I'm so pleased you gave her the letter!!!
It was very well written too,,
Well done sweetie!
xxx
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
Don't double dose your meds Sammi,, you know you shouldn't do something like that without a doctor having told you to.
You did such a huge thing giving the nurse that letter,, It was really strong of you.
But all you can do now is wait to see what happens.
You don't need to self harm - You are stronger than that sweetie.
I love you.
xxx
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
My mood is so low, I dunno what to do, or how to make it go away, or who to turn to, or who to talk, and now I cant stop thinking about the nurse and the letter, and me being fat, and urgh why do I even bother talking, would be better dead anyway.
**hugs** You wouldn't be better off dead Sammi, I promise. Unforunately there isn't anything you can do now about knowing if she's already read the letter or whether she'll pass it on but you've done an amazingly strong thing xxx
Rather than panicing, how about just sitting with how your feeling? It will pass/ease. You don't have to change anything about how your feeling right now. There is no rush, just sit with it whilst it is there and hold on for it to move on.
Use all those skills you have picked up over the years, Your still here and that itself a strong sign of your strengh.
The letter will be read and hopefully the help you need will be given.
Well done for writing it.
I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams. i'm just gonna ask where they're going, and hook up with them later.
Sammi, You're actually not on your own, you have a hell of a lot of support, you need to use it baby. I don't mean to sound harsh, but you really need to work with them & by handing that letter you are doing it! You really are doing the right thing & you're going to be okay. You will beat this.
x x x x
I know I have a lot of support, but the only people who seem to care are my GP and nurse! Ill be honest with her tomorrow, but only because I so despertly want the help.
My ed team..no nothing! I lied to them last time I saw them....
my social worker just said if I carry on she will detain me..so she dont really care either!
Im just tired of everything...im tired of battling this..Im tired of getting somewhere and then my recovery being sabataged..ruined..and Im back to square one again...Im tired of needing support..Im tired of being me..Im tired, because Imw eak and gonna have to go bed in a bit bcos im jstu exhausted, Im tired of being exhasuted....I hate myself I cant carry on.
Im sorry I know im selfish because there are alot of you who have nothing but seriously......even when you have support it never helps..and I know Im going to end up back in hospital..and I know thats going to be my life.
Im sorry Im such a horrible undeserving person.....Im sorry Im greedy, Im sorry im selfish, Im sorry for existing,....I
