i don't know what's wrong with me. i feel like i myst be a liar all the time, i jmust be sick. a horrrivle person. i'm scared you;ll leave me when you hear how horrible i am. i am ashamed, i am guilty, i am weak and parthetic. i am evil. and i don't want you to leave because i need you. i want you to be there all the time. i want you to save me.
i did everything for you i still do... u treat me like shit... u flirt all the time.....u find other people.... but u cum bk to me... convenience? or r u just a slag?? i dont understand... y do i keep lettin u do it... i give up... i give in...
i hate you...
X) DIE
~ the Faith has GONE~
i loves all the safe room kids there all my lil heros...
Mikki is my lil sis <3 Hanner is my lil Princess <3
new year ...same problems.... hurts just as much....
all those times that i asked 'everything's okay, right?' to Dad, there was a reason for that, other than me just being polite. i'm scared everytime you go to the doctor, because i don't want the cancer to come back, and i'm so scared for you. because i can't watch you go through that again. none of us can.
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
Wanna know a secret then mum????
I HATE YOU
yep
there u go
said it
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU
you have no respect for me, you manipulate me, you make me feel guilty, you think im a whore for fucks sake....what kind of mother thinks that of her own flesh and blood when ive never given u the slightest reason to think that. bitch. youre a bitch. youre stupid. you say you love me??? well its a sick and twisted love then mother.
thanks for raising me...i know that there was a time where you did truly love me...id sell my soul to have those days back where you didnt always think the worst of me...but i know theyre gone and they wont be coming back
Id of loved to have a mum...but im gonna survive without you..and one of these days im gonna be the best mum i can be to my kids and im gonna show you what it really means to be a mum and what love really means. and you know what your line about love being conditional....no matter how my children turn out ill love then unconditionally because thats waht a mum should do. ill show you what being a mum really is.
im sorry you dont love me, it hurts me like hell, but im more sorry for you, cos you had a daughter who loved you to pieces and would have done anything for you...and you blew it.
I miss you soooo much, you can't even imagine. I hope you're having a brilliant time but I can't wait for you to come back. It would kill me if you were away for longer. I miss you!
i think i actually hate you.
i know i've said it numerous times in the past but i think you've just pushed me too far.
you are a fucking hypocritical bastard and couldn't give a FUCK about anyone else but yourself and that perfect son of yours.
and i will continue to be civil to you until i move away, but do not ever expect me to forgive you for the things you've just said.
bitch.
Friends forever. Reallyreallyreally.
Thankyou for your waste of breath.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
You're the most awesome person in the world I think. More awesome than me or anyone else I know. Cheers little brother. I'm doing everything good I'm doing just for you. x
AMY.
You're not as messed up as you think you are,
Your self-absorption makes you messier.
Just settle down and you could feel a whole lot better,
Deep down, you're just like everybody else.
I really really like you J. I've been told you like me too and the way you were with me last night makes it clear on how you feel about me. I hope we get together soon. I know it's what we both want.
I can honestly say that you have been the worst person in my life
But all I long for, all I want is just a little of you love
I want you to like me just a little bit.
I cant stand that you have hated me so much for over 2 years now.
Really my entire life
You have never told me that you loved me.
I was always your little mistake.
Im sorry I could never be what you wanted me to be.
You probably don't understand, most people don't. You will never understand how much anger, how much self-hatred someone must have to take a razor to themselves and cut into their own skin.
