using the same lip balm doesn't make you like her... yu should e able to wear whatever you like, clothing and make up doesnt alter who you are, no matter who else wears it
i hate this i never got flashbacks to her before
they not flashbacks though i doing it on purpose
keep replaying it
and what happened the other nights
too many bad things
too many bad people
cant cope
took a couple of citalopram and now i'm over the limit anyway its so tempting to just keep going
I can understand why listing it like this triggered you off... but they are the ba people not you, goddness or badness comes from within, and nothing anyone does to you can alter this... they were bad, not you, and you did nothing to cause it nor encourage it... wrong place wrong time, not encouraged or caused by you
i called patrick but he jst got mad for waking him up.
then he said that if someone works in an icecream factory and every day they take a free sample to their girlfriend, she cant demand ice cream if he starts work in a hot dog factory
whatever it means i think he was being horrible
i told him about karen you see
he is disgusted with me and wishes he had never laid a finger on me
he can see the dirt now, its inches thick
through to the bone
thank you for talking to me for so long. i hope you manage to get some sleep, unless its your laptop thats gone funny.
either way, thank you
roberta so full of darkness every part of her body is triggering to her now cos for some reason she decided to write it all down in detail just to mess with herself
I promice you, you do not attract these people, you do not cause it. there is nothing you cold do to cause these things, they are the ones with the problem they shudn't do these things, shouldn't do them to anyone, for any reason... there is nothing you could do to cause it.
once a person has been abused once it will often happen again, it's an unfortunate fact... but it's not because the person is bad or marked or whaever, it's because the first abuse makes the person vulnerable... once's you've been abused, used or whatever once you'll be hurt, and these bad awful people seem to be able to pick up on this hurt... but the hurt won't be there forever, and the hurt doesn't make you ad or anything. its just thats how abusers work, that's how they have to work... they slowly work their way into a life looking out for signs of vulnerability, things they can exploit... everyone has vulnerabilities, but people who have been hurt have more and unfortunately these people have a skill to see it, to exploit it... but this is no reflection of you! you can heal, the hurt can become less obvious and may even leave completely, but they will alwyas be evil awful people ho exploit the weak for some sick feeling of power.
why dont i feel better today i meant to feel better
nonononono youre wrong. maybe luke see vulnerability but croydon-man and men-on-the-heath they didnt know me they couldnt see vulnerability
i dont even know their names, little fcking whor
hun.
vunerability doesnt come from knowing someone. i can see it it the body language and manners of so many people on the street.
and i target them.. but i do it to help people, make sure they're ok and have someone to talk to.
thats the difference. they sawy our vunerability and exploited it for their sick pleasure
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
