Gah.
You're an idiot.
And you complain i don't talk to you? You only text me to have a go at me and say it's all my fault we're not as close anymore when you make me feel like crap all the time, just cause you know i won't stand up to you.
thanks.
some friend you are..heh.
||Lozz||
Ten seconds left until midnight:nine chances to drown ourselves
in black hair dye:eight faces turned away from the shock:
seven windows:and six of them were locked:
five stories falling:forever and ever:three cheers to the mirror:
now there are two of us:can we have one last dance?
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
i get so so so scared when things seem to be going okay
cos im waiting for it all to crash down around me again
it always happens
it waits til im off my guard and then it all falls apart around me
i dont wanna clean up a mess again...so is it better just to stay livin in the mess im in curreltny, at least its a familiar one...
i'm worried about you. i think you know that i am. you say you're fine and that you dont need support but we both know that you do. i dont knowwhat to do to help you right now but that doesnt mean that i havent seen you hurting. you're not alone. i just want you to know that.
I actually just dropped the phone as if i'd been burnt.
There's definitely something I need to say to you but can't.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
i escaped the nightmare but now i can't escape the memories.
i had you then, i loved you, hurt for you, i took your beatings your vile words, i wiped your tears only to have you push me away
now your gone but i want you, love so much and the memories of you loving me back are shredding me into pieces
Do you have to be so bloody negative ALL the time and just because i've planned to getaway do u HAVE to pick on any possible minor detail u think i might have left out. Sorry mate but i had it all covered, i've flown quite a few times before i might add, and im ALOT more experienced with that and everything else than you might think.
Depressing spastic.
Why the FUCK am i doubting my own choices now?
This is my life, that was my moment.
MINE! And ive waited long enough for it.
Dont try and make me feel bad about this..
Dont make me doubt myself.
Okay?!
Don't blame yourself for my death.
You'll be fine when you realise how much better you are without me :)
Please take care sweetheart.
I know I've never spoken to you, but I doubt that the people who know you would be better off without you in their lives.
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Faye I'm sorry.
I hope he's not being hard on you, I never meant to make things worse...
umm... D... i could really nom you. i'm so sorry. it's your arms, you see. and your general absolute loveliness. i have a bit of a fascination with forearms, you see. because mine, well, mine are different. but it's men's forearms, and you have the best. they're tanned and toned and strong and gentle all at the same time, and your job, well, it accentuates them. and i could stare at them all day long.
Last edited by whirlpools : 16-09-2008 at 12:55 AM.
Reason: misplaced apostrophe
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
i hate you
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
i fucking hate you. those years to tore me from her... whene i could have been happy... taking her money... your lies.... your false love... your fake admoration.... you heartless everything.... i wish you would die.... really.... die.... now... before i kill you...
some best friend you were..... and bf.... i realize going out with you was a msitake..... you scaring me like that.... you are an abomination from hell.... you wonder why you are so miserable... get off your lazy ass and work out your problems like everyone else.... you fake piece of shit!
{CDT&CLT forever- December 9th 2011}
RYL Family: crazykat is my stalker, trailsofpain is my guard dog, tonightXweXfall is my psycho mouse, Red is my irkin invader, Mechangel is my muffin thief, rageagainstthemachine is my beloved sister, DeadIrishD is my banana cream pie, scaredofme is my cheesecake of perpetual lovelyness, binkydonkey is my pie
I'm sorry I came to you with all my problems,
I'm sorry I pushed you away
Come back...I need you...
I never realised how much until you were gone...
But it's ok...I don't deserve you...I never did...I dont deserve anyone
"Alot of people will walk in and out of your life,
but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart"
I'm sorry that I told you so many lies. I wish I hadn't, I wish I could turn back the time. I wish I could go back to when I first met you and turn it all around. I wish I didnt hurt you. I'm sorry that I did. I won't ever forgive myself for doing that. No one will replace you, no one will take that place. Its for you and only you. Even if that means it will stay empty forever. I'm sorry.
**If You Love Someone Or Something Enough, Set Them Free.**
