*hugs Jeff*
*hugs mark* good night
*hugs crimson* sounds like you had a great time.
I just came homw from work an hour ago.
Posted on the ED forum yesterday, cause of some fvcked up eating habits. They say I should talk with the psych about it in 3 weeks. It's going to be my first appointment. So scared. Whats going to happen with me there?
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I'm annoyed :( had a crap morning. Had an appointment today (at a training thing which the job centre reffered me to sometime ago. It was at 11.30 am this morning i got there just before 11.20 am. I waited for my consultant in another room. All of a sudden i saw her, but instead of calling me she just used her hand to say come here. Anyway when i went to her desk with her she started bloody moaning at me. She said why are you late Ian!? I wasnt late at all, she said the appointment was for 11.00 am but its not because it says on the paper that she gave me 11.30 am. She was just so rude to me and unproffesional.
Then she looked at her computer and said why didnt you attend this activity i said i completely forgot which is my fault i know but that the woman spoke to me and asked me why i didnt attend and i said that it slipped my mind she said to me thats ok not to worry. But then my consultant said il be speaking to the jobcentre, great i bet my money will be stopped now! Brilliant! I'm signing on tomorrow and im going to tell them how rude my consultant was and that she had a go at me for being late when i wasnt. Totally ridiculous! I wasnt even bloody late! I wasnt rude to her at all. I'm just really annoyed though. Before i sign on im going back up to see my consultant to show her the piece of paper she gave me with the appointment time on. Its an agreement you have to sign. Sorry this was so long.
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Mark* I'm so sorry about the thoughts your having, please keep safe. We are all here for you.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
i am tired today, looking out at the sun. - how are you
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
Right now I am doing okay, the roller coaster ride is leveling off for a little bit. I prefer it here in the middle, neither up nor down. I hope that you can find some level ground as well.
*hugs ian* im sorry that she was so rude. Its not your fault it all. Sounds like a rough day.
*hugs mark* i'm sorry your mood is fluctuating so much. I know how frustrating that can be.
*hugs lindsay* Its good that you went to the gym. Hope you found something else to do - like go out for coffee or tea or something?
*hugs louise* Glad the sun is out there. we haven't seen sun here in days.
*hugs oliver* its okay, we understand. how r u doing? liking the new flat?
*hugs jeff* (if that's okay to call you jeff) Glad you are finding a middle ground for your mood. Sorry to hear that some of your thoughts were coming back. Feel free to vent here if you need to talk.
*hugs crimson* Glad you had a good time. Sorry about your friend. I'll keep them in my thoughts.
*hugs mute.scream laura* I think it would be really brave of you to talk to your psych about ED related stuff. I know its nerve-wrecking to see a psych for the first time. But they will probably just get some background information on you on the first day. Hopefully it won't be too scary.
Sorry if I missed people... I just did this page.
Now I am dreaming about SI. Great *sarcasm*
<3
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past - buddy wakefield
*Hugs Laura* Sarcasm is understood well here , I'm actually with you there :)
*Hugs Oliver* How is your new flat , are you living alone or with a flatmate?
*Hugs Jeff* I LOVE the Happy but I Hate the sad , usually I'm numb but recently I've been Down and because of circumstances happy , but my depression keeps hitting me down :S
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I am feeling really reluctant to post on the forums at the moment for personal reasons
I think i will need to make another account for my own safety
am just worried i'll lose the friendships i have formed here as id like to keep in touch with some people on here.
Am unsure what to do.
