Jenna ~ They've looked further afield but apparently there are just so few beds in Wales at the moment that no other health board is willing to give up a bed which I can understand. It's frustrating though because I think we all know it's needed.
Thank you for your kind words Belle :) I will try and keep as distracted as possible and keep working with the team. They are coming out daily to see me at the moment.
Tinkles ~ Thank you for keeping this thread updated lovely. Now CMHT have said what they have said to the refuge, it's unlikely I will be offered a refuge space for a very long time because they basically see me as too high risk. I spoke to my CPN and he said he feels it's all been mis-communicated but they can't undo it now which is so frustrating.
Crisis team will be out in a bit but I'm so tired now. It all feels so scary because the only hope I had was being able to escape the abuse and I don't have that now. Well if I win the lottery of course! :D Xxx
I know I'm trying to talk to you via Twitter but wanted to reply to this too.
I don't understand why they're refusing to allow you to go somewhere that would keep you safe and take measures even if you're a 'high risk'.
What about reconsidering an option that was given to you the other week. You hopefully know what I mean.
Please don't give up because of this knock back. I know things are so scary and difficult right now and I would be very afraid too. But there are other options, we just need to help you find the way to access them.
Is there anybody that you can stay with to escape the abuse and what's happening to you, Lottie? I'm sorry that the miscommunication has occurred and I hope it can be sorted. Sometimes CMHT's aren't very useful and funding is poor in such areas.
I'm glad that the team are seeing you daily - is that helping?
I don't understand why they're refusing to allow you to go somewhere that would keep you safe and take measures even if you're a 'high risk'.
What about reconsidering an option that was given to you the other week. You hopefully know what I mean.
Your team seriously worry me Lottie.
The option the other week isn't really viable for certain reasons which I won't go in to here, and just going to keep it between the people involved. :)
It wasn't just my team unfortunately. This was also the refuge's declining to take me on. I think the term used by my worker was that they want somebody who can fill a room but won't need their services as such - it's a very sad situation.
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Is there anybody that you can stay with to escape the abuse and what's happening to you, Lottie? I'm sorry that the miscommunication has occurred and I hope it can be sorted. Sometimes CMHT's aren't very useful and funding is poor in such areas.
I'm glad that the team are seeing you daily - is that helping?
There's not really anyone I can stay with unfortunately Belle. It's such a small area and because I've been poorly I don't have many friends here and I can't go away at the moment to my cousins etc because of seeing crisis team, although I don't think would manage the cousins at the moment bless them.
It is useful to keep in touch with the team daily although I feel quite frustrated and I'm sure they do as well by what can be done. I'm trying to keep lines of communication open though and at least they will see I am working with them and not kind of trying to run away from the situation. x
The option the other week isn't really viable for certain reasons which I won't go in to here, and just going to keep it between the people involved. :)
It wasn't just my team unfortunately. This was also the refuge's declining to take me on. I think the term used by my worker was that they want somebody who can fill a room but won't need their services as such - it's a very sad situation.
I know, I just wondering whether you would re-consider it. But I'll shh about it on here :)
That really sucks. The whole point of a refuge (other than to keep them safe) is the fact they are a service and obviously will have women staying there who are mentally/physically unwell.
Sending you lots of hugs and love. I know it won't help change the situation xx
I saw crisis team this evening twice because things have been going rapidly downhill again this evening. They have given me double the sedation which will hopefully work soon. I have to see the emergency psych doctor tomorrow morning. The crisis worker said she is hoping they will give me medication that will help me sleep for a few days as she said she feels I need a break from feeling so rubbish. It sounds like a good idea, I just hope the doctor is okay with me. Am pretty scared.
I think I will be safe - I'm trying to keep in mind that I only have to keep self safe for 9 hours now and then I can go from there with the Doctor etc.
Lotti you truly are such an amazing person and what is happening to you makes me so angry- as you know from our late night chats! If you need anything please ask- being a fellow Welsh person im am closer than a lot of others so please ask if theres something I could do to help.
In the mean time its so unfair to ask you to fight when its so difficult but you are worth this and deserve to beat this xx
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I am hoping that you are currently fast asleep and that the sedatives have worked. I am glad that you are seeing the doctor in the morning.
I know we haven't spoken before but I have seen you around the boards replying to lots of threads and you always seem so kind and supportive.
I am sorry that things are so hard for you at the moment but remember that there are people who would like to try and help. If you ever want a chat or anything, feel free to PM me.
That is a very practical way of looking at it dear, well done. I hope you managed to stay safe, and please remember we are here for you. I hope the doctor is very helpful for you. I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you, I love you very much <3 xx
Thank you for all your supportive message, it really helps & is appreciated.
The Doctor did suggest a 72 hour crisis admission but the ward is 4 hours away and I decided with the Nurse that it's likely to just raise my anxieties, and for 72 hours it's not really worth it.
He's put me on an anti-depressant to go with the rest of meds which has given me some hope at least that it *might* help. I really hope so anyway.
I hope the new anti-depressant helps Lottie. & it's good that your doctor is listening to you & that you have the emergency admission if it comes to the point where you really need it. Take care. x
I really hope the antidepressant helps love! I'm glad you're feeling at least a little bit hopeful about it. I hope things start to look up a little soon <3
I just wanted to *Bump* this thread again! Lottie is still really struggling and really needs lots of *hugs* right now. I know theres lots of people on RYL who love and care for her so please leave some warm messages and let her know how much she means to us!
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Lottie,
Im sorry you're struggling so much and things arent getting better for you! I know you've had such a rough time recently with the miscarriage and with your partner. Things will get better hun. It's going to take time but remember I LOVE you soooo much and just want you to be okay!
Love you lots,
Rupi
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