm goin' blind
I can't see, I can't see, I'm goin' blind
I can't see, I can't see, I'm goin' blind
I can't see, I can't see, I'm goin' blind