much support and love to all of you. I hope she continues to imprve.
pls keep us posted and send along my love and strength.
and pls do take care of yourself right now too.
I hope this will be a new beginning for you both! Keep strong.
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
Well, i really appreciate all of this, i really do.
But i'm not feeling any better, i really wish i would be dead.
But not even that, i can do right.
I got sacked at work, cause my supervisor, doesn't like me, and told the bosses a lot of crap, about me.
My "best friend" told me to leave, a few days ago.
God, i'm just everybody's fool.
Why? Why always me? What have i done, to deserve all of this?
Why can i not be happy for once, in my life?
Obviously, i don't deserve it.
I can't take anymore. Life is crap.
"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody"
obviosuly marco loves you or he wouldn't have posted htis here. he wouldn't have been so worried and he would have deserted you. so i think you're doing a dis service to him by saying that. he loves you. and he wants you to get better and he'll help you every step of the way. so instead of trying to leave someone who would obviously be devastated by that loss, reach out and hold onto something that is solid in your life. hope you KEEP getting better.
Jess
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
Well...I believe there is a reason for everything.
Maybe this is the start of a new begining.
Just think, you must be meant to be alive.
To be on breathing machines one day and the doctors saying there is no hope and turning off the machines to being able to the next day be on the internet.....
that is saying something.
Seems like alot of thinking is in order here, wouldn't be very good to leave a small child behind no matter how much pain you are in.
No not everything is alright because he is there. But at least one thing is alrgith. and one thing is a foundation for other things. if you were supposed to have died then, considering how bad you were, don't you think you should be dead/ you have an opportunity now to reach out and get help to get better!
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
She seemed to be okay, yesterday.
But last night, she got bad again.
I was with her all night, and it really hurts, to see her in so much pain.
They assume that it's a problem with her heart.
Well we just have to wait and see, what's happening.
Well sounds like she is a very strong person......
to be undergoing heart surgery and to be in that much pain and still be making posts about how much she wants another baby.
She is still young and strong, I am sure she will be back on her feet in no time
