I've been lucky enough to have therapists who aren't alarmed or angry when I SI. I don't want to do it anymore because I know and have finally experienced better ways of coping.
Over 7 years ago I met another member on RYL... we became best friends after talking for months and I fell head over heels for her for along time I kept it quiet as I didn't want to ruin our friendship and put an end to the support we gave each other but eventually I blurted it out and she felt the same!!!! After a few months of being together we decided that by harming ourselves we were hurting each other so made a pact to stop. I stopped cutting myself and I helped her recover from her eating disorder, it wasn't easy and it caused arguments and we both had relapses but in the end, falling in love with a fellow self harmer made us both see what we were doing to ourselves and we stopped.
written down it sounds really cheesy lol but it happened!
7 years ago I was at my lowest point and could see no way out, then one member from RYL literally saved my life. we've been together 5 years this June and are both currently in our last year at university. Life couldn't get much better and deep down inside I know that the part of my life containing self harm is gone, hopefully forever.
I was moving out of a house where one housemate had made my life a living hell. I figured I was then moving in with strangers, and wanted a fresh start, and part of that new begininng was a life without self harm. Now it's been almost 18 months, and some of the people in are now some of my best friends in the whole world. I'm not sure I could have made the same friendships if I'd been hiding myself away harming, instead of talking to them when things went wrong.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
After I really hurt myself, I sat in my room at 3am and just sat there in silence. I realized, this isn't helping me. Even after I hurt myself, I still hurt. I needed to find a way to heal. I sat there and cried for a while and then got the will to tell my mother and ask for treatment.
When my best friend found out I was doing it. She was so worried and so upset, I knew I had to stop, if anything for her.
The grass is always greener,
Someone else's past is always cleaner,
But I'm a believer, but there's a fool in all of us Tumblr
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My parents and friends reactions.
At one point I actually got bullied and called an attention seeker and got hated because of it, so that was the biggest kick which scared me out of doing it, or at least to hide it better. My mother also really got really upset and ovvereacted, and due to my social anxiety prior the bullying, it scared and shocked me out of doing it. These days its more my *good* friends getting upset when I do it, and being sweet and supportive and asking me to stop for them. I care about them so much, so I really do try.
Not the best reasons, but as long as there is one I suppose. :)
When I was at Senior Camp and I realized my friends and others around me were happy and confident and I spent a lot of time hidding away. I had a lot of time to think and I realized that I need to change, I need to be who I want to be and not be controlled by my SI. Thats when I decided to give up.
That was in Feb and ever since I've been trying to give up. :)
"A mirror reflects what is upon the outside, but not what is upon the inside. The outside may be scarred and broken, but on the inside you are beautiful."
"Recovery can be more than just those breaks in between your falls"
Similarly to other posts, I just reached a point where I realised I deserved better than this. I deserve to look after and treat myself, and I deserve to be able to wear what I want and do what I want. I wanted my money to go on sweets and cake and flowers and jewellery, not on pills or razors or bandage equipment.
I don't know if that makes me sound too egotistical, but yeah.
I left home to start uni and my mental and emotional state improved dramatically, plus I realised that I was on my own and if I didn't start to look after myself no one else was going to do it for me.
If I don't stop I won't be able to do what I want in life and it's not fair to put my family through this anymore.
My little brother is 12 and he gets upset when he sees my arms because he doesn't understand.
I need to do this more for him than anyone because he doesn't deserve the worry that his sister might end up dead.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
for along time I kept it quiet as I didn't want to ruin our friendship and put an end to the support we gave each other but eventually I blurted it out and she felt the same!!!! After a few months of being together we decided that by harming ourselves we were hurting each other so made a pact to stop. I stopped cutting myself and I helped her recover from her eating disorder, it wasn't easy and it caused arguments and we both had relapses but in the end, falling in love with a fellow self harmer made us both see what we were doing to ourselves and we stopped. 
