Contains Suicide - Paralysis and Terror

[Sketchy]

I can relate to the not knowing what you want from one minute to the next, feeling like I can do something and then suddenly so awful. I find evenings and night is where my mood goes way down along with my motivation and I then feel guilt and shame and resort to self harm. I'm being a big smelly hypocrate here, but I think it's okay to recognise these thoughts but also to try do something to distract. Even if it is something very small, thats okay. With depression you can't be expected to snap back to the old you and be able to work lots and do lot's of activities, but even doing something small that can distract or lift your mood a bit might help. What about writing down tasks or enjoyable activities you want to do and feel you can achieve and trying to attempt them during times when your mood goes down? I know this is all easier said than done, but try not to be too hard on yourself if you are not feeling up to doing certain tasks (something I'm slowly trying to accept), and as Bitter Angel says, baby steps. It sounds like you have got through this before, and you can do it again. Take care.

[Rain Keeper]

Worse don't come out the way Huey neda to come outm sorry they you ccany see the way you are that things should be berthed that they are now and the fact ghat you really need some one to take you yo get help cause you deserve it

[Mrs Sam]

sending some pengy cuddles xxx

[Margo]

Thanks. Ive tried hard this week to be a little less wierd. Ive helped out in the house a few times and i had a much better therapy session on thursday. The medication seems to be settling now too and the overall level of anxiety is lowered.

I feel a false sense of security right now though. Im not sure it will last. The past 10 days had left me feeling a little more believing of how i am, mostly due to the depression coming and going and the fact i harmed myself. Now im settling i feel more unsettled,(if that makes sense?).

I feel a huge weight of expectation.



I need a little Jimney Cricket character to constantly tell me it will be ok and to push me along. I seem incapable of making that voice stick in my head.

Its called faith right?

[Pomegranate]

Proud of you Pengy. I shall leave him in your capable hands though to use whenever required :)

[dollpart]

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Originally Posted by ninjapenguin

Thanks. Ive tried hard this week to be a little less wierd. Ive helped out in the house a few times and i had a much better therapy session on thursday. The medication seems to be settling now too and the overall level of anxiety is lowered.

I feel a false sense of security right now though. Im not sure it will last. The past 10 days had left me feeling a little more believing of how i am, mostly due to the depression coming and going and the fact i harmed myself. Now im settling i feel more unsettled,(if that makes sense?).

I feel a huge weight of expectation.



I need a little Jimney Cricket character to constantly tell me it will be ok and to push me along. I seem incapable of making that voice stick in my head.

Its called faith right?

I think you can do it.

Feeling unsettled by settled-ness is sadly really normal. You get used to things being "off" and when they right themselves you tip a bit. It's okay, you can get through it.

Expectation is heavy... but it will be okay. It's pointless telling you not to expect/ push yourself too hard but no-one else jusdges you as harshly as you judge yourself and by any standards you've done well to get where you are.

hugs.

[mikey]

You know I have masses of faith in you Matthew. More than enough for the both of us so TAKE IT!
Love you.

[Rain Keeper]

Faith

[Merc]

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Originally Posted by Rain Keeper

Faith