I know being committed involuntarily can be not so much fun. It's happened to me several, several times.
The thing is, they can send you back involuntarily...but it's up to you to decide to work with your treatment team. It would be so much better for you to go back into treatment by your own choice. They can do as much as keep you "safe." But recovery is a choice you will have to make.
You deserve so much better than this hun. You are a truly wonderful girl with such an amazing heart. You deserve to be free from this. Please let them help you. There are sooooo many people who love and care about you.
I am always, always, always here for you beautiful. You are strong. Fight this. You CAN do it.
Love you *hugs forever and ever*
Jess x
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I'm okay. They won't do it, they are just saying it - lying. I don't need it & they said if it carries on/gets worse & its not getting worse, 'cause it was fine in the first place. They just want to scare me into 'getting better'.
I'm okay. They won't do it, they are just saying it - lying. I don't need it & they said if it carries on/gets worse & its not getting worse, 'cause it was fine in the first place. They just want to scare me into 'getting better'.
That is one big contradiction and you know that. I believe you know how unwell you are.
Helen, they (and you) know that this has gone well beyond them being able to scare you into getting better. Of course being sectioned is a frightening thought, but it may well be the only option left. You know you are ill, but if you do not want to recover that is up to you, no one can force it on you.
baby girl you know you are very ill & need help...
please think long & hard about this.
please.
i cant lose you & i know deep down you dont want to live like this anymore.
you need to recover for you & you need to make that choice...
but you will be sectioned if this carries on, & you dont want that...
i love you. i dont know what to say baby.
You are very ill
No matter what I say you won't believe me or us, but you are ill.
Maybe a section is what you need, you're too ill, you need the help
xx
Helen, you know things are not fine, you are not ok. You are ill, you are killing yourself. Deep down i know you know that and you know they dont threaten sectioning without good reason.
If you dont want to go back then you need to show a real improvement and show them you can do it at home but i personally think you'd be better in hospital. Could you not go in voluntarily? You know im here for you and i love you. Im really scared that you will die hel, please seriously think about it.
Im here if you want to talk/rant/cry/text anything....
Love you xxxx
Through the dark, a strand of light, the light continued to get bright, with it came the strength to fight (Gem)
i hope u get the help u need chick before it gets the stage that u have to get sectioned. u can do this chick u can get better u need to keep working with ur team and everyone.
sorry dont have many words but if u d wanna chat im here
<3
cheryl xx
Helen i didnt reply to this last night when i first saw it. i wanted time to think.
But what i feel now is that while people cant make you recover i do think quite simply if they dont section you now they will actually be failing you [again].
And deep down you do know you need help.You do and i know you do.No matter how much your ED tells you otherwise.
But the sooner you can make even the tiniest decision that you are going to recover even a bit [by small steps - perhaps even focusing on part of one behaviour not all of them] i think the better.im learning that the hard way [though my problems are different] and i still dont know if i will make it.
But you are very very ill and the sooner you can make even the tiniest decision that you are going to do this the better.
From my experience the longer you leave it the harder it gets.
You have made great steps but your life is at risk.
Anyway thats enough of my advice cos given my own situation it probably isnt very good for me to be advising others!!
xx xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
I have to go back to work in a moment,, but I had to post and say that this would be the best thing for you.
If it happens,, it's because you do need to be there.
But it hasn't happened yet,, don't panic until it does!
Sending you all the cuddles in the world
Xxx
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
Helen can I honestly say something? I'm really not trying to be mean here but I think a section is necessary. You've said you want to recover and I believe that won't happen if things continue the way they are at the moment. I think a section would at least help you to begin the recovery process, even if they ARE forcing you at first. Because let's face it, nobody on here wants you to die. We all care about you.
"How can I be a gynecologist? I can barely look a woman in the eye!"
♥
I agree with everyone who has said a section is what is needed, I don't think you should be sectioned back to cotswold as it was very unprofessional there & they didn't seem to have your needs in mind, but a section into somewhere specialized for ED's seems like a good idea right now. Deep down you must know that. You know you are ill & you know you will die if this carries on. None of us want that. At all.
I know you hate controlled environments though, & being sectioned = no privacy, no control over what is happening, nothing but them being in control, like I've told you before from my experiences, & I'm sure you're aware of what a section is about.
I think if you really deep down don't want to be in hospital(I say this because maybe somewhere inside you do because you know you need help & a lot of it at that) then you need to work with your team & you have to, at some point, choose to recover.
You can't go on like this forever angel, I know you feel depressed most if not all the time, & you feel suicidal & like life isn't worth it anymore, but I think that's because of HOW life is, I think you'd want to live life if it was better for you, I think most of us here if not all of us here are in that position, of wanting to die because life is that awful for us, but things can change. I know they can. I believe in you. I believe things can change for you & you are strong enough to beat your illnesses.
At times, we are so deep in our illnesses that we feel they are who we are, you know how I am with that, & that's so far from the truth, you are not your illnesses, you are Helen, you are an amazing girl, so, so very loved & cared about, so many amazing qualities, skills, traits & features about you my angel, so many...
Please try to think about this logically.
You are everything to me, I can't lose you...
We are going to NY one day, remember?
Things can get better baby, it can.
Keepfighting baby girl, & keep talking to us & your team.
Oh my god,, why?
Helen needs us so much right now!!!
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
Banning occurs when a member rule breaks deliberatly/seriously/more than once. You cant wavier it just cos someone is ill. It doesnt work like that, that would be far more unfair.
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