Triggering (SI/OD) - Come laugh at the loser

[butterfly525]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kallisti

I don't really have anything much to say, other than the fact that I really look up to you here.

I hardly know anyone here, but you've always stood out as being so helpful.

^Ditto. I've never talked to you, but I've always thought you just seem like a really cool person. There are a lot of people who really care about you on here, please let them help you get through this. I hope your feelings get to a more bearable level soon. *hugs*

[Bitter_Angel]

I have just gone into college. Turns out I missed my handin date for an assignement. I have my dates mixed up. And the next one is friday, which I have no chance of achieving unless they want an assignment which is written whilst im doped up. gah.
oh and did i mention that if i take a week off, my attendance for the course will drop dangerously close to the fail rate for it.

Im in college now. And I so badly need to do damage. So you can all see now, there is no one else to blame for this stuff up only myself. Just like everything else is my stuff up. No one to blame for me messing the dates up. For ****s sake, why do I try when i know i will only mess it up.

Im considering walking out of college and never returning. I have a bit of money on my bank card. I could just get in the car and drive and keep on driving. who knows where I will end up and who cares anyway.

[battlekitten]

Practical advice: Could you get your doctors at the hospital to write you a note explaining the injury/painkillers/operation. Would that help with the deadline this friday and attendance? I know it can be really hard to motivate useful to do things that help yourself when you're really down, but if you can get yourself to try, the do.

Tough love: Stop being so hard on yourself! I don't know one person who hasn't missed a deadline due to forgetfulness/mixing up dates; it doesn't make you a failure or terrible person or anything like that. We all mess up, it's what we do after that counts.

Supporting love: I think right now you're going through something really hard; it can be so tough when you have emotional and physical problems piled on top of an already stressful life and I don't blame you for wanting to get in your car and get the hell out of there. That said, do try hunni, try and stick it out, and no matter what happens know that you have the love and support of everyone here. *hugs*

[pea soup]

*sending love*
i know thats no help...just want you to know im thinking of you.
xxxxxxx

[blondiebear]

i edited because i realized i had a how to harm part in there. it may have been regionally specific but it still was not appropriate.

talk to your professors. I lived at home when i went to university and one term horrible things were happening at home; my little sis just moved home from living with a dealer plus my folks were adding a room onto the house and parts of the ceilings collapsed.
Anyway, my professors knew what was going on. One of them walked me step by step through part of a final exam where i had to graph something.

That is my experience. so please talk to your professors.

can you get someone to take you out for a drive this weekend? it may blow out some of the cobwebs and dopiness from the meds.

hugs and a kiss so you feel better

[Margo]

You know you do have a right to be angry. Hell id be angry too if i were you. But you cant turn all that anger in on yourself.

Meh im sorry i havent been about to support. I really am.

I know the person you talk about isnt the Kim i know though. It really isnt.
somewhere along the line you let yourself be fooled into thinking all is fine again. It sounds very far from fine to me.

I can picture you going "hmmm" to this right now. So ill leave it there with a wry smile on my face.

Much love
Matthew xxx

[Bitter_Angel]

The kim you know is a figment of peoples imaginations. A sweet extrior used to hide an ugly underneath.
How much of a miricle is modern medcine really? You can do all kinds to save ones body, but whilst your doing that do they really take into account what they are doing to the person and not the onject, do they realise that they are sentecing them to life in hell.

And Matt your wrong, I have no right to be angry. I know we have talked about this before, but it was still my fault, i bought it all on myself. And after all the crap I put everyone through, I should be thankful, not angry and defintley not ungrateful.

This anger should be reabosrbed and burried. Its mine to deal with and mine alone.

That being said, I appreciate everything people have said. It does mean a lot to know that people are around and such.