I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in the pride
To see nothing in the light
But turn it off in all my spite, in all my spite
I'll turn it off
And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
Then in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom
The tragedy it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to breaking, bending
Taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero
Never Again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead
you'll realize what you did to me.
You made me swear
You made me swear
I, I can't sleep realize all these things that you took from me.
Smash my heart (you made me swear)
into dust (you made me swear)
Suffocate my mind (you made me swear)
Tear at me from inside (you made me swear)
Smash apart what you created.
How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was It was yours, yours to begin with.
Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is just waiting
To turn your tears to roses
I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is a burning, consuming fire
No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay there broken and naked
My love is just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
Ill stop it somehow
I will make it go away
Cant be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesnt seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the **** I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
Im ready
Heart stops
I stand alone
Cant be on my own
I will make it go away
Cant be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesnt seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the **** I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it Im running from?
Is there nothing more to come?
(am I gonna leave this place? )
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take its place?
Am I going to win this race?
(am I going to win this race? )
I guess gods up in this place
What is it that Ive become?
Is there something more to come?
More to come...
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesnt seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the **** I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man? (x2)
It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull
Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue
Can you hear me out there?
Will you hold me now...? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now...? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me?
I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the move it makes
But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear
Anyone out there hear me now?
Will you hold me now...? Hold me now, My frozen heart
Kiss my lips and maybe you can take to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now...? Hold me now, My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will
Will you hold me now...? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now...? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me?
My RYL family: PaperClip is my big sis
"Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies. You must know this, Dumbledore."
- The Dark Lord
Realized I can never win sometimes feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin? My mind is laughing at me
Tell me, why am I to blame? Aren't we supposed to be the same?
That's why I will never tame this thing thats burning in me?
I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me
Sometimes I can never tell if I got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead for this curse to leave me
Tell me, why am I to blame? Aren't we supposed to be the same?
That's why I will never tame this thing thats burning in me?
I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me
Betrayed
I feel so enslaved
I really tried I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
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Cut my life into pieces
Ive reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a **** if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
I will get there. Someday
When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I gave everything to you.
And you betrayed me. Just like everyone else.
I'm done.
I can't stand to let you in.
I'm just watching you.
And I don't know what to do.
Feeling like a fool inside.
Feeling all the lies you hide.
Thought you were my friend.
Seems it never ends.
I need somebody someone.
Can't somebody help me.
All I need is to be.
Loved just for me.
Giving you this and that.
Giving gave nothing back.
It's all related to.
All the things I do.
Feeling like a fool inside.
Seeing all the things you tried.
I am nothing.
I look I sign.
I need someone.
Inside to help me out.
With what I'm trying.
I'm crying, I'm frying.
In a pile of ****.
I'm dying.
I'm dying.
I'm dying
I need somebody (someone).
Somebody (somebody).
Someone.
I need somebody (someone).
Somebody (somebody).
Someone.
These lyrics basically explain my situation to the bone. Litrelly. It scares me.
If I ever write this letter,
oh, the pages I could write.
But I don't know where to send it,
you have vanished and I,
don't know where you live,
heaven only knows.
If I ever write this letter,
bitter words it would contain.
Just an unrequited lover,
wishing she had never
spoken your name,
had never known your name.
But if I ever write this letter,
the truth it would reveal,
knowing you brought me pleasure,
how I'll often treasure,
moments that we knew
the precious, the few.
She said, I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
and I don't know if I've ever been really loved
by a hand that's touched me
and I feel like something's gonna give, and I'm a little bit angry
This ain't over, not not here, not while I still need you around
you don't owe me, we might change it
yeah, we just might feel good
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, Well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted
I wanna take you for granted Well I will
She said I don't know why you would ever lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think the truth is gonna hurt ya
and I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
you couldn't stand to be near me when my face don't seem to wanna shine cause it's a little bit dirty, well
don't just stand there, so nice things to me
cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged, but you
You don't know me, yeah, well I can't change
Well I won't do anything at all
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted
I wanna take you for granted well I will
Oh but wait, don't bowl me over
just wait a minute,well it kinda fell apart
things get so crazy, crazy
don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby, baby
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you, take you, yeah, well I will
I will, I will, I will, yeah
I will, I will, I will, yeah, yeah push you down and drag you down
I wanna push you around well I will.
I am trying not to think about
All the things you did before
But sometimes it all just gets to me I can't fake it anymore
I'll stay with you,
But remember,
Be careful what you do,
Cos I'm not bulletproof
Let me apologise to begin with
Let me apologise for what Im about about to say
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between.
Let me apologise to begin with.
Let me apologise for what Im about about to say
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
And I cannot explain to you
In anything I say or do or plan
Fear is not afraid of you
Guilt's a language you can understand
I cannot explain to you in anything I say or do
I hope the actions speak the words they can
For my pride and my promise
For my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
For my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
*huggles*