Support For Dave (bleedingdragon)

[~JellyBaby~]

Honey we'll always be here for you, we love you and we're all here to help you fight through these four months, you'll get there honey, I know you will. Hang in there. X

[Never_ending_pain]

I totally agree you don't have to go through the next 4 months alone. you have help here. We will be by your side always.

snuggles and hugs
Cindy~

[bleedingdragon]

Amy thank you so much for this support thread for me im
overwelmed right now.

Its wonderfull to me, having all you support and care about me right now.
your all amazing .

im sorry ive been away from ryl,

just an update.........

Ive been discharged from my comm mental health team because i wanted to see a psychologist, my nurse was really angry with me for going to my dr asking for the referal, she kept going on at me how impossible it was to get an appointment with the psychologist. Grrrrrrrrr i felt a bad terrible person for asking for it. she didnt give me much choice stay with nurse and get nowhere or get referal to psychologist but if i did they would discharge me , there and then. Well i couldnt stay with nurse so i said i want a referal. This second nurses treatment was just as bad as my first, why is it you are made to feel so bad. Cause thats how i feel im tired of fighting for what i should be getting.

Anyway ive recieved my letter from psychologist team and its gonna be 4 months before i get an appointment just for an assesment, ive only just sent reply back....god i hope they recieve it in time i had 2 weeks to reply......its been so hard to fill out their bloody paperwork. Why is there allways so much stuff to fill out its tuff enough anyway then having to fill out paperwork on top...grrrrrrr.

Just for an assesment not for sessions. I dont know if i can hold on for 4 months but im gonna do my best, then if i get an assesment its gonna be 6 more months before i get an appointment........its crazy .... 10 months ..with no other support from professionals. I know others may have longer and its hard for anyone waiting but 10 months for me .....
i dont know .....i ....should have seen the psychologist from the beginning............
....i know he/she isnt a miracle worker but anythings gonna be better than where i am right now.

I feel abandoned by my family, my mum did very little while here, the one good thing was she was with me when i saw my bullies sidekick, and she was supportive then. Other than that she doesnt want to know, she wouldnt even stay with me in my house while she was here, instead staying with her friend , Ha ....safe ground yer..... you dont have to be around me do you......
....i dont want to be around me, but if you arnt i feel so alone and abandoned by them, they dont care nor does my dad.
I know families arnt perfect and things happen but their distancing from me and constant questions and expectations of
why arnt you over it yet, just forget about it, its been ages since your divorce why havent you got through it yet,
it must be your fault not the nurses that your not improving,........................................ ...............

I wont talk to them about it anymore. Other than my brother whos supported me all along, altho i think hes tiring of me, im such a burden arnt i oh im so sorry .................................................. ........................
for causing you all this trouble i should be ok by now shouldnt i .........well i wish i wasnt here that would solve everything wouldnt it.

my mum wont talk to me about what the nurse said to her, i gavemy mum permission . But my mum wont speak to me........grrrrrrrr. My mum wont talk to me about the conversation she had with my nurse......why......whats to hide.

She my mum warned me off asking her about my past and stuff with my dad, she said im going back to spain and
"i dont want any stress off you dave".............hell i give up oh so sorry mum i will just go and hide yer never mind whats going on with me i thought you came over to be supportive ........well i was wrong there .

hell wheres that big black hole i wanna jump in and disapear for good

And she sides with my dad over the phone conversation i had with my dad where he said those hurtfull things to me. My mum denies my dad said them. Im so angry im 42 years old why cant she be open with me its killing me more knowing they are hiding stuff, my relationship with my dad has allways been stormy,constant arguments, putting me down, we dont speak much, in the last few years our relationship is better but still not as it should be and the issues between my mum nearly leaving a few times, and her depression and she nearly ended everything, ............for f**cks sake just tell me .

my mum telling me to talk to my dad about it will be a total waste of time hes never told me in all this time. ........................life is so ............hard....... easy get out clause innit mum just ask dad dave.... er yer you were there to mum why cant you be honest with me. Ive been honest and open with you ive told you how bad ive been and my attempts on my life.

Im just lost ........... but holding on knowing others care more about me at ryl ,

i have a drs appointment in 2 days, these last couple of days have been hard the bully in my head grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Get out of my head .............................


