Right, when I was 13/14/15 I was on Sertraline for a while and then citalopram and then something else, I dont think any of them worked really.
Then in hospital when I was 16 they gave me Chlorpromazine :DDDD <I loved the stuff, it zonked me out but considering I wanted to be dead it was a happy medium for me. Then they put me on Prozac as well and I think it has helped but I fear I am getting used to it and as I am on the top dose of 60mg a day, I am a bit buggered in that they cant put it any higher. Also to cahnge and come onto another med would take months alone.
I have also been on zopiclone, lorazepam, temazepam, seroquel and diazepam. And all they did was make me tired!
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I'm currently on a low dose of trileptal, which is working positively, planning on increasing the dosage later and adding some kind of anti depressant. Previously, I've had horrible experiences with medications. Keep in mind, I wasn't diagnosed with bipolar until later on in my treatment. Anyway, the first medication was zoloft. I was on that for about a month and my life was absolute hell. Anger, racing thoughts, impulsive-ness, suicidality, the works... I went of medication for 2 months or so (which wasn't fun at all) and then was put on topamax. Ha, that one was interesting. It caused me to swing from major depression to incredible mania (w/ psychosis; which is always a nice touch) and then back again. It was positive, I didn't binge once while on it, although I didn't eat much at all either - killed my appetite for anything (even water). That got to a dangerous point, and I was switched to pamelor. That was even worse than zoloft. In 2 days I was incredibly manic and almost overnight and I fell into this screwy mixed state (10x worse than zoloft experience). I went off of that, and was (finally) proposed the idea of having bipolar. No more ADs used alone, and was put on trileptal.
i was on zoloft for about 3 weeks before it started making me feel extremely suicidal so i was taken off it and still havent been put on anything else.
I´m on Mirtazapine (30 mg in the evenings) and Paroxetine (20 mg in the mornings) and they have stabilised me a lot but there are still weeks I am that sad and not motivated to do anything.
First, I only had taken Mirtazapine but that was not working well enough, so I started to take Paroxetine, too.
The side effects of Mirtazapine were heavy during the first weeks but then, they went away.
Since I have started with taking Paroxetine, too, I have been having very bad nightmares, so I might change my meds soon, although I am very afraid of doing this because now I am feeling quite O.K. the most time.
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I can't control my destiny.
I trust my soul. My only goal is just to be. (Rent)
I'm selfish, inpatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. (Marilyn Monroe)
I've been told to take one pill a day, in the morning. But I have a really eratic sleeping pattern - One day I could wake up at 6am, the next I'll be asleep until 4pm!
So, should I be taking the pills at the same time every day? My doc knows about my sleeping patterns but didn't menton if it's important to be precise about the time.
First I was on a medication that was dissolvable because I had trouble swallowing pills, but I had an allergic reaction to that. I can't remember what it was called anymore. Then I was put on the cousin medicine of Lexapro. I can't remember the exact name, but I believe it started with a "P." I've finally managed to push that bad experience out of the center of my mind though, so I don't really want to delve into the memories to remember the name. It made me horribly on edge and I completely flipped out on it and I became very suicidal. I'd never been before that drug.
Then there was a series of trying several different medications. They tried an anti psychotic that I think started with a "T" that gave me horrible temors and made me constantly feeling violently sick. Then they moved on to Seraquil, on which I also had really bad tremors and made me constantly tired, like all I could do was sleep, that's all I had the energy for, and so I pitched a fit about that to my mom, and she in turn got so fed up with it that she demanded I be taken off of it. Seriously, if one of their main diagnosis symptoms for me was that I slept a lot, how does giving me something that makes me sleep more allow them to see if I'm ever out of it?
They put me on Welbutrin, which I was on for a while, and then also preceded to do the following:
Then there was something else they put me on, of which I have no idea what it was now. I can't even remember if it helped at all. All I remember is I was at home trying to carry a bowl of soup from the kitchen to the dining room, which was about 10 feet, but I couldn't do it because my arms, hands, whole body was shaking so bad, and so my mom made them take me off of that, and they switched me to respiderol. And then once again I had varying bad bodily symptoms and so I was relieved of taking anything other than Welbutrin.
I don't think Welbutrin worked very well for me. The psychiatrist thought it was because my acting became phenominal and I put on a huge facade and pretended I was soooo much better and that yes, I should be taken off of the medicine. But on that medication I lost the drive and determination to do what I love more than I ever had when I was supposedly severly depressed. I think I became better in tune with my emotions during that period, because I was seeing a therapist quite frequently, and therefore I was being taught how to deal with my emotions (until we switched therapists), and therefore I recognized my depression enough to hide it so I wouldn't have to go through another bout of medications. I know I've also had problems with mania, and I felt that more clearly on the medication, but I still haven't said anything about it. I think they took when I was manic as being happy, whereas before my mania was expressed in rage, because I learned so well how to mask my feelings.
Two years ago I was taken off the medication because even after several months of only being on welbutrin, I was starting to develop really bad tremors again. I was taken off of all medicine to see if that was the problem. They started to go away, so bingo, that was it. And ever since I've refused to go back on medicine. There were some who tried very hard. The crazy lady (what I call my ex-psychiatrist) even tried to put me on the stuff that had previously made me suicidal.
