I think you should leave your bit in. It's well written and explains clearly what's happening for you, which you say yourself is something you struggle with at appointments amid the dissociation and other things.
^^ this - totally
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I definitely think you should leave your section in because thats how they will know how its affecting you and how you feel. It gets the point across. Good luck.
we just stumbled across this post of yours and read the letter your mother wrote here.Just wanted to say, even though it isn't really what you were asking, that we find it very nice that your mother understands your struggles psychologically as many parents don't and refuse to try.
You are lucky to have her supporting you and willing to to understand what you are struggling with.
We hope things get easier for you in all your struggles.
Hugs and hope you get some satisfaction. It is a process but you and your mum are taking the really big step of bringing your issues to the table rather than let issues build up and not get dealt with.
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we just stumbled across this post of yours and read the letter your mother wrote here.Just wanted to say, even though it isn't really what you were asking, that we find it very nice that your mother understands your struggles psychologically as many parents don't and refuse to try. You are lucky to have her supporting you and willing to to understand what you are struggling with.
Yes I am very lucky. For many years she wasn't involved and didn't understand but we worked through our relationship a lot and she is so helpful now. I couldn't handle this situation without her.
My CPN arranged a CPA but nobody told me about it so it was today and I missed it. My CPN & psychologist are saying that they did tell me but they didn't. My mum ended up yelling at my CPN and my CPN has been bitching about me, as I knew would happen. They should have got the letter today but I haven't heard anything yet. Nothing got sorted in the CPA. I'm frustrated to say the least. Everyone seems to be stressed and bitching at each other which doesn't help me.
Just got a voicemail from my GP saying that he wants to discuss the letter with me and there are a few things that 'we need to move forward with'. Ahhhh. I'm so scared.
Sounds a very abusive portrayal of yourself... What part of you says these things about you? Maybe it's hard to accept that you need care, kindness, understanding?
That's an important understanding you have there about your Dad.
You don't need to continue to live by his rules. But I do understand the destructive power these things have.
You were as brainwashed to believe some false things. You were raised to believe you were bad. [Me too...] But that doesn't mean that's who you are.
Do you have an accessible part that cares about you, and can be kind to you? Or is she hiding and scared because she doesn't want the goodness damaged?
She isn't allowed any control. That part of me was repeatedly told I was wrong and I believe him, I really really believe him. The safer part of me allows me to remain alive and I see that as good enough, rather than committing suicide like I deserve, anything more by the way of goodness just isn't allowed. Its bad enough I'm not dead.
