hello i am rosie
i am 8
i say hello for the first time to host tonight
she got too many things in her head
and she was going to do a bad bad thing
so here i am!
i dont know all of you but i am sad that everyone is sad.
i hope things get better
love
rosie
Haven't posted on here in a while.
Hello to newer thread members.
background noise in my head and hearing the voices inside and I'm all mixed up.
Been having a terrible week and am getting worse and worse.
hihi rosie.. i bes Sarah,, i bes 6. i not typs as good as you dos.. sori. i glad you caomd out and makd everibodi saf tat bes wif you. i liks meet othr littl ons an maks new littl frends. will you bes my frend too?
-As for us we bes ok i gess.. we nervus cuz sadie an sisa gona tel cuzin (he lik are brofr to us) about me an sadie an we sorta bes scard to tel him, but we get umm wat the word..anti soshel wen we arownd peopls who no undrstan us.. an we mis are"brofr" lots so we hops he wil undrstan. we nervus lots tho. othr tan tat tings ok i gess. sadie bes out most da today cuz hers waz mad an frustratd lots.. but we takd medsins for tonite alredi so i bes gets seepi now. i liks to seeps.. Sarah
*offers hugs* Megan I hope things get more bearable soon for you.
I feel very lost. Things slip my mind all the time and I get scared a lot. There's a full moon tonight - seems to have been for a few nights - and it makes my head hurt. I wish people would talk to me. All I'm getting now is waves of anger, anxiety, fear, shame, humiliation. No correspondence at all. I know why. It's my fault. But I wish I knew how to make things better.
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
Megan, I hope things improve for you soon and that you are managing ok at the moment.
Scath, I'm sorry things are so difficult and confusing. Sending you hugs.
Sarah, Of course course Rosie will be your friend! She's not out at the moment, but all of our littles would love to have a friend. When are you going to tell your cousin? It sounds like the cousin is a good friend, so I'm hope they will be understanding. Let us know how it goes!
We slept very badly, lots of nightmares again. Going to have a rest day I think.
fraction- sarah will be happy to know she'll have a new friend! she is lonely inside being our only little one.
we are gonna talk to our cousin on sunday.. we may tell him the basics thru FB maybe ..he doesnt seem to be on there much tho. we will see how it goes.. we think he will handle it well but still we ar e quite nervous and anxious but since he has always been like our brother.. we dont want to be antisocial when we have a chance to spend time with him.. and weve become kinda anti social with the rest of our family..cause well we get tired of pretending we are ok and sarah and sadie much rather be allowed and accepted to be themselves.. especially sarah she gets excited when the few people who do accept them in rl call her by her name.. sadie doesnt really care much as she is good at pretending to be me.. but with sarah being so young its harder for her. Hiding
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Sorry to hear you feel so down Megan, hope you feel better soon.
Scath I'm sorry to hear things are so confusing in your head.
Fraction, I have a few littles as well, I think they would love it if they have a friend too (: they feel a little overlooked, what with all the olders storming around.
Hopefully your cousin will handle it well Hiding, I really hope it goes well for you (:
Hope everyone else is doing okay (:
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Skye is making me pay attention in classes and helping me do my homework, she's giving me loads of motivation at the moment (: We're feeling a little better than a few days ago, before we had to see the police and the social worker. That was horrible, and I had to explain everything that happened to me, which upset all the littles.
tank you kitty kat =) i bes scard cuz we rited cuzin msg in fb telln him bout it so tat wen we sees him sunda hopfuly he wil bes ok wif us and axcept us. sadie an hiding tout it betr tat wa so mayb we not so scard se him an talk him an he hav tim to tri undrstan. but i scard he wil not undrstan.i scard tat we scare him an he wil disown us or somting. hiding takd a zanax for me so i calm down but i stil scard to kno wat he wil bes tink of us. isori i veri scard.
glad skye helps you wif you scoolwerk. tat veri nic of hers.=)
i fels bettr now .. not so scard animor but he stil not repli yet.
i possd to bes seepn but medsins did no maks me seepi lik tey usaly do. i hops we can seeps tonite.. no fun wen we up al nite long .. but if we is wake al nite i sur sadie wil com out to do tat...hers good at deel wif not enuf seeps.
Sarah - hope that you were able to get some sleep.
Hi everyone, i have been reading the thread and sending my support and thoughts to you.
I apologise for myself this week - three days in a row he calm around and forced me to do many things - but get intolerably drunk in order for him to manipulate me more. Talked my way out of my going to the hospital with my therapist - it feels that there is part of me that desperately wants to defend and fight him off, but it doesn't actually work.
today, i am not well. i am experiencing slight withdrawal and think that my medication has been affected by the amount of alcohol in my system. such a horrible feeling.
theres a little girl inside me screaming for someone to save her, she cries all the time, she's so hurt, but won't come out. but i feel her. i feel like i am going crazy with all these different feelings, and beings.
its the weekend and i am going to do everything in my power to to not bother my therapist....i hate being such a burden.
forgive my ramblings.
stay well and safe.,
ashleigh
life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
we finally slept last night sometime after 2am.i decided to try to be out at work today in case hiding is too tired.
ashleigh- i dont know your situation but doesnt sound healthy..maybe you should try to get away from him if he is abusive. sorry about the little girl inside. sometimes sarah cries alot too. the hospital isnt so horrible..disorienting a bit but at least youd be safe from him and be able to rest and get some help for yourself and the little girl.. and yeah med withdrawls can really suck big time..sorry you have them. stay safe
Today we went with mum to visit our great nan. All we've done is sit in the car and at the flat but we are not used to doing even that much and we are so so tired.
We've found a new therapist! She called mum today and seems really nice and lot more experienced in my issues than my current therapist is.
