Are you home now?
The stuff about not wanting to bump into people, feeling fake if you manage to read a sentence; only feeling safe in certain places and knowing that you're being irrational but still being unable to stop it is familiar to me. I also feel self conscious as if people are looking at me and thinking what a loser or weirdo I am. What I'm trying to say is that you're not on your own.
Thanks for your reply.
I'm home- I had started to be delusional, I think. before I went in, convinced my MH issues were caused by some superior force... Glad I went in I guess, ,regulation....
That's the thing isn't it? It seems so real.....but you know on some level that its not. Glad that you got help in time.
You're right being mentally ill is scary. Our thoughts, perceptions and feelings are so basic that if they start to go screwy things get messy very quickly. But help is available - even if it isn't perfect!
It's not pathetic and I'm sure nobody here would laugh at you.
It must be very distressing to feel so low and to have the nightmares. I have heard of many people experiencing the same as you, bed-wetting when having nightmares.
The thing is, there *are* things I want to do next week. Not at a total dead end just yet. But I am Thinking Very Clearly and that's a dangerous thing.
Honey, can you edit the numbers out please?
I would say that given your weight, you particularly need to get treatment urgently. Overdoses in those who have a risk factor (like being underweight) can be more serious. The fact you did it last week too means that your liver/organs are probably already struggling.
It might not seem bad right now, but they do have long-term consequences. I think it would be a good idea to go to A&E as soon as possible.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
