*hugs gently* That's very very wrong of her to do to you sweetheart. That's not allowed and I'm sure it hurts inside. You can talk more about it if you want.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
i just deserved it
i dont know
feels weird that she touched me sexually and things
maybe she didnt mean it that way
i dont know
sorry
just confused about everything
i shouldnt be here
not sure ima survivor or anything
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
am i a survivor when she still hits out and things
i dunno
i can understand to an extent dad being sexually abusive
but mum i dont
i dont understand
im sorry
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Anytime ANY person of ANY gender touches you lots in your private places that feels yucky, that's sexual abuse honey. *hugs gently* And you're still surviving. You really need to find a way to get out of there honey.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I was recomended to come on here, its sad but nice to know im not that alone. My mum has always been very mean to me and does horrible words and all sorts. She is getting harder to cope with i was in hospital for a while and learnt it wasnt right what she does and i got used to hugging and people being nice so when i came home it was harder to deal with. There was this assistant and i know it sounds really young but i wish she was my mum she was so kind and hugged me and never mean i miss her alot and its all i crave. I had a ladies appointment and it came out i have a lot of damage i wanted a hug and reassurance but all my mum said was 'well what do you expect you're a slut, always have been its gods way of telling you you dont deserve love' i cried for hours knowing a mum shouldnt say that and i wish i never went into hospital because it wouldnt have hurt me so bad. There was also a bad relationship i was in when i was 14/15 and he had some bad friends that only wanted to hurt me but there was a woman and she knew what would hurt most.. the memories of her make me more upset because im a girl and it was just wrong and too uncomfortable and my own mum.. i just feel so horrible because it wasnt a man.. i feel aweful for thinking that. It just hurts me more makes me feel worse because im not that way inclined. Sorry for going on..
“There is no sun without shadow, and it is essential to know the night.”
Sweetie don't be sorry for sharing, you need to. You're being brave talking. :) *hugs gently* It's not your fault your mom did that, or the other woman. You're not a slut or anything mean she's told you. And it's not bad or weird that you almost wish it was a man, I bet a lot of the others could sympathize with that. Thanks for sharing. :)
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
hey, you're so brave in sharing all this. i'm sorry about what your mom and the other woman did to you. i understand when you say you wish it was a man. most of the time, i feel the same way. i'm here if you wanna talk. *hugs*
sorry to be selfish
im scared im turning into my mum
the anger and fury im feeling over petty things
she got angry over petty things and tried to strangle me
what if i turn out like her
im sorry
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
