yes, it's horrible! i nearly watched a horror movie last night (which i hate) because it was described as being about a "group of psychotic murderers", and i wanted to see whether they really meant psychotic, or were mistaking psychopathy. because it's such a sucky mistake to make! then i was going to write to the TV channel and tell them off. i don't mind people saying i'm crazy though, because i'm like "yah... i know... and you're just boring", hehe. or sometimes i just call 'em crazy right back... because they aren't in charge of what "crazy" is.
i wonder if a part of the fear of people hearing what you're saying is because you feel ashamed or guilty? i know when i was younger, if i was saying or doing something i felt ashamed of, i would be convinced there were hidden microphones in the room. it's a hard way to live, and i'm sorry you have to go through it :( you're definitely making sense, and i hope you are able to get the help you need to feel less afraid.
xxx
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