Thank you Roiben.
The night before last the voices told me I was bugged, that I had implants in my arm and I had to cut them out. I stayed up really late hearing them tell me this over and over, it got so overwhelming that I ended up cutting my arm. Badly. I ended up at a hospital getting it treated and they called the mental health team. I'm now In hospital. Last night I was so exhausted, having not slept for over 24 hours and I slept nearly through the night and a bit of today. I'm still hearing the voices, but less sure of their validity and less consumed by them. The hospital isn't the greatest place, there isn't anything to do and it's quite suffocating but I've agreed that I might need the help. When I'm stabilized I might be transferred to another hospital. You are allowed to smoke here which is a big bonus.
I've taken all my medication while I've been here and so far I haven't been poisoned which is also good.
I'm glad that things are being sorted out. I hope that you will feel better soon. Sorry for not providing support earlier but I'm in hospital too and my phone's internet is sporadic.
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I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thanks and don't be sorry Oly, I know you are in hospital and having a hard time.
I've been on the unit since Friday night. I've actually been able to sleep, which I think is partially due to being exhausted, complete lack of sleep, as well as being compliant with my meds which are sedating. I've been trying to do some reading but my concentration isn't too great. I love reading but its difficult at the moment..
I feel pretty claustrophobic in here...
The voices are still around but I feel less consumed by them, I don't feel compelled to act on their commands though it is still distressing. My regular Dr said he won't transfer me to the other unit until I am more stable as it's an open ward. I'm not sure what he sees stable as though...
I'm glad to hear that things are improving. I'm sorry to hear that it is such a scary situation though. Keep going and I'm always here to help.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I was transferred to another unit yesterday afternoon. It feels a lot safer here. Patients at the other hospital evoked more paranoia and fear. Lots of yelling and swearing, some threats thrown around too. I'm a little bit wobbly today but this hospital has a compulsory group program which will hopefully keep me occupied. I have to go now but will post again later.
Thanks again Steel, you're great,take care of yourself.
I was transferred to another unit yesterday afternoon. It feels a lot safer here. Patients at the other hospital evoked more paranoia and fear. Lots of yelling and swearing, some threats thrown around too. I'm a little bit wobbly today but this hospital has a compulsory group program which will hopefully keep me occupied. I have to go now but will post again later.
Thanks again Steel, you're great,take care of yourself.
I am glad that you've been transferred to a nicer unit.
I am sorry to hear that you're feeling wobbly, do you feel able to communicate to the nurses?
Compulsory group program, what does this involve? (to be honest me being autistic I wouldn't cope with that) How do you feel about that?
Keep us updated.
Thank you, you too.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
It's quite a relief being here, I must say.
I haven't really spoken to the staff that much but tomorrow hopefully I will feel bolder tomorrow and be able to approach someone.
The program (from the timetable-type thing) has all sorts of groups, mindfulness, art therapy, distress tolerance, people skills, stuff that looks helpful really. It is helpful as it means I'm not so isolated but it is a little difficult to go and be in a room with quite a few people for an extended period. The staff seem quite nice too.
It's quite a relief being here, I must say.
I haven't really spoken to the staff that much but tomorrow hopefully I will feel bolder tomorrow and be able to approach someone.
The program (from the timetable-type thing) has all sorts of groups, mindfulness, art therapy, distress tolerance, people skills, stuff that looks helpful really. It is helpful as it means I'm not so isolated but it is a little difficult to go and be in a room with quite a few people for an extended period. The staff seem quite nice too.
I'm glad its a relief. I hope that you will be able to speak to the staff, although it is hard if you don't know them.
I'm glad the program looks helpful. I tend to avoid all groups because I'm somewhat socially problematic and the noise of the day area makes me want to scream (I have had several meltdowns in the day area). BUT don't let me discourage you! By all means keep up as much as you can with the program, I hope it helps.
Are you on any meds now?
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I could imagine groups and areas where people gather would be difficult for you Oly, in that way it's good that you aren't required to attend.
I might be going on an outing today with the group which would be nice, a staff member just told me she had to check with my Dr if I'm allowed to go.
They've just called us all to the foyer, I'd better go. Thanks Steel and Roiben, I'll be back later.
I'm on 800mg of seroquel at the moment, and have been taking it regularly since last Friday. I'm drinking coffee at the moment, it's delicious.
The voices are a little worse today, but I'm managing so far.
800mg quetiapine (Seroquel)...I really hope it helps :)
Did you go on the outing? How was it?
I'm sorry to hear that the voices are still bad. The quetiapine will take time to reach a steady state in your body. Then I really hope it helps
How are the groups going?
Yes, it is hard; when I was in the adolescent unit (and before I got diagnosed with Asperger's), I would have panic attacks in groups and walk out. Then I got diagnosed and they were all apologetic. Annoying.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
The outing was good, it was refreshing to go out though I was experiencing...paranoia I suppose. I've spent less time in the company of others since last night. The voices have been worse today, I'm not sure why.
I've gained a little weight too which is due to the seroquel I think and it bothers me a bit. I feel very suspicious at the moment... I'm trying not to chain smoke.
I am glad you managed to go on the outing. Did you let the staff know you were feeling paranoid? Do you think the voices are worse because you are feeling more insecure right now, with the weight gain and the outing?
I hope you are able to talk to the staff. It may be that they can do something that will help in dealing with the voices.
Be gentle with yourself.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
The outings etc will be hard at first but things get easier as the treatment works. Well done for working so hard.
Unfortunately Seroquel does make a lot of people put on a fair amount of weight. What is the food like at the hospital? NHS food is vile lol.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thank you Roiben.
I did end up telling my nurse that I was feeling paranoid, though he wasn't much help. Other patients don't find that particular nurse helpful either so I haven't been put off talking to anyone. My arm needs to be looked at today, and I get the stitches out on Monday so I'll get to speak to a nurse soon.
Perhaps being stressed is making things worse.
The food isn't too bad, though I've not been eating much.
Sorry to hear the food there is so bad Oly, that sucks.
I went out with mum today and I bought a new jumper. I didn't last long at the shopping centre. It probably wasn't a great idea to go to such a busy area, but I managed and am ok.
Things will get easier with time, just try not to do anything that will stress you more.
How are you finding the group program?
Shopping centre sounds scary. You were brave and I really respect that.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
The program is mostly good. I'm on an adolescent ward (Being in the age bracket that is in the middle between adolescent and adult) and finding it a bit challenging as I'm the only one in the group with psychosis and their issues are quite different from mine. But from what I hear the adult groups are a lot about kids, grandchildren, divorce etc. So I'm in the middle.
I had the unhelpful nurse again tonight which was frustrating as I am feeling a little worse today. The voices are worse still today, well this evening, I'm trying to keep distracted.
Keeping distracted is a good idea. What do you have in your room to do? I am currently on three days of leave, but when I'm on the ward I've had my laptop, music and books which have helped. I am sorry to hear that you are feeling a bit different from the others. Are the other patients treating you ok? Unhelpful nurses are irritating.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thanks Oly,
I have my laptop, lots of books (which is great when I have the concentration) and my iPod (would not cope without almost constant music) Sometimes when the voices get really bad I almost forget to distract myself, if that makes sense, it's like the concept completely escapes me when it's really bad.
I'm a little concerned that they seem to be getting a bit worse. I will tell my Dr when I see him tomorrow.
