Contains sexual abuse - Nothing but Hell - Page 2

Frail Existence · 17-06-2011, 03:15 PM

yeah but doesnt matter as much as physical or sa.
i am fine. sorry. thanks.
correct, cant make me get help but dont want anyone saying anyrhing to anyone.
no help needed. itll be fine.
sorry.

needle girl · 17-06-2011, 04:20 PM

honey all the types of abuse- physical, sa, and emotional/mental- are equally bad and all matter.

troubleshooter · 17-06-2011, 10:20 PM

I know you well enough to know you'd never exaggerate. You don't want people to feel sorry for you or try to help, so why would you make it sound worse?

Frail Existence · 17-06-2011, 10:30 PM

I dont know. sorry.
this thread is pointless.
and why keep it when dont let others help?
sorry. dont mean to not. just cant. sorry.
hate making em. shouldnt of. sorry.
let it die. doesnt matter. sorry

crazykat · 18-06-2011, 07:49 AM

Of course it matters, what scares you about letting someone help?

Frail Existence · 18-06-2011, 03:03 PM

Every part of it scares me and all. Dont wanna be taken away. Dont wanna start over again. Dont wanna leave family behind. My dad would be VERY mad to. He supposedly never recalls any of what he has done. So he denies it all. And because that I get introuble. Its all complicated. Help is comparison to hell and chaos for me in better terms I guess.

And doesnt matter. Im fine and can do without this and all other threads. sorry

Frail Existence · 18-06-2011, 03:17 PM

Guess maybe thats why I say I exaggerate and am making this stuff up. Nobody has any rememberance but me. Or at least they say they dont remember. And nobody has ever listened to me anyways when have reportd and have been gurt for reporting before. So, could say maybe am scared they wont believe me and/or they will ignore me.

crazykat · 20-06-2011, 03:08 PM

That's understandable why your scared but there are people that can help you but only you can make that choice, however we are here to support you

Frail Existence · 20-06-2011, 03:39 PM

Thanks.

...Last night... got smacked twice. For stupid joke. Sorry.

I dont end up hurting myself, somebody else does it, to me, for me.

And today is just going to go on as if nothing happened. Didnt sleep AT ALL either.

Could maybe use the support. Dont wanna have too much cause Id feel selfish. But when thread gets too long, I stop it.

Thanks.

troubleshooter · 20-06-2011, 07:33 PM

*wraps arms around Libby gently* It's not your fault you got smacked, even for a snotty joke you don't deserve that. It's not ok for you to be hit. And it's not ok for ANYONE to hurt you. You're not being selfish, you need some support and love. *rocks you*

Frail Existence · 20-06-2011, 07:39 PM

*lays against you* wasnt even snotty joke. Didnt think it was bad. Ever heard Hannah Montana? Was joke bout that. Thats all.

And afterwards I was talking to someone else and I ended up getting really upset at them. They werent saying anything wrong. Feel bad cause started saying things to try and get em upset. Said was sorry and idk if that person is upset with me or something else now. Wont say. Im sorry.

troubleshooter · 20-06-2011, 07:47 PM

It's okay honey, I bet it was a silly joke. *snuggles* And just apologize to that person. You were upset, everyone explodes sometimes.

Frail Existence · 20-06-2011, 07:52 PM

was suppose to be. I did and have few times. Just asked em gain what was wrong and they said they cant talk now.
i kind of exploded on you the other day. Sorry. Need stop doing that.
*hides my face in your shoulder*
I just feel really down today.

troubleshooter · 20-06-2011, 08:01 PM

*strokes your hair and pats your back* Give them some time. You need a place for all that anger. Try talking to me next time, it's okay. I'm not upset with your for getting mad the other day. *rocks you*

Frail Existence · 20-06-2011, 08:04 PM

Give it a box. Have safe box, more like big envelope. Itd need more than just a box though. *curls up laying against you* I will try n talk to you next time then.

troubleshooter · 20-06-2011, 08:16 PM

That sounds like a good idea Libby, both of them. *rocks you more* It's gonna be okay. And can I hear the Hannah Montana joke? I bet it is funny. =)

Frail Existence · 20-06-2011, 08:21 PM

Not that funny but know how the show she is split between the normal teen and her rock star life? All I said was maybe she had DID like me. Katie thought it wass funny. *wraps my arms round you* love you t tracie.

troubleshooter · 20-06-2011, 08:30 PM

*hugs gently* Love you too. And that is funny. :) You have DID? I didn't know that.

Frail Existence · 20-06-2011, 08:32 PM

Think thats what its called. With Caroline. Or at least thats what Anna said was called. IDK the term atm.

troubleshooter · 20-06-2011, 09:20 PM

Oh wow, I totally forget. Yeah, I know what you mean and that's probably it. I even met Caroline. Sorry, sometimes my mind checks out for a bit. =P