I hate my scars
I hate how Im not good enough and never will be
I hate how I'm driving away everyone who ever gave a damn, without even trying
I hate who I'm becoming
I hate how my friends can't look me in the eye
I hate how my friends tell me ive changed, and they cant be my friend anymore
I hate ME
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
I hate what they both did.
I hate the thoughts/voices.
I hate feeling like I do.
I hate that I am the only one to blame.
I hate behing let down again and again.
I hate that it's all easier said than done.
I hate how i don't do the stuff that needs doing.
I hate that it's 2am + now I won't get enough sleep.
I hate that she's been like this with me.
I hate that i'm acting like her.
I hate depression
I hate not being able to make simple plans
i hate not knowing how long it will last
I hate that when it's better it's still not ok
I hate how much older i am than almost anyone here
I hate that i'm still not better. still.
I hate being alone
I hate the fact that my old best friend (who I loved) and I have drifted apart and don't even know each other anymore
I hate the fact that I was happy once but I've lost it all
I hate that I never said goodbye
I hate that it's all my own fault
I hate how I've let myself slide so low
I hate how I've wasted my life in hospitals
I hate seeing old friends in the street who blank me
I hate that I dissapoint and hurt my family constantly
I hate the voices
I hate being "ill"
I hate how everybody thinks I'm crazy
I hate how I can't eat something without torturing myself before or afterwards
I hate the fact that I can't eat something without throwing it up
I hate having to have cuts and scars on my body to make myself happy
I hate how I let boys use me because my self esteem is so low
I hate my body
I hate my mind I hate myself
I hate the fact that I hate myself
I hate the fact that I hate everybody else too
I hate how when I try to think of something that I love,
I can't think of anything
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
i hate my lack of control
i hate police
i hate social services
i hate ambulances
i hate idiots at my college
i hate my body
i hate that im not succeeding
i hate me
i hate what is happening to my family
"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars"
- Oscar Wilde
I hate being completely ignored
I hate feeling like I'm going to explode
I hate being lonely
I HATE being IGNORED
I hate being totally shut out
I hate being broke
I hate that everything I want right now costs so much
I hate the craving
I LOVE the craving
I hate that I feel a little bit too good to SI
I hate being asked questions
I hate not having answers
I hate her not talking to me
I hate her talking to me when she's like that
I hate that I have no self control
I hate rudeness
I hate that I can't change
I hate that I can't tell someone how I feel
I hate that I have to hide my scars and think about where I cut before I do it
I live for the day where I look in the mirror and am happy to be me........................................
............................................I seem to be dillusional
I hate me
I hate him for what he did
I hate it when people stare
I hate who I have become
I hate not being strong enough
I hate my life
I hate feeling like this
I hate the fact that i will never be good enough for him.
I hate the fact that i will never be the one he dreams of.
I hate how we have drifted apart.
I hate that i am constantly jealous of my friends happiness, when i should be glad they are happy.
I hate my how my flatmate always rubs his happiness in my face.
I hate how my friends back home have forgotten about me.
I hate how the boys only get in touch with me when it is something to do with the band.
I hate that I am a pushover.
I hate having to lie about my new life.
I hate how he thinks he can walk in and out of my life and expect everything to be perfect.
I hate how he always puts me down yet he hardly knows me.
I hate that i'm losing control.
I hate myself for being this way.
I hate how selfish all of my friends are.
I hate how isolated i have become.
I hate how much i drink and smoke.
I hate how nothing ever goes my way.