hi lostboys... there's so much prejudice around. i/we were ab/used by women and men and for me/us, there's little difference. i'm sorry your folks got hit by the bigotry that some have. none of us get to choose our gender and yet its so easy for people to weaponise it
my oh my what a misog i am! sorry folks! i could SO eat a curly wirly now
i'm reading what everyone is writing here and quite often, i get a bit tied up in what to say and, wanting to say the right thing, end up not saying anything. that doesn't mean i don't care. what gets said here goes in and there's a wish to express compassion. sometimes i'm just not with it enough to say stuff. i'm hoping you're all doing ok
Euphoria Blossom,
Hope you are feeling less head-achey.
Kat
Not sure exactly what you mean, but we think if it happened with you, then yes it is possible. We swicth and dissociate alot when we are unwell, sickness; particularly nausea or something that severely restricts our movement are huge triggers for a lot of us.
FMG,
Sorry things are tough, do you want to talk about it?
Has it happened before, Katrica? Hope you're feeling a bit more stable now..
The more angry/hurt part of us has been more... active?.. recently, but she's settling down. It's hard to understand and communicate with a part that's so closed off and defensive. Think parents are noticing the erratic behaviour too. Pyschologist didn't understand what the hell we were going on about when trying to explain the memory 'walls' and time-loss, but Mum's talking to her next time and seeing if we can change, hopefully..
Kat.
Glad the lemsip helped.
Do you think that the child has an illness or body memories to do with cold/flu like symptoms and the physical pain? We get that quite often when dealing with some parts from ntl2 or over the wall.
How do you feel about the psych appointment apart from too tired? Is this the one where Kat d is going to talk to the shrink about the letter? *giggles*...is that giggle inappropriate? Really sorry if it is.
Glad that the wound has healed. Is it itchy? hate that stage.
Euphoria Blossom,
We know what its like dealing with a part like that, especially frustrating when damage/ instability is being caused by their behaviour.
How are your parents about the whole DID dealio?
Sounds like your mum is helpful, unless we are getting the complete wrong idea. When you say hoping to change, do you mean change psychs? (just trying to understand)
Chris, (and little one)
How are you, you've been away for a while....
Katie, You too, what is going on, are things ok?
FMG, What you upto? Still toughing it out or are things easing off?
Sorry if we forgot anyone... eek
To all of you, wanted to say that we really appreciate having you here. We love to come on here and talk with you all and it helps us feel less alone, and, well. Thanks.
The angry part, Lola, has harmed us before, but she'd seemed to be calming down until recently. We're never sure exactly how to deal with her when she's like that and it really shakes up everyone.
Mum's a lot more helpful now than she was, though we haven't managed to fully explain the DID. Only that there is a "younger side". And yeah, meaning changing pyschs, sorry. That was poorly worded! How are you guys doing?
Kat,
hope it goes well with the shrink :D. We look forward to hearing about what happened.
Chels,
DID is a really complex disorder for shrinks and patients, let alone partners/family of those with it isn't it?
Glad she is better than she was and hope she continues to learn and be open to it all.
Ash's mum sorta gets it (DID on a general scale) but nothing particularly specific to our system.
We hope that after your psych puts the info to your shrink differently she'll understand better or refer you.
We just had therapy. Ash was the front of the front as per usual which is alright. She seems to think we're doing well.
Perhaps we are.
Outwardly.
We're doing really well outwardly actually.
Not so much inside. >>reallly not so much<<<< there.you.go
no1 seemz to wanna talk with her tho
Hmmm, well perhaps some journalling is in order.
*yawn* its 12:25 and we got up at 6:00am after a few hours sleep!
*Groan*
We well understand the frustration of seeing someone who doesn't understand! Do you think you'll be able to change one day?
Not all pyschs are like that - we read some articles that said you can specifically ask to talk to someone that's well trained or knows a lot about DID/MPD. Not sure how that works though in getting to talk to someone like that, but at least there are people who understand it properly out there..
Katie, do you know what's made you feel distanced? *sending gentle cuddles if wanted*
Kat and Kat D.
We're real sorry that your shrink is such an arse.
It is so frustrating when you say something over and over in so many different ways and they STILL don't get it.
No, shrinks aren't all like that, we have a great one we see twice a week.
Took us years to find her, and we aren't going to stop seeing her anytime soon.
Do you specifically want a psychiatrist? Cause it might be easier to find a therapist that has experience... No idea though.
How do you feel about being passed on by that guy? Do you think he will refer you to someone with more experience, or someone who shares his ignorance and arse-like-qualities..... Definitely try it though.
Katie/whoever is using the 'stellalata' account.
We don't think it is actually a girl, just a 'username' but perhaps we are wrong. How are you?
Sorry I have been bad about responding. I am losing time a lot while trying to get back into the swing of being a (hopefully successful for once) student again.
My therapist wants to take it slow and work on a system. She keeps explaining it, but ironically I keep dissociating through her explanation.
A boy from my graduating class passed away and I wasn't allowed to go to his funeral last week due to lots of snow and ice on the road.
Just all around stressed these days with a constant nervous tic in my eye and cheek, and feeling like throwing up all the time from stress. Been getting about 4 hrs of sleep a week.
feeling very warm and loving just at the moment. really happy. missing mr bounce (rabbit companion) but know he's ok
not all therapists etc., are stupid and i was really surprised to hear recently just how many therapists/psychiatrists/psychologists are DID themselves!
at least this person saw sense and referred on once they realised they were out of their depth Katrica
Kat,
Hey. The tube thing makes sense to us, sorta.
Quote:
(I start to slowly snap and a new 'person' appears in my head, so it seems)
This isn't how it happens for us. (If we are understanding correctly).
For us, when a new part is discovered it holds memories of the past that our system deems 'safe' to uncover. Unless there is a glitch and the system crumples a bit. All the parts that we are aware of, hold memories or emotions related to abuse from when we were a baby to when we were 15. So they just 'seem' to appear but have actually been there all along, hiding with their own memories and pain.
That's cool. Thanks for sharing.
You'll know in time.
Just had T.
I have this huge horrible thing growing in the pit of my stomach.
It's fear; no terror, pain and confusion. It's making me sick, scaring me.
I can't get to it. The more i reach to the more guarded and defended it becomes. As i try and figure out what it is, it sends rushes of terror, pain and anguish through me. It's growing and I don't know what to do.
