I didn't die. I went to A&E but they wouldn't even assess me without having first 'tried'. I rang a helpline for over an hour. It was really hard. My voice totally goes whenever I try and talk about 'it'. The helpline told me once to go to A&E but were willing to talk after I had tried and told me to ring my cpn and tell them just how bad it all is. But I can't
I still have my 'stuff'.
I spent much of today getting a present for a friend who is in hospital - thus quite well distracted and have been to see her (she is doing well!), but now I am back. The helpine said to phone them or samaritans whenever but I cannot really afford to keep doing that - though one is a freephone number which is good it gets really busy.
I guess the point is I am still here.
