I'm glad you've started therapy and I hope it's useful in the long run. I can understand that therapy must feel traumatic in itself right now. How are you coping after your sessions? Do you have enough support?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
They were both things I had organised before my referral (my friends event and also mine) and were good distractions but it was still really hard when I came home.
This week I don't know what I'm doing afterwards, nothing is planned. My therapy is 30 miles away so obviously driving home but I can either just come home or go for a walk or something else, there's options.
I don't think anything you're feeling could be considered overreacting, whatever you are feeling it is coming from inside you and those things don't need to be judged in any way. However you are feeling is valid and important. How are you getting on?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You're not overreacting. You've been through an incredibly difficult and traumatic experience, and all your feelings are totally okay. I know it's difficult but try to let yourself have those feelings without judging yourself. You deserve kindness and compassion from yourself.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Really hard therapy today. I just want it to stop.
I want to stop being able to see it and hear it and I want it to stop hurting and I want my best friend back but he's the one who broke me.
Imo this person isn't a friend, he didn't stop when you asked and knew of your previous experiences. I'd stop talking to him and press charges in case this happens again to you or someone else. Sorry for the harshness but it's what I think.
Of course you want it to stop, this has been traumatic and changed a lot for you and for your relationship with your friend. Is therapy helping at all? Is there any way your sessions can be continued for longer than the 3 you have left? There's a lot to process and work through and I think it's important that you have someone you can talk things through with. Look after yourself. You can do this.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I asked her on Wednesday what happens, and she's only allowed to give me what she has. Then you have to apply to another agency with a waiting list.
She says we'll see how I get on, I've only had 5. Just over half. I may not need anything else.
They've been weekly, then in September they go fortnightly as she is away on the 5th and 19th, so I still have
August 29th
September 12th
September 26th.
I said I'd rather go from weekly to fortnightly to nothing rather than weekly to nothing.
That does sound like a sensible plan if there's no way to extend the number of sessions you have. I hope your last sessions are helpful. If you think you need more will you apply to another agency?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I can understand that. It's tough that there aren't enough resources/the right resources that lots of people need. Try and get all you can out of your remaining sessions and you can see how you're doing once they end and make a decision then.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
