Can I just ask why Sammie hasn't actually posted here herself? I understand she's very ill as you say and needs the help, I just don't know why she isn't here thanking people for the support or at least acknowledging it? Or maybe even defending herself in the argument that has ensued? Genuine question, would like a genuine answer, not an argument.
I hope you take the help that has been offered to you, Sammie, I hope you understand just how lucky you are to have been offered the help in the first place. There are a lot of people who never have this opportunity, so take it, use it, work hard at it and live a happy life you should have been living already.
I'm gonna tap him like a maple tree. I'm gonna search him for some syrups. I'm gonna be having sex with him.
i agree with you LeftPhalange i hpe that when Sam is upto it/ready/able to or whatever she will post here to acknowledge and respond to the support/thread.
i think that would be good.And meanwhile Sammi i hope you are safe and alive and fighting your ED as best you can.
xx xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
I havnt posted in here, because some of the comments I found very upsetting.
and at the moment I am not in the right place to deal with them.
Im sorry.
But yes I do want to thank everyone so much for the support they have given me, and continue to give, you are all very sweet, and I really do appreciate it.
I have my IP meeting tomorrow and I have been told to expcet an on the spot admission, so if that happens I will get someone to let you all know Im ok.
Sorry Im being such a crap person at the moment. I really am sorry. And I dont want to lose any of you as friends.
It sounds like you are struggling a lot right now Sammi and I'm very sad to hear this.
Please understand that the comments that have been made here, upsetting as they may be, are sid with concern for you and only your best interests at heart. No one here wants to see anything bad happen to you and we will all help you as much as we can to accept recovery and get better. Sometimes this must be done with things we don't want to here.
That aside I truly hope that you appointment goes well tomorrow and that you find the strength to work hard to get better and enjoy your life as you should be. Recovery is possible, please use the support and tools offered to you to fight for this.
Take gentle care
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
I really hope you get the admission and accept the help.
You've suffered for so long and I think it's time the anorexia gets the boot.
There is a lot more to sammie and than her weight and when you get through to the other side, you'll shine!
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
It's okay to be scared, it's a very big meeting that's taking place tomorrow, perhaps you could look at the distraction list on here and try to do some of them to help yourself settle down?
Talk to us about why you're scared exactly, we could help you with that fear.
Of course your ED will be kicking up a fight, you're doing something that goes against it, you're doing something pro active, but you're stronger than it. Try your hardest to block it out, of course, don't do anything otherwise destructive to yourself in doing so.
Try to get some sleep tonight, too. I understand sleep will be extremely difficult to get considering tomorrow, but it may help you feel a bit better to be rested and out of reality for a while and in sleepland, too. Maybe have a bubble bath before attempting sleep? It may help.
Im just scared that I know Im going to bed admitted extremly quickly, and Im scared about what they are going to say to me tomorrow, and when my CPN sees my weight I know she is going to break hear heart, cause were really close. and Im quite physically unstable so Im scared Ill be forced into the general first, and just every scenario is trawling through my head.
I want help I really do want the help.
But anorexia is screaming at me like crazy to do a runner
I think it's important to remember this has to stop somewhere. You can't keep on being ill forever. And now it's your choice - do you let it consume you, or do you fight back. Coz it's one or the other. I wish it were easier x
Good idea to use the distraction board.
Also, make a plan for all the POSITIVE things you want to do when you leave IP, things you may not be able to do now but want to do when you are more able to.
It is scary, you have every right to be scared and many of us can relate to it. but try your hardest to turn it around and use all the help offered to you.
hi darling i hope you are okay i dont usually come in here that often but i saw your name and that you were looking a bit of support so of course i had to make an exception :D hehe
im sorry that you arent doing great lately and i hope that everything does go okay for you tomorrow remember that they are there to try and help you whatever decision that they are going to make.
love you lots and sending you lots of hugs and cuddles
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I am panicking like crazy, and my anorexia is screaming at me, and I dont know what to do.
