I hope you don't as well. You don't need to. I know you miss Keith like hell but another scar or two is not going to bring you closer to him. If anything it will just be a reminder of why you felt he needed to be with someone else. Something else to beat yourself up (un necessarily) over. I was actually just looking at your photo album from this Chrsitmas before logging in here and think how much you and Keith resemble each other in the eyes. It is actually really cute. I know it sucks for you to be apart from him.
I also think it is very easy for you to dwell on how painful it is and how much you miss him and to focus on that, rather than the fact that you LOVED HIM ENOUGH to let him be taken care of by someone else, and to then later not drag him away from everything he knows, regardless of how much you wanted it. You have already made the hardest sacrifice a parent can make. All you do by focusing on the pain of being separated etc is make things harder for the pair of you hun. You will get through this.
I don't think anybody will or COULD EVER tell you how. You need to figure that out by yourself and the first step in doing that is to try and find another passion, another care or interest (although I know you love Kelly and Kaleb), and do something for YOU. Work towards being the wonderful role model to Keith that I (and probably many others) know you can be.
*lots of hugs*
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