"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
My mum just told me she doesn't care about me at all and proceeded to hurt me physically even though
It's nothing knew she hasn't said it to me in a few weeks and it's upset me alot I know she doesn't care it's just always hits me when she just says it like it doesnt occur tonher it hurts and i care about her!! After everything i do for her after all tgese years why cant she even remotely like me!? now I feel triggered and want to run off again because I don't want to face her again today but it's col I'm not well and in pain I don't like sitting in the bus stop for hours :( I just don't want to be here
“There is no sun without shadow, and it is essential to know the night.”
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
but it is my fault, if i was good then she wouldnt have to be like that to me my exxistence is her excuse! im 18 and i still cant deal with her flipping 13 years and she ztill has a grasp. I went on a bike ride today ive been crippled from doing exercise because of my back and though cycling would help me lose weight without the pain i rang her to tell her id tidied and done chores and will be headed out on the bike so she doesnt need to know where i am when im home 'good i hope the breaks give way on you' i tried saying im not going up hill or downhill so the brakes wont ave effect if they give (trying to defend myself and try to be cocky) 'well f'ing go down one then!!' and hung up i was crying and i actually considered going uyp to the common, and cycling down the path without pushing on the brakes to see if she felt remorse after saying it.. i didnt but was close. I dont know what to do she still has such a grasp on me, im spending night after night sitting at the bus station because i cqnt b3 with her i just wish someone would realise and talk to me my family dont believe what i told the doctors at the unit didnt even consider its truth so im still alone with it. I just wish i was good then there wouldnt be any problems i really wish i knew why she doesnet like me. I try doing what she wants but it doesnt work and i get a lot of unnecessary reactions, I try fighting back but i still feel like the pathetic little child. I still do baby things and i just want a break! Im begging for a break before i mentally break again i just dont know what to do.
“There is no sun without shadow, and it is essential to know the night.”
No honey, it's not your fault. You do a lot for your mom and she's still really nasty and mean to you. It's not your fault. Sometimes parents just have no love in their hearts because there's things wrong inside them, and that makes it hard for them to love even the best kids. Even if you try things to make her feel sorry, they will probably fall flat and make you feel worse sweetie. You're not a bad girl or a bad daughter, she's just got something wrong inside her that keeps her from being nice. Why didn't the drs believe you? What was it they didn't believe? We'll believe you honey, tell us more. And it's ok to have some baby habits sometimes, lots of people who've been hurt do. *hugs gently* PM me if you want.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
I've been abused by some women, too, although not to the extent others have been.
My sister is the devil. She terrorized me physically and emotionally all my life. She was removed from our house by the police during Christmas of 2008. She's threatened to kill me and has attacked me physically. She's also attacked my mother. I've never met a more evil person in my life. I moved away two years ago and have not seen her since (thank goodness!). I don't ever want to see or talk to her again!!!
I've been assaulted by many women and almost all my girlfriends. Although I find it is the emotional attacks that burn me from the inside out the most. My former girlfriend's female relatives all told me I am a worthless failure undeserving of love. My girlfriend didn't even object to that . Some females have messaged me over facebook saying that I should do the world a favor and kill myself. My fifth grade teacher would verbally attack me so badly I would have seizures. I've had other experiences with school peers and employers and other evil women.
Not as bad as others, but still hurtful.
I've been told by some women that women are incapable of being abusive to men. I disagree with that.
*hugs TJ gently* Men/boys def can be abused by women and we believe you. That is actually the least reported form of abuse. People who say it's not possible are stupid. It sounds like your sister was real scary, and lots of gf's and relatives were hurtful as well. You should find a girlfriend who is kind and respectful to you *hugs*.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
You know, you never see it happening... or you make excuses for whats happening. I was sexually abused as a child and it caused me to have a hard time trusting people. I am 21 years old, about to graduate from University, have a wonderful fiancee and when I come home I am reduced to a child who is scared to death of my mother. Sometimes I make excuses and think its not abuse but I know deep down it is. I wish she would go to the doctors and go back on her medication. Living with somebody with Bi-polar who wont admit it is awful. Its so hard to to not forgive her and have a great time when she's 'up' because she is the best mum in the world and loves me so much. She showers me with compliments and makes me feel special. but then when something happens she just snaps. I have to live with a women who calls me everything under the sun and is disgusted by me. She hates who I am and cant make me feel small enough... she just keep making me feel smaller and smaller.
She tells everyone how awful I am and makes up stories. Ive given up trying to make people believe me. She makes me life at home a living hell and I don't have my dad to go to anymore. I feel like I have no parents and it makes me sad.
I came back to RYL this week because of this and I am recovered from self harm but mentally I dont know if I will ever recover while I still live in this. When i'm at university I love being free, I live in my own flat and I do what I want without being shouted at. Then I love coming home to my mum who loves me. And I always stupidly forget about these times. The times when shes not my mum.
My dad left when I was 11 and I cant blame him. shes horrible, she drove him away and since then she's aimed everything at me. its been 10 years and I dont think I can take it anymore. Ive had enough of being called stupid, disgusting, horrible, evil, selfish. Ive had enough. I am a good person who loves and cares for everyone.
I want her to stop doing this to me. I am an adult. I am a women. I am Me. I am a good person. I am a caring person. I am not stupid or disgusting. I wont lay down and let you beat me with everything.
I am fed up and inside I feel weak.
I'm grieving for my dad and she does not care. Why would she care I lost him last year? When she lost him ten years ago? she cant see past herself.
No matter what I do I wont be good enough.
I want to stop it.
blah, i'm sorry. ramble over.
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I was quite surprised actually to see this thread.
But I'm really glad to see it exists!
Usually people are convinced that only men are abusive and only women are victims.
I find it difficult to cope sometimes becuase i seem to be the only man who was abused by his girlfriend, of course i know i'm not the only one but sometimes it feels that way and generally when i have asked for help i've either been laughed at or ignored.
It's really good to see that at least some people acknowledge that women can be abusive too.
. Some females have messaged me over facebook saying that I should do the world a favor and kill myself. My fifth grade teacher would verbally attack me so badly I would have seizures. I've had other experiences with school peers and employers and other evil women. 
