PopBangFizz, do you have a diagnosis? I think that getting better would be vital for you.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Um... What if a person can't tell what's real and what's not?
I, for one, do believe a lot of the things I see/hear are actually real and not necesssarily hallucinations, just...things that I'm supposed to see/hear, therefore not out of the 'ordinary'...
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Ask someone to tell you if (s)he sees/hears it too.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Sorry to but in, can I have a hug though? I've been told I'm being diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder today. And I know it's not such a big deal, but I'm feeling pretty fragile. I still believe the spirits are real, not hallucinations, but my Mum says it really fits.
this thread makes me soooo sad. im so sorry for what you all are dealing with. mixed with my beliefs....i see other things in what you all have said that i wont go into because its controversial. and it breaks my heart.
i have been diagnosed with multiple personality disorder. apparantly i have several alters and im not always aware of them. i often hear voices..especially that of a little boy calling me mommy...and its not mine. its usually late at night when hes sound asleep. i hear footsteps. i see things hovering over me. evil dark shadows that get right in my face and take my breath away. i see dark figures standing at the back of my church. i'll briefly see somebody sit down next to me at church (male figure) and when i look..nobodys there. I feel like I am constantly creating characters to take over for me. MrsEmilyRoseLovett is actually the name I gave this darker more malvolent side of me...that I am mostly aware of, but have no strength to control even though I see her doing things that will ultimately destroy me. I go to counseling, but nobody knows what to do or how to help me.
I hear a spirit called Beth who is very violent and aggressive. She calls me horrible names, encourages me to self harm and kill myself and occasionally tells me to stab people. If I try to fight against her she strangles me.
I also see a statue, it's a gargoyle-type statue that watches me. My theory is that the statue is haunted and Beth came out of it, and there are more spirits in there who are going to come out and start being horrible to me like Beth is.
I hear a spirit called Beth who is very violent and aggressive. She calls me horrible names, encourages me to self harm and kill myself and occasionally tells me to stab people.
This is very much like my three male voices, Fred, Alex and John.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I used to have Daniel. I... liked him, but he told me to hurt people. I don't know where he is now.
Lately I've been... seeing things glow everywhere. Massive sparks of light. And I heard my phone ring today. The other day a woman with red hair appeared in my bed, telling me to break up with my girlfriend and have her instead...
Fallen Rain, a massive *hugs* from me too.
- Adam
Hail Horror Hail.
Strychnine in your minds.
No hope for today, they burnt out tomorrow.
I hear all kinds of different stuff... from moaning, to buzzing (like when a light is on that makes that noise), to all kinds of negative stuff...
"you are worthless"
"you are ugly"
"nobody really loves you... they are all lying"
"you need to SH... you know you want to... it'll make you feel better..."
"you are stupid"
"you are pathetic"
"your husband is gonna leave you... you don't deserve him... he deserves so much better than you"
"you are sick"
"you don't deserve to be happy"
... the list goes on and on and on
(can't really tell if the voices that are saying this stuff is "my" voice... like things I am telling myself...
or "someone else's" voice... does that make sense????
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and then I also "see" stuff too...
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I see a naked woman, she is very thin and pale, sitting on a (I think) bathroom tile floor, leaning against a wall, knees up to chest, bloody towels and blades are all around her... stringy hair in front of her face so it is barely visible, but I can see the pain/numbness in her eyes... she is cutting herself... almost like she is trying to skin herself alive...she is moaning (I can hear it)........ she doesn't want to do it, but she can't cope with the emotional pain any other way...
the vision of her and the noises I can hear her making are so vivid, it seems real, like I am in the room with her...
Arrrrgh... I feel like I am going crazy!!! Like I am schizophrenic or something...
Last edited by BoundNoMore : 09-08-2008 at 10:23 PM.
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
When my Mother verbally abuses me (she has depression and goes through bouts of this), I have voices that say "kill your Mother", "I command you to kill your Mother now" "if you don't kill your Mother, you will regret ever being born" "your Mother must be exterminated, NOW" and I see the spies across the street, behind my window or down the corridor holding meat cleavers dripping with blood.
The voices:
- Say derogatory things about me.
- Tell me to self-harm.
- Tell me to kill people around me.
- Tell me to set fire to my house.
- Tell me to punch the person in front of me (if I were to punch with full strength, the victim would need facial reconstruction surgery).
