It's been over two years since I lost you and it still feels fresh. I find pictures of you around and they always make me cry. I miss you so much, I just wish you could've held on until I got home so I could've said goodbye. I hope you knew how much I loved you and how much you meant to me. You were my best friend, my confidant, my everything for so long. I know I'll get other dogs someday, but you will never be replaced. You always have a place in my heart.
I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see, you can find out first-hand what it's like to be me.
You'll need a symphony to give sympathy to the girl with the worst luck in town.
When I care, it curls me up on the floor and I swear I can't do it anymore.
What is wrong with the world?
You died of cancer, and now Emily is going to die of cancer.
I miss you so much rossy.
Love you x
Ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man's heart, and the fall through the air of a true, wise friend called Piggy.
If we dont get home soon, we'll be barmy..
Can't you see I need you? I still do. You're all I had. You were the only one who wanted to see me better...I trusted you so much. No matter how long you were gone from my life we could always come together again like nothing had happened and speak without any reservations.
And I showed you my worst side, but you embraced me, sat me down and tried to make up a plan to get me help.
But then you disappeared from my life again, but this time it was different. And there's no way I can bring you back, no matter how many tears I cry for you...all I'll have is our old pictures. I still keep one in my wallet as a reminder, and one on my desk. You gazing at me, watching over me...this can't be the end, really, it can't. No, I need you, please don't leave me. I can't face this world without you in it. There's still so much I want to tell you. I've learned a lot but I don't know what it means. I want you to grab me by the shoulders and tell me to snap out of it, that what I'm doing is no good for myself...
I just need you. Please come back to me.
if you try to describe happiness
it's something intangible that slips
through the gaps between your fingers
I keep the pictures of you where anyone who looks at my book can see. I didnt tell stef you died. I couldnt. I didnt believe it. And that was so recent, its not like it was last June. I told mariam, but i only had to say yes. She asked if you died. But then again you know that. And I can't deal with anymore death. Please God, no more dying for the time being, at least till i can survive through it? Death does raise all sorts of interesting questions though. Like if A died, who would be sad? I would, i would be so arghh but so many people [becii] would be happy? Or so they say. I bet caz would cry. Em would care. And i just don't understand. Ross, what is there after you die? I hope hope hope you are safe
Ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man's heart, and the fall through the air of a true, wise friend called Piggy.
If we dont get home soon, we'll be barmy..
Aunt WoW,
I love you so much. I don't think that there is a day that goes by where I dn't miss you and regret not saying goodbye. im sorry aunt wow, i wish i couldve had one last hug. i was just so scared to see you lieing there in that hospital bed, its almost liek it would make it more real. I had convinced myself taht i didn't need to say goodbye because you would get better. what iw oudln't give to hear you call me peach one last time. im so sorry aunt wow, i miss you so much, and i love you with all my heart. I was just thinking baout you, and i know it was almost three years ago, but you dieing a few days befroe Christmas...idk these wounds still feel new. I love you aunt wow, and i hope to see you again someday. Pray for me up there ;)
Aunt mary,
i know we were not very close, but seeing you dead on that floor scared me. i know you never approved of anythign i did, but i still loved you, and loved listening to the stories you used to tell. sure we would get into it at times, but i knew you acred about me. i miss how you used to give me barbie gifts for every occasion even though i was well past the babrbie era when you gave yur last gift. i miss coming to your and aunt wow's house after church on sunday. i did love aunt mimi, and i still do. I was so scared when i saw you just leing there, im sorry i never was brave enough to say goodbye.
Grandpa,
I knwo we never met, and you died whne my mom was 14, but i still love you, and have always had a place for you in my heart. i love listening to grandma and mom and my uncles talk about you, and tell stories. i have always felt close to you granpa, even though we never met. i do love you, and will always have a place in my ehart for you. I wonder if youre watching over me. i feel liek sometimes you are. Remember when i was in 3rd grade? when i was 9 years old? and i had a report on if i could meet anyone and do anythign with them , what woudl i do? I did taht report on you grandpa. i wished taht i could meet you and taht we coudl ride in a hot air balloon together and have a picnic. That seems so trivial now, im 16. i do love you grandpa, and i cannot wait for teh day when i meet you.
I can't stop thinking about you
I think about you every day.
I wonder what you would think of me if you where here now
Would you hate me? for what I've done to myself
Or would you be proud of me? for still being here, still fighting?
I guess I'll never know. It's just hard, knowing I'll never hug you ever again or see your face, make a vimpto for you or a hot water bottle lol
I miss you so much mum
I just can't get over it!
Me and dad were talking about you the other night
I never knew that he didn't give up on you
He was waiting for you to pull yourself together and fight for him
I never knew that.
I'll always regret for the rest of my life, not being there when you died
I wish I could have been there, let you know that I do love you, that I'm sorry.
I can't stand the thought that you died thinking I didn't love you.
I'll never forgive myself. I love you and I wish you could have known that before the end.
I miss you.
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
i wish you were here right now.
i need you atm i really do.
xxxxxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I miss you so much Stephanie. I still can't get my head around the fact that you're gone. It doesn't feel right. You can't be gone can you? I love you Stephanie. You were my best friend. I can't describe how much I miss you. I'm scared of going home for Christmas because it's going to make it more real. You won't be there. When me, Rosie and Lydia meet up it won't feel right because you'll be missing. It hurts Stephanie. It hurts so much that you're gone. I want you to come back so much. I would do anything. Anything at all. But I know that nothing I do can bring you back so I'm trying my best to live my life for you. I won't let you down again. It should've been my life not yours that was taken but I can't change that so I'll try to make the most of mine. I shan't try to end it ever again because I need to be happy and live for you. No matter how hard it becomes I will keep going for you. Although I miss you so so much and I can't wait to be with you again. I just want you to be alive. I miss you xxxxxx
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
4 months tomorrow.
I feel like you took a bit of me with you.
and the nanny 3 months on wednesday.
too much to handle
I need you back... I miss you so much theres no words...my best friend..
"If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness…people would be fairer and happier." Paulo Coelho
Christmas will never be the same, but I will try to make it as fun as you made it for me. I love you, I will be thinking of you. I just hope I can make you proud of me again.
I will make something for the tree for you, and I will keep looking forward at the family photo on the chimney breast, that was the last decent Christmas, and I see your both smiling. Thats how it should be, I love you.
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
Please, Holly, don't let the rumors be true. You only died 4 days ago...no one knows what's happened...
Please,please,please don't let it be a drug overdose...that was never you, I refuse to believe that you could do such a thing. Please don't let it be a suicide...oh PLEASE don't let it be that.
Mom I love and miss you so. I hope you're not angry at me for what i've done, I know that's im not perfect no one is. Mom I miss you, words cannot express how much i need you.
I love you so much mom.
I love the feeling
Of your body against mine
Your sweat, your excitement
I love you, that's all I can say.
Can you hear me?
Can you see these scars and pain?
Can you see I've got through this?
Can you see that you would have too?
Can you give me a sign?
Can you tell me, why?
Can you give me a reason?
Can you watch over me?
Can you help me be strong?
Can you come back?
