Katy's now been admitted to hospital. I'll update here as much as she'd like me to.
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Love you, Katy, so proud of you for going. <3
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Sending you cuddles, I know its not going to be easy but sometimes the best things for us are the hardest. Hope you can get some well earned rest and support. Keep on swimming xxx
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I'm sorry everybody. I discharged myself against medical advice. I couldn't
stand it. I was restrained medicated etc it was some small wonder they didn't section me. So yes. I'm sorry. I threw away my chance. And I don't think I care...
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I see the crisis team on Wednesday. Then beyond that I don't know... I do still want to try really. It's just like I took this really hard step and accepted hospital and it didn't help at all. Makes me feel more hopeless in a way, like I'm completely unfixable?
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Try explain everything to crisis, what upset you about hospital, how you actually feel. Hopefully they'll be able to help you more and offer suggestions. But to do that they do need you to be honest *hugs*
You can do this x
There will always be a happy ending. If its not happy then its not yet the end.
Katy, darling, you have nothing to be sorry for. I promise. I wish I could be more use, but I am always here for you, okay? No matter what.
Love you loads.
♥
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Thanks for all the support much appreciated. I think I might be offered hospital again, but in my own area and on a female only ward. A very small part of me wants to take it if it's offered but a) I'm not sure I can stand it, it was too scary last time and b) I don't think my dad would stand for it because of the disaster last time. I'm all stuck. And I need some support. If anyone's still offering. Sorry for being such a dick.
I feel so bad for being so distant on RYL for so long and not being honest, I was just so scared of getting kicked off my course. But now I have been kicked off. So I can actually be honest. I just don't know if many people are there to care anymore, given how shit and distant I've been, then leaving an admission I know many would kill for.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