Ive focused on others and cared for others because i care about others, and its helped me keep going and stopped me sometimes thinking about my stuff, but i realise to
i have to step back and face some of my stuff here, thats so hard and scary too.

youve shown an Old Dragon that he needs to sit back sometimes and let others help him , im so greatfull to have you all here

Amy what youve done for me speaks volumes and thank you for saying im an amazing friend ..er i care about you amy and will allways support you

im gonna keep battling even tho its hard, and try and stay strong knowing my friends are close by my side you all helpme.

lots of hugs Amy and stay strong yourself
look after you

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Ive gotta go hide for a bit.......................


i will be back and reply to everyones replies please be patient with me, its so good to have friends here at ryl who care

Dave

[chocostashchick]

hi dave honey
i hope you are doing better
hang in there sweetie you are so strong and so brave i know you can do this
parents are always hard, nobody is perfect and when our parents are imperfect it is especially hard, but it sounds like yours love you in their own way even if they show it in strange ways. i can sympathise with that and i am so sorry your relationship with them is strained right now to say the least.

be strong and keep us updated so we dont worry too much

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mimsy

Hey Dave,
I send lots of hugs to you. We miss you. Take care of yourself.
Miriam xxx

Miriam,
Thank you for your hugs and your support im hanging in there

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

[quote=Ally83;230809]*hugs for Dave*
Take care of yourself hun.
Much love and more hugs.
xxxx
Alyssa


Alyssa,
Thank you for your support, and your hugs help me alot

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Hi Dave,
*hugs*
Thinking of you, take care.
Siobhán Xx



Siobhan,
Thanks for your caring hugs and thinking about me

take care

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

[quote=Never_ending_pain;231000]Dave sweetie sending you *massive hugs* I know you are struggling right now and I know its so very hard to see past all the pain you are feeling but know that you are a survivor and will win this battle you are fighting. Don't lose hope and Don't give up we are all here to support you.

will look for you later on IM if you want to talk.
huggies


Cindy ,
Thankyou for your massive hugs, hugs you back lots, im holding onto the survivor bit, hope i can win thanks for believing in me,
thanks for your support
Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by SpazticPunk131

*hugs for dave* I was wondering where he had gotten to. Stay strong!!! Lots of love.

Evie,
Thank you for the hugs, and i was hiding alot,
will try and stay strong

take care

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mandimoo

i too have missed you, *big hugs* mand x

Mand,
thanks for your hugs and support, means alot


Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by chocostashchick

dave rocks

Callie,
Thanks for saying i rock means alot, and thanks for caring

your great to

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by victim+of+hate

Dave-i'm here if you ever need to chat hun.x

*hugs*

Chels my friend i know your not on ryl as youve left but im thanking you
here anyway. Your a good friend and this Old Dragon is around
thinking about you
take care of yourself
shout me if you need me on msn

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Apple

*snuggles you*
been missing you around Dave.
please stay safe.
will be thinking of you.
much love.
xx

Hey my friend,
Thanks for the snuggles , they comfort me,
ive missed you to i will try and be around more
i am staying safe as much as i can
big hugs
Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Typsee,
Thanks for saying i spend alot of my time supporting and caring for others its because i care about them. Your right ive often supported others and not asked for support for myself, but i had Amy who started this thread, so thank you so much. I do need to allow others to support me.
Thanks for saying im a wonderfull friend to others here, yer treading water is tiring im trying to keep my head above water. It .comforts me to see others showing there support.
Im tired of fighting im trying not to give up, thanks for believing in me


Hugs
Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by *~putridangel~*

Dave, youve always been there for me and I want you to know that I am still walking by your side my dear friend. Our hands are still held tightly, never to let go.
Please keep fighting. Please keep yourself safe
Much Love Dave
xxxx

Dear Dear friend,
Thank you for your kind words, you to Rowie have been there for me and im so greatfull. I know my friend you still walk by my side
holding your hand it comforts me, thanks,
im trying to stay safe and fighting as long as i can

much love back

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by concrete girl

Take care, Dave =)
*massive hugs*

Thanks so much for your support
it means alot
your hugs are comforting
hugs you back

Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by TouchVanDerBoom

Hey, sorry you're having a tough time Dave. Hope to see you around again.

Francesca,
Thankyou for your support it helps me alot, im trying to be around more.

take care
Dave

[bleedingdragon]

Quote:

Originally Posted by The Oncoming Storm

I'm not around much anymore, for various reasons. But you were one of the members that made me feel comfortable here.

You are a wonderful person. Anything you need, just ask.

l




Thank you so much for saying that you felt comfortable with me and the support ive given.
Again your so kind in saying im a wonderfull person,
your support means so much

look after yourself
Dave

[chocostashchick]

dave honey i hope you are staying safe and doing okay