hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
-hugs jill- I just wish there was somethin I could do or say that would help you feel better.
~*~*~ I love my wardies ~*~*~
hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
-spots laura and solo and tackles and hugs them- how you be?
~*~*~ I love my wardies ~*~*~
hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
I'm doing ok. Actually feeling pretty damn energized... so I've finished shaving soap to make laundry soap and now I'm off to scrub permenate marker off my kids' wall. Then I have more dishes to do... more laundry and so on... lol
*hugs all her wardies*
Well I'm off again... I'll pop in again soon :)
sorry you're struggling, Solo... I'll say a little prayer for you.
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
I was in an ok mood. My niece went and ruined it for me. She called me dumb. Might sound pathetic but it's extremely disrespectful for someone to call anyone dumb, let alone your aunt. I just gave her a nice gift for xmas too. Wtf!
-smacks her head against the wall-
Now thanks to her I am not ok. I am so pissed off and upset and anxious now. I am far from ok thanks to her.
-scoots self into corner and glares off into the distance- I should just become non existent..
~*~*~ I love my wardies ~*~*~
hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
No you shouldn't Kitty! Who would share protective teddys with me? Seriously sweetie, try not to let it get to ya too much. What she said isn't true! She probly just said it to get to ya. Don't give her that kind of power over you!
Amy could share protective teddys with you. If it weren't for her giving me some, I wouldn't have had any to share in the first place.
It's not just her. She just set me off. It's everyone. It's everything. You know how many friends I have made that ended up disappearing out of my life? Too many for me to sit and count. All of them I have ever made have left me. I have one friend and I don't even know how much of a friend she is anymore. I keep trying to get her to come see me (she lives about 30 minutes away from me) but she continuously comes up with excuses as to why she can't. Yet she is going on a trip in 3 days (to a town that is 2 and a half hours away from here) and I am on the way but she claims she cannot come. She doesn't even talk to me much. My mom is in denial. And sometimes she can be a total bitch. Like..
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Today she called me and at the end of our conversation she got after me about my weight. She said, "It's a new year. Time for you to start exercising and lose some weight. You need to." I have extreme back problems that makes it impossible for me to exercise. I mean it's so bad I can't even stand for that long. Yesterday when my husband and I took down the christmas tree I had to sit down like 4 times because it hurt so bad. I used to be anorexic. Maybe I should just go back to it so she will get off my back about me being so ****ing fat. That's the only way I can lose weight. It's not my ****ing fault I can't exercise it's not my fault I have a bad back.
My mom wants me to be successful. I know she means well in that, but it puts a ton of stress on me. She goes around bloating about the fact that her youngest daughter is in a good university and this and that. I don't even know if I will be able to complete school. I don't even know if I will be able to work due to my illnesses. I have to find that out I have to talk to my counselor again. But I have to wait for that. If I can't, I would have to apply for disability. The problem with that is, the united states is broke. They aren't hardly accepting anyone on disability anymore. And the process is so damn long it takes them months to get back to you and usually you are denied the first 2 times you apply. But by that point you have already been waiting 6+ months. I don't have anyone I could go and live with. I would NOT do well living with my parents because I cannot handle my mom for very long. My sister is an alcoholic. My biological grandma would take me in but she is still in contact with my biological mom quite often being that she is her daughter and I don't want anything to do with my biological mom at this point. I have nowhere to go and I don't even know if I can support myself. But I can't expect others to support me. I should just die so nobody would ever have to worry about supporting me! I'm such a ****ing failure it's a shame that I was even ever born!!!
~*~*~ I love my wardies ~*~*~
hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
Oh Kitty I know the feeling. I'm in the same boat with the weight thing. My arthiritis makes it so painful to exercise and I get frightfully ill if I don't stay on a high fat diet because for some stupid reason my body needs more vitamin K than anyone else. But no, mum won't accept that, I can't eat things like salads as they really upset my internal organs. Sometimes I feel like doing the exact same as you were saying, but she'd win then, and she should never be allowed to win.
The Wardies are my Family. They'll always hold a special place in my heart. *~Plumeria Sister~*
Sadly some people can't bear things like mental health issues and deal with it by acting like they don't exist *cuddles Sarah* It's frustrating at times but sadly it still happens in this day & age.
She keeps telling me that I don't have anything wrong with me, I'm just making it all up for attention and a reason as to why I'm fat. I hate it here. I hate her.
The Wardies are my Family. They'll always hold a special place in my heart. *~Plumeria Sister~*
*spies sarah, ian, helen, and kitty* hello all of you!
*hugs everyone*
Family still here, snuck off for a few seconds in my room though. And of course there is drama... can't get through a family get together without a fight.
Hope everyone is okay as can be.
<3
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past - buddy wakefield
