I'm stuffed, as I had a huge bowl of pasta for dinner!
I've been feeling pretty crap most of the day, as it goes. The more physical side of withdrawal stuff decided to come out to play. Dizziness, brainzaps, headache, constipation. All of that.
It's Halloween, and me and my flatmate are pretending we're not in!
Ooooh..the brain zaps are the worst! Had that with the effexor...what an evil drug that is!
You are doing really well with your wd, Katie.
We'll likely pretend we arent home too. Our daughter is going to a party so she'll be out..not sure what we are going to do...
I really miss taking her around trick-or-treating. She didn't even want to do a pumpkin.
Thanks. :) Typical that I feel crap the day after I see my GP, lol!
She did mention that the full 30mg every day has probably now gone out of my bloodstream. *sighs*
Haha I definately feel old!
Especially with people talking about school and college, it was pointed out to me school was 6 years ago. In some ways I really miss it, in other's I don't, it's confusing/
.. sometimes I wish I could do school all over, right from the beginning, and make the most out of it, and have support this time round.. Hmmm. Thing is, I'm nearly 40 so it's out of the question.
Hello Heidi.
*gives you one of ween's cushions*
I must say...I'd like to 22 again *sigh*
Katie, she is 17, 18 in december!
I still can't believe she is so old sometimes...it went sooo fast in some ways.
Thankfully, we both wanted me to be home till she began full-time school, so I got to be there for everything.
She's such a lovely person, she really is!
Just had to shut down the comp.. We have macafee and i rather hate it at times! I set it to scan at 3 am, as i'm usually asleep/not online...but it's decided to scan at 1 pm!! And I can't get it chnaged...so it locks everything up and drives me mad!!
mm I've done that a lot, the "what if" kind of vision. To be honest I'm terrified of leaving uni, I have a lot of support there and when I enter "the real world", I'm just not gonna have that! only about 7 months until I do
And Hi Romp! And I can imagine it being scary, the realisation you child is now practically an adult. Personally though I've loved having a more grown up relationship with my parents, but then again that's for a number of reasons that are pretty specific.
But ark virus scans, hate them, apart from I keep getting blue screen of death so am paranoid about it!
She's at an important transitional age, romp, for you and her.
Heidi, hopefully you can plan for a support network out there in the world outside uni. Take things slow and steady. And you have Luke, which must be such a help too.
I left uni and went straight into a teaching job, and lived on site to start with. I was very lonely. No wonder I had a breakdown, and with all the stress too. Sorry to be morose.
Indeed, romp. Those closed doors. Sometimes I cry about them, and it's healing to feel the sadness deeply. Thing is, now there're new doors to open. But it's hard to open them having had doors closed in my face or my not even being aware of them when I was younger, does that make sense?
Irene, yeah, same here re the depression.
What kind of things does it relate to for you, romp?
I sometimes wonder that Irene, I mean I plucked up the courage to talk to the school nurse about self harm when I was 14 and I got a ****ing leaflet and that was it! It just makes me annoyed how many teachers knew I had problems and yet no one contacted my parents or GP.
I guess supportwise what i have now isn't feasible in any way shape or form in employment as I have a mentor who comes to all my lectures, so I never really have to deal with things on my own. Ideally I'll become more independant, but I'd like to have someone who I could tell if things were getting a bit much and I needed a bit of leeway/ just someone who could listen.
That makes perfect sense, katie.
It hits every once in awhile..."this isn't how it was meant to be"
I was in my second year of a bachelor degree, had a practice interested in taking me on for my placements...and everything...shattered.
Now? I'm signed off work so things are tight. Everything seems to have been dumped on hubby...
I just...still can't come to terms with it.
The feeling of failing at a very basic thing is huge and suffocating at times.
Oh dear, now I'm being morose!
It is nice, Heidi, having a different sort of relationship now. I love sitting and having a chat with her...she is quite funny and...very perceptive.
It's really something to watch her personality grow and evolve.
We're very lucky; she's just a very awesome person all around. She has a great circle of friends now. There's so much opening for her, it's exciting to see.
I can't believe she gave you a leaflet and that was all!! I wish too something had be done earlier...but my family was the type that, "what would ppl think ?!"
I like to think more is there for kids now, it *seems* there is...but I feel sad for all of us, who were passed over because it was 'taboo'...
How are they both?? I bet the wedding was quite lovely.
Another rainy day...bleh.
At least it was nice for the kids on Halloween tho.
Daughter went to a party, so hubby and I played Rock Band and Guitar Hero.. then decided to *really* play, so hooked up the guitars and had a blast! Poor neighbors...as the bevearage count went up, so did the volume, lol.
How have you been Kim? Feeling any better or still exhausted?
Hope you have managed to slow down a bit...??
