I am sorry you had your trust broken dave I know how hard that can be. Please don't let it make you withdraw even deeper into yourself tho, unfortunately there are always going to be people that hurt us but we can't let that stop us from living and experiencing the beauty of other people.
I am glad that you are liking the art therapy, the art therapist sounds like he is really helpful too. I am glad that you can feel that you can open up to him a bit, it must help even just to be able to release it all. Your art work does NOT make you a screwed up headcase at all, in fact I agree with Loz it shows your strength. That even through you have all this going on for you, you are still fighting and that makes you an inspiration to me as I am sure it does for others too.
Please look after yourself and know that I am here if you ever need someone to talk to.
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Kat,
Thank you for your comforting words and your understanding, i do know that there are allways going to be people who that hurt us, its just hard to keep getting hurt everytime i build myself back up. I will try and overcome that cause your right there are some beautifull people out there, and especially in here at RYL ..hint ..hint. Im trying not to widraw to deep inside myself its very hard.
I do like the art therapy i just dont see it being enough, but my therapist is a great guy and he helps me to try and talk about my issues as much as i can. Im scared i wont beat it enough it scares the crap out of me i look at my art and i feel so screwed up, i will try and tell myself my artwork doesnt make me a screwed up headcase, thats a hard one i will work on it.
Thanks for saying you feel the same as Loz in that my artwork does show my strength , something inside makes me fight , i want to destroy that part of me , and i want to hold onto it with everything ive got to. I will keep fighting it gets too much for me at times .
Im so glad that i am an inspiration to you and Loz and hopefully to others i am looking after myself Kat the best i can its hard but im trying, you please do the same Kat and take good care of yourself .
that is very comforting that your here and i can speak to you if i need to,
thank you so much for that, i will try im trying to come back to ryl more a work in progress.
xx
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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You are more than welcome dave, I mean every word of it. You really are a great guy, I just think you need to realise you have a lot more inner strength than you realise.
I agree I think you would benefit from more support than just the art therapist. I also know that you have had numerous knockdowns with this, unfortunately this seems to be the trend around the world there is not enough support out there for those dealing with mental health. All I can say is keep trying, don't give up eventually someone has got to listen. Can this art therapist link you up with anyone? Not sure if it is possible but its worth a try I guess.
Remember you are a fighter so keep going you can get through this and remember I am only ever a PM away if you ever need to talk to someone. Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I really wish there was something more I could do to make you feel better. The eloquence of your words make me realise that mine are inadequate. But I'll try anyway.
I don't think you realise how much you do for people, myself included, which helps to keep us sane and understood too. But it's not just because of that that makes me care about you - you are a great guy and don't deserve any of what's happening to you.
I am really sorry about what has happened with the person on RYL. I don't know why it's happened, but I hate it that its hurt you so much. Don't forget though, there are more people here that care for you. So please don't withdraw.
You're art therapy sounds really good, and the therapist a good guy. I'm pleased you've found someone you can talk to, and that he sounds like he's going to help you. Your therapist can get you some more help if he thinks it's necessary, so I think it is something to stick with, that things are going up now for you. I also think you might be surprised about how much it can help! Take you're last session for example - you spoke to him about what has happened recently, you got it out in the open and he listened to you. It may have taken over the session but that's not a problem - it is now out in the open and not bottled up in side you where it could have festered.
I think getting the graphic dark artwork out into the open can be cathartic. It allows you to focus your thoughts and feelings on to the screen, which can help getting them out of your mind, and stop them taking over.
I've gone back through your artwork on here and have noted a couple of my favourites - page 9 number 179, 'My Guardian survival instinct will it win, can I survive?' is the main one. It shows that you are fighting and winning against your monsters, and that you have the strength to do it.
My other favourite is page 7 post number 125 'Leave me alone'. This one strikes a cord with me on a number of levels - a) it's excellent, forceful and atmospheric. b) it reminds me of one of my favourite books, but most importantly c) it's exactly visulising the trouble I have with someone at the moment. (no one on RYL, but someone else, and I wish she would leave me alone!)
I do think knowing what you are fighting is a great step forward - you know what their strengths and weaknesses are. In a lot of your artwork it looks like you're surrounded by these monsters, but there are gaps and light in them too. Its the light that's the main thing for me, it shows that you know there is a way to fight them, that you have the strength to fight them. At the moment the light is small, but I have no doubt that it will expand with the more therapy and help you receive.
You are awe inspiring Dave, you're going through a crap time and are doing something about it. You show you're strength and power every time you turn on your computer and produce your artwork, and even more so when you post it on here. You are an inspiration to us all, Love.
You are my favourite Dragon, Dave.
Take care
Love Loz xx
You don't have to be a monkey to recognize a banana!
I cant find the right words to express what i want to say!
sorry.
I can feel your pain and i understand what you say.
your art work is fantastic
much love
mermaid
Thank you mermaidfairyprincess,
I understand you saying you cant quite find the right words to express yourself, please dont worry because i understand what your trying to say to me.
Thank you for saying you can feel my pain and you can understand what i say that means so very much to me, thanks for appreciating my work.
Take care
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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I will reply soon with some words to your last posts to me
Hugs
Dave
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" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
Loz,
Sorry for the delay in answering your reply and sorry for worrying you ive found it hard to be here and im trying to be here more i will reply to your last post youve said so much and im greatfull
Dave
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
My Adoptee :)S_Pod live help
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Thanks Tom, Im glad you like my artwork, and they help you to think about things.
" Use only that which Works, and take it from any place you find it" Im Honoured My RYL Sons are :)Atlantica, ,Saint of Misery, Stevevaijr
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