thanks guys.just need to stop thinking about stuff, and relax. if it goes belly up,
it goes belly up there is noithing i can do about it, but try my best just hope its good enough
I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be anywhere. I feel burnt out... there's nothing I want to do anymore, there's nothing I am looking forward to, I just want to give up and STOP. Stop breathing, stop living. My life... hurts so much right now.
The diet is really really harsh and makes me so angry. Irrationally so, because it's only "for my own good" but honestly... I miss my desserts. >:| Sounds dumb but you try going for 4 days without having any "real" sugar!! I've had aspartame-sweetened tea and diet soda but nothing else sweet. I don't usually have a lot of sweets but when I know I can't have any I miss them like crazy...
We're in the "eye of the storm" right now... got ~6 inches of snow this morning and then tonight we're supposed to get ~2 inches of ice. I'm not working tomorrow, and work today was easy-peasy and boring. We had a pizza party (since I can't have the crust due to the gluten, I just ate the toppings off one slice) and the staff had a training (it was kinda interesting, on creating safety for someone who's gone through trauma) via telecon. I also got caught up (some) on paperwork. Hubby also has tomorrow off so hopefully we can find something fun to do... although I have no idea what we'll do, especially if the power goes out and we can't drive anywhere because of ice accumulations. >_>
I'm so over everything. And I'm sorry for not doing individuals, I just am really overwhelmed right now. :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
I just give up right now... i'm tired of fighting for everything, especially relevance in my reality. *sigh* Oh well.
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
The cyclone is due to hit between Innisfail and Cardwell (about 2 hours up the coast from us) between 10 pm and midnight tonight. TC Yasi is now a category 5 cyclone and still intensifying. She's about 500 km long and the area expected to be covered by her destruction is from Cairns to Townsville (where I live) which is a 4 hour drive to help you get some perspective on her size. If she hits up north we will most likely have destruction similar to being hit by a strong category 2 so we are expecting severe destructive winds, power losses, storm surges of up to 2 metres on top of high tides etc.. The city has been evacuated in some areas already, but we have gotten off lightly. Cardwell has been completely evacuated as the storm surge there is expected to hit 7 metres about the high tide which will swamp the town - and with Yasi hitting as well, Cardwill will be completely decimated.
Sorry, I know that no-one is probably interested, but we are terrified. TC Yasi is massive - the biggest in living memory - in pictures next to the QLD coast she's almost the size of half the coast. We are in danger of losing all our possessions as well as our lives. We fear for everyone in the path but cannot do anything. Feeling powerless is just so ......
I don't know. I'm sorry.
*cuddles Puppy SinClair*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*hugs Kahlia* i hope that you all get through this safely and with not much damage
*hugs frenchhorn*
*hugs for everyone else in here*
Meh. I haven't really changed since earlier today. Still very unhappy
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
I'm seeing someone from the crisis team today but I doubt they will be able to help. I'm holding on to see my brother on Friday but then that's it. I've completely had enough.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í 