I don't personally believe medication is the right thing for me. At least not anti-depressants or anti-psychotics. I think there's something more than just depression, but I haven't been to a therapist in over a year so I haven't had anyone to discuss it with. I don't think any good came from my meds experience except maybe that I learned how to mask and twist my emotions in a way that they seem acceptable, even if I'm horribly depressed.
My brother was on meds too, for a longer time than I was. I saw very bad, negative personality effects on him too. I do not really have a very high opinion of medications, but I do know they help some people which I think is great, but I don't think they should be dispensed as the "end all, be all" solution as they seem to be. But I certainly don't think they should not be an option, because for some it is the best thing to help.
Why after everything can I just not forget and move on?
Why after feeling more content does everything crash down around me and I start to hate myself again?
What's a girl to do when she's not strong
When everyone who holds my hand gets cut from all the thorns
Zoloft = very good for me. I'm on the max dose of 200mg (was on 250mg), and i weigh 49kg. I find it does not FIX the problem, but it is a great support. I have NO SIDE EFFECTS (except for when i was on 250mg - it was just too much!)
Seroqual = okay. Did it's job, but the side effects make it not a happy drug :/
Abilify = MADE ME SUICIDAL. I believe that this was NOT coincidence and there was another stimulus. I truely believe that it did alter my thoughts and emotions in a very serious way. However, this is not documented at all! so just cus it happened to me it won't happen to you neccissarily!!!!
Chlorpromisine = very good. It is an old medication, but it does it's job very well. Without it i am very unwell!!!!
Xiprexer = AWFUL for me. I would fall asleep standing up. if i want to be knocked out Xiprexer will do it! haha.
Thats about it that i can remember OH....
Diazapam = be very cearfull. i have been addicted to it and it was not extremely hard to get off, but if you treat it right it can be a very usefull medication to have.
You must remember (as we've all been told a million times!), that everyone is different! what works for some, may not for others (and vise versa!)
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Citalopram, I was given this aged 14 it made me self harm more often & worse than I previously was, it also made me suicidal = A big ZERO from me.
Zispin/Mirtazapine, soltabs/film coated tablets. Worked great for the first 2 weeks of taking them aged 17, until I started abusing them & using street drugs in addition. I made a big mistake telling my doctor about what I had been doing, & they were taken off me. At the time I would have given this a 2.
Zispin/Mirtazapine, film coated tablets,age 20 now under a new GP I've been re introduced to my old faithfull medication which works really well for my depression, but does not help my anxiety, as with all medications I do suffer from un-wanted side effects: Sensitivity to light & Muscle twitching. I'd give this an 8.
To Treat my anxiety:
Promazine, I have been on this just 2 days, it's working really well so far & I hope it continues to, another plus for me is no un-wanted side effects as yet. I'd give this a Massive 10.
To treat my High Blood Pressure:
Olmesartan medoxomil, prescribed aged 20 by my old GP. Worked too well, my blood pressure went too low, I felt dizzy & almost collapsed. I'm afraid a measly 1 from me.
Ramipril, prescribed aged 20 by my new GP. Works well keeps my blood pressure at a normal level, i suffer no side effects from this drug. I'd give this a massive 10.
Let's see. I've been on a lot of stuff. It's been hard because I'm 19, and when I started my body was still changing so meds didn't always work. They started thinking I was just depressed, then diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Plus anxiety issues.
Wellbutrin - first thing they tried because it's supposed to help stop addictions, so they did it for me for cutting. didn't notice a help.
Paxil - worked wonders for my depression for about a year, but then stopped.
Lexapro - had no effect on me, but worked wonders for my uncle.
Effexor - Worked slightly for me, but thought it was causing migraines so when I was hospitalized, they took me off it.
Prozac - Changed to prozac because it works well for my mother. Didn't feel any difference.
Zoloft - While the commercials always made me want to try it, it made my mood swings worse.
Buspar - For anxiety, I've never actually felt any difference. I was just taken off this week after being on it for over three years. It was always in combination with other meds.
Klonopin - I've been on it for a while, is amazing for my anxiety. I'm afraid it's going to be taken away because it's not ment for long time use.
Lamictal - For bipolar. Never really noticed anything, even at high dosages. Went off it for a while because my psych stopped seeing me, and when I restarted I got bad side effects. Lots of nausea. Not good.
Abilify - Used to help sleep at night and as a mood stabilizer. Gained 30 lbs in a month. Made me wake up in the middle of the night hungry like crazy, and I'd always eat.
Topamax - Never felt a difference. Now I wish I could be back on it because it's supposed to surpress your appitite.
Cymbalta - Noticed a difference right away. It was slight, but we're increasing it currently.
Seroquel - Help(ed) me sleep at night, not working so well anymore. Makes me hungry after I take it, so I tend to binge at night if I don't sleep right away. It sucks, but I just realized it, so hopefully I'll control it better. Mood is better, I'll be on it for a bit longer at least.
Plus I've got tons of meds from my neurologist for migraines. I don't even know most of them, though a lot are anti-psychotics.
