I'm so happy you're getting the help you need hun!
It sounds really big and scary but you really deserve to get better *hugs*
xxx
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
Glad you heard hun and I hope the assesment goes well, I know it must be very scary but try and emember how much you wanted this, how much getting better will open your life to so many new and wonderful things.
Take care
Xxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
This is fantastic news. It's scary, but good good news! When i had my IP assessment, although in a different place, i just got added to the waiting list and had to wait until a bed was free for me to be addmitted.
Please embrace this help. You do not want to spend the rest of your life going round the most horrendous (un)merry-go-round. You are worth more than that!
This is what YOU WANTED. And have wanted for a very long time.
So co-operate with everyone involved and help them help you.
You're lucky to get an assesment and this opportunity so accept it and embrace it. The main person that could stop this process from happening is you.
And I dont understand the crying seeing as it isnt happy crying. This is what you wanted to happen. You've wanted it long enough to prepare yourself mentally for the day you were one step away from IP.
Good luck to you though.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
fragile as glass, why is it in every post to Helen you're so harsh to her?
Yes, this is what she wanted, but she is severely ill, so of course she's going to be frightened & it feels very surreal right now for her because to her, as she told me yesterday, it's just an assessment right now, they haven't said they're going to admit her, so she's scared she won't get admitted, & she's also scared of another issue that I can't say on here.
Of course she's going to be feeling extremely vulnerable & insecure & worried & scared, she cannot control crying either, I think she has every right to cry, these are her feelings & she's entilted to express them, she's probably crying because she's feeling very muddled inside & overwhelmed with what's happening for her, I don't tbf understand how you can't understand that, or anything else for that matter.
& for the record, she hasn't said she isn't going to co operate, or that she isn't going to do this, she's allowed to post for support though & she's allowed to post with how she's feeling, just like many other people do when this happens to them.
Furthermore, I don't think you can ever "prepare yourself mentally" for IP, especially when you're in Helen's position & have been through what she's been through with professionals. She thought she wasn't even going to get IP/assessment, so it's very wrong of you to say that she's wanted it long enough to prepare for it mentally. She wanted it, yes, doesn't mean she thought she'd get it, therefore with that mindset, how on earth can you even begin to "prepare yourself mentally" for IP? Aside from the fact I don't even think you can anyway.
I don't think she's lucky either considering how long she has had to wait & how severe she's had to get just to get an assessment after all these years.
DecorusCalamitasfragile as glass, why is it in every post to Helen you're so harsh to her?
My intention is not to be harsh to Helen DecorusCalamitas.
I just feel that the posts to Helen (and others) can be more helpful when given different angles to the situation given. I also believe in honesty and I would not insult anyone's intelligenge, (including Helen's) if I lied in my posts with how I thought, felt and saw things.
I stand by what I wrote and your accusation of saying that I said she wasnt going to co-operate with people is not true. The reason why I said ''co-operate with everyone involved and help them help you'' was to encourage her to be open even though it will be hard to do so.
Anyhow I feel uncomfortable talking about someone else like this and I dont think I have to justify myself to you.
Helen, if you have an issue with me you are welcome to PM me anytime. And I do mean my good luck to you.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
I find it interesting that you spend two paragraphs speaking about someone else like that & justifying yourself to me & then you said that? Okay then. Well, whatever, I stand by what I've said & I think it's a load of harsh words & nonsense.
Love you Helen, if she upsets you (which I think is likely because she usually does) just ignore what's being said & keep posting with how you feel & what's going on for you. & Don't be afraid. xxx
Wow. Chill guys. I don't understand why everydamnthread I post has to turn into some huge f-offdeal. Hmph.
Thank you for all the support everyone, Yep I'm terrified & Sarah is right & I will co-operate. I'm going to try my damned well hardest, I know this opportunity doesn't come around often & the NHS, for them to actually do something for someone & spend their money on me, is a huge deal & something I will be forever grateful for.
I am nervous. For many reasons. But heh, what can I do, but wait and see?
I still can't quite believe they even will take me on, but we'll see...
Good luck, Helen. I wrote goose luck first and started thinking about geese which is a little odd! There were lots of ducks at my old unit. Anyway, best of luck with the assessment. I hope things go well and I hope you can be totally honest with them. I know that bit can be hard, it was for me.
Love. xxx
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
i read this with tears in my eyes but for a change they are good tears!
i understand why your mixed up and muddled Hel [though of course i can never get close to knowing how it must actually be to be you right now - i will never know that] but i am SO relieved to come here today and read this.i have been really worried about you and i know many others have been too.
You really deserve this help.i know you worry you wont get past assessment etc but you are so ill you are bound too.i know you cant see it right now but i really think/hope they will - if they have any sense [and surely they must have a little lol!].
im sorry this has taken so long but you can get better.You can.You have done so amazing to get this far and please dont give up now.
I love you.
How are things today?Please let us know when you hear more.
xx xx
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i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
I really hope you get the support you need with your Bulimia, and hope you get accepted. Sammi has been inpatient there a couple of times, and she might be there when you go, so if you need a friendly face. She will be around..
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Behave, or the thread gets locked, and that will be a sad statement for what RYL has come to if we have to lock SUPPORT thread for bickering. There will be no second chances.
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