- Tell me to obtain illlict drugs and use them.
- Tell me to go back to something which is best not returned to.
And the list goes on, but I don't want to bore you. The voices somehow think I'm a piece of sh*t but somehow simultaneously think that I am competent enough to carry out their commands of violence/self-destruction.
The funny thing is, is when I read a book, they read the words out aloud to me, so reading a book is more like being read to by someone else than anything else.
I also hallucinate people I know when they aren't there.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I have mild hallucinations, I suppose they could be described as meth-bugs, although I've never EVER done methamphetamines. They're these little dark bugs that fly all around me, and sometimes bite me, but they mostly just crawl all over me and everyone else. Which is annoying, but not too terrible.
And then I have Lucas Frank, (His last name is Frank because of the movie Donnie Darko, he acts all cryptic like Frank did), and he's kinda terrible when he wants to be. When I'm on the computer, he walks back and fourth through my hallway and into my kitchen, and then makes mumbly noises and the whole house starts smelling like blood. He tells me that if I want him to go away, I'm going to have to kill myself. So I've learned to deal with him, since I know he's not real anyways.
I am on Amisulpride 200mgx2 qhich helps me SOOOO much exept for the other day when I had a flash image. I know these aren't hallucinations but I had a man who we just called THE MAN as he never told me his name because I wan't good enough to know it. The first time he spoke to me he told me to hit a girl I was having an argument with, but I didn't I was close. Then he went away for a while and came back and said DIE to me. He killed me and I thought I was in a universe where everyone was fake so I would think that I hadn't died. (it's complicated) But I had died. He would tell me to SI. I would smell my own blood on my cat who I thought was special and somehow related to me. I once had to kill myself by a certain day otherwise something would happen to Angel (the cat) but my mum wouldn't let me kill myself but it turns out Angel was fine and it was a false preminition.
In the shower the man was talking to me and suddenly I heard a woman screaming at me.
Ever get that feeling that someone is taking clearly to you but you just can't work out what they are saying to you??? It's wierd.
Oh and I wouldn't drink water because it tasted of metal, all water was poisoned with metal and it was contaminated.
I can't remember everything it was all such a blur when it was bad.
Can i join this thread? I get illusions where i see and hear things but they arn't actual hallucinations [with the exception of the ones related to sleep]
It would be helpful to talk about them/discuss as i don't often get a chance to properly dicuss it. But hardly anyone i know, no one infact gets illusions.
I wish they'd go away :(
Can you describe these further? I am interested.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I hear all kinds of different stuff... from moaning, to buzzing (like when a light is on that makes that noise), to all kinds of negative stuff...
"you are worthless"
"you are ugly"
"nobody really loves you... they are all lying"
"you need to SH... you know you want to... it'll make you feel better..."
"you are stupid"
"you are pathetic"
"your husband is gonna leave you... you don't deserve him... he deserves so much better than you"
"you are sick"
"you don't deserve to be happy"
... the list goes on and on and on
(can't really tell if the voices that are saying this stuff is "my" voice... like things I am telling myself...
or "someone else's" voice... does that make sense????
.............................................
and then I also "see" stuff too...
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I see a naked woman, she is very thin and pale, sitting on a (I think) bathroom tile floor, leaning against a wall, knees up to chest, bloody towels and blades are all around her... stringy hair in front of her face so it is barely visible, but I can see the pain/numbness in her eyes... she is cutting herself... almost like she is trying to skin herself alive...she is moaning (I can hear it)........ she doesn't want to do it, but she can't cope with the emotional pain any other way...
the vision of her and the noises I can hear her making are so vivid, it seems real, like I am in the room with her...
Arrrrgh... I feel like I am going crazy!!! Like I am schizophrenic or something...
I just asked my hubby to read this post, and he started to and then stopped reading it and told me, "no offense dear, but getting inside your head is not something that I want.... it makes me hurt..."
*cries*
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
For example, you may hear voices in running water.
I have heard voices before when i've turned on dryers to dry my hands...so i see where the illusions fit.
I hear voices and radio static when I have the fan on during a shower in my bathroom on occasion, or even a typical floor/room fan as well...Is this similar to what you are speaking about? Sometimes I just wonder if it is sleep deprivation for me, but I'm not so sure...
