Triggering (SI) - I've just returned from hospital*update..kill me now*

[Mimsy]

Heya honey,

Keep posting..thats what RYL is here for.

When people are gone, its fairly normal for most people to remember the good. But, they probably didnt know him like you did. Or, if they do..they just want to forget it.

I wish you could cry honey- crying does help. Curl up in your bed and take the doggy with you. Let Micheal look after you for a while.

You are NOT a disgrace. You cope with things in your own way, and thats fine. Your brother just finds it difficult to accept. But you are not an embarassement, you're a lovely person.

Take care, sorry I cant help. *hugs*

Miriam xxxxx

[hurtnpain]

i have no words just hugs x

[Mandimoo]

hey sweetie, i hope michael makes you take it easy. you need to be clear with your brother. he is of rent paying age now, he either goes to college or gets a job. you don't need 2 houswives in one house...right? he will only get under your feet and annoy you, the more you avoid each other, the less chance for tensions, right?

i'm sorry that you've found another level of grief, i wish i could make it all better. he was once a good man, and i think that's the man you've been mourning since you were 6 years old. love you lots rach, hope you're feeling a little better, mand x

[pea soup]

so so so alone....
i absolutely HATE this time of night.
its only 8pm but no one is around.

im scared of myself.
****.
damnit.
i want to feel better.
i want to be better.
i want my father to come back so we can mend things.
jesus!!!